6:16 AM What was i looking for? A sculpture. A person bend backwards showing butt i once saw during my searches. The exact thing i saw last night. Someone dressed in black (they keep changing persons in the same character, at the apartment upstairs). A very thin black person, so thin, was surreal, bent, dressed in black. Then she left. Soon after i went to bed woke with reflux, but very bad, the kind i didn't have in years. It took me half hour of coughing to be able to resume breathing normally.

That on top of the very bad smell that's coming out of me. I keep telling Angela. It's dog smell kami. Yesterday i neglected to remove poops all morning.

And then in the morning i woke with pain. I have a number of patches with amoxicillin on my body. Yesterday i removed some old ones as i get irritated by the adhesive. Among those was the one at the injection site at Walgreens, 6 days ago. I mean, it was painful when i removed the patch last night, a little, but this morning it was a lot. The place is very painful to the touch and the pain started to spread to my head, right hip, right hand etc.. Bad pain.

This teaches me several things. The absorption of the antibiotic under patch is slower than i thought. There is something going on at the injection site.

I still have two close to the toe that have been punctured, some on calves, etc.. My rule is simple. I add one where it's painful. But the injection? What was with the injection that i got infected with? I put a new patch on it and now i feel heat at that site and throughout my body where i had pains earlier which means the antibiotic is fighting with the infection.

6:30 But their sculptures. Their sculptures could teach us things about their moral.

6:40 Now i feel cold all over my body though it's 77 degrees in here, almost like a fever. It's very scary.

2:00 PM Before

After 11:33 Trying to go to bed, got hit by the smell. Found two, one in each bin i went to. The first one was on a piece of plastic foil full of dust. I "waved" that foil, the bag gut pushed in the back of the bin alright, however i raised the dust. The second one again out of reach, had to go and get the grabber. Lately the bags are in position next to impossible to retrieve them and throw in the back, where they fall under the sacks. Earlier today i found two on top of the bin's cover, way up high. The only way they could do this is if they use drones.

I mean, yeah, you could do a prank one day or two. But the prank goes on for years and they do it to themselves too. Except if nobody really lives here, they just come and go.

5:55 AM, 17. I will put this entry here because is related to the above pictures. Just washed the sole of my feet with alcohol but they look still dark brown. I noticed for quite some time, my feet look brown and Angela's don't. Because she's at work most day wearing socks and shoes and shoes and i walk barefoot on the carpet.

Soak, wash, rinse and dry. First time it was an almost black slime i pulled from the carpet. I pulled gallons of it. It got lighter and lighter, and last looked like Coca Cola. But still. I wished i did it one more time but i got bored with it.

My right foot with the injured toe is stiff. When i try to bend the toes. So is my left. So i figured. It's got to have something to do with walking barefoot on the infectious carpet. Dirt embeds in the skin and if there's cracks or it simply passes through the skin, the same way amoxicillin passes through patches. A continuous feed with bacteria and stuff, leaking into my body.

Just built some new slippers using pieces of corrugates plastic cardboard and thinking to get something as soon as possible. Crocks. Something. Anything that would prevent me from absorbing the dirt from the carpet.

Now it unmistakably stinks like fresh poop. Got to go look into it. I know the algorithm. Every time i write on the blog, they bring some more. Michael Jackson sings on the radio (92.3 i guess). Don't stop till you get enough. But the question again. Is this 320 apartment complex empty?

4:34 PM Was trying to get outside to smoke a cigarette. Watching in disbelief a blanket and some food items abandoned on the grass not far from our sliding door. Not far from where i picked some poops in the morning. Going through the front door, sirens making the biggest noise i heard since i'm here. How is that possible, do they have a volume button? Still stinking, i knew they brought some more but was too lazy and/or tired to go and dispose of them.

4:50 Fools' gold. Today market went up celebrating Trump's show success until i posted that entry with Trump raising his right hand (the one who uses to swear on the Bible when he takes office). Then it went up when i went to sleep. Then it went back down when i got up and again up when i shut the blinds or about 10 minutes before closing time.

5:00 So i ate instead and when i was done again wanted to go outside to smoke and another siren went off. 5:38 Finally went to smoke my cigarette. One kid in the alley looked and me and ran away. Another one came from behind were the items in the grass were. By the time i was done and ready to go inside, two old women kinda yelling got out of the building and into their car.  

5:40 Earlier today i got very thirsty and went and bought 4x2 liter pops of soda, one small melon and a 30 can box of beer. Buda Light cause they were out of Bush. At the self check stand the cute Latina came to check my ID. She used a scanning gun, pointing at me, pulled the trigger like 10 times, wouldn't work, she scanned it the scanner for food.

I picked the melon by the same rule, dullest sound. However it is not edible. Picked unripe, been in a fridge for weeks, impossible to eat. Now i got to grind it down in the sinkerrator or throw it whole in the garbage.

I took this picture after the man got in front of me, kinda aggressive and then stopped suddenly, trying to get me into an accident. After i showed him the finger, he kept inviting me on a side road. Now that i look i guess he was high on something, as his face was showing.

So nothing to do with me personally. Right before that some guy with uncovered construction materials in a pickup took a left turn, no time to take a picture. I guess i was very irritated by the dust that contaminated the car's filter and is still in there. You have to imagine the level of detail this guys go though when they organize something. (But they screwed it with Trump, one small detail forgotten).

6:15 One more kid, blond, long hair, about 10, came at the blanket looking distraught, kept looking in my direction for half minute or so then she left. I remember one day, maybe 5 years ago, i was outside at the car and a Japanese looking girl was walking through the alleys, calling "her little sister" or something.

6:23 We had it planned. Got this wet carpet cleaner years ago and wanted to do the carpet tomorrow (parts of it, or where we walk upon), i do it every summer during the hottest day (gotta go and buy detergent though, i was sure i had some). No i don't have pets, it's a coincidence. Yeah i know it was hotter last week but i was sick with my punctured toe. So far i took about 40 500mg amoxicillin and i might be just cleared.

 So this is all about with the show with the hypothetical lost kid they came up after my entry with Trump.

6:50 Went for another cigarette, about 7 kids of all ages came in the alley and the woman upstairs came home early.

6:53 I was planning to go and check for poops, 4 kids came and sat at the blanket. I'm going to the store.

9:20 The kids are yelling in the back for hours now. I think they are affected by the dog poop smell as .

11:20 We came home from a long trip. Have been constantly harassed basically by all drivers that came close. Not only with symbolic LPN but with maneuvers, some dangerous, some just bullying. Huge pickups driving too close behind.

I think i have an idea who was the driver who hit us from behind in August 2021.

Two persons, a tall guy and a short woman talking next to our balcony. Had to wait a lot for them to leave so i can go and check the bottles at the door throw the window.

Home. The SW bin, the remotest and close to the tiny park, poses the biggest problems. An open black bag on top of it in the highest point, needed the grabber. Several others, loose or insufficiently tightened. I gathered them all with the grabber and tucked them again under my last sack of garbage. I think there are in there between 10 and 15, in two days since they emptied the bin.

But it still smells, never finished checking the other bins and the lawn.

In the no dumping place a new mat and kids yelling at 11:15. Finally went quiet and i can go to see more.

12:45 Went to smoke a cigarette. In my peripheral sight something was moving. I turned my head and saw a raccoon, under the deck. Not as big as the other one, rather shy. Enough to raise my BP to the roof, while smoking and being vulnerable. I stepped towards and climbed the stairs and went inside for the camera. While on the deck i saw the other two, smaller, probably a family.

It took me less then a minute to adjust the camera (start the flash) however they were all gone and i knew it was not a good idea to follow them.

Got back inside and my eyes fell on the Walgreens sticker i put yesterday on a side of an (old) piece of furniture. An idea came to me. I came at the computer and pulled the Walgreens logo. First thing i saw, that is not  your standard calligraphy. it's got a ワin it. Or a ひ.

Then something crossed my mind. Could the initial in W's name actually stand for a 山?

1:15 Got it. If in Japanese 山 (Yama) stands for mountain, i know the link with gods Yama and Shiva (both gods of destruction and rebirth).

8:53 Got to gave them in Taxes.

9:52 24 hours after they emptied the bin. They threw in doggy bags, black and blue, some unknotted, some insufficiently knotted and it stinks like hell all the way to the apartment. I gathered them all using the grabbing tool and a stick and tucked them under a garbage sack.

9:57 Approximately 7 days after that needle got into my toe the toe is still red, sensitive and slow to heal though i see progress. I do get chills and hot flashes but less and less. The site of the vaccine is sore, 36 hours after. After a 3 miles walk yesterday (the second since) i believe toxin and bacteria got pumped from that finger throughout my body causing stifness in all areas that have been exposed to wi-fi and cell phone.

However i crave another walk. Mostly because of the smell.

But this is not new. Could i had a form of it before, something like chronic? (This was the reason i wanted a shot). I'm gonna look to see what other kinds of anti-bacterial shots they have.

The wi-fi affected areas are not healing period.

1:34 Don't know what was wrong with me yesterday. Too much heat and too much garbage smell? As i said i panicked and went to the nearest pharmacy with immunization shots and asked for a TT shot. I already said who the guy in attendance was. Then at 10 PM i just crashed. Angela kept telling me to do the dishes, whatever. But i just shut the AC and fell asleep. Slept 3 hours and woke with pain in the area of the injection. Deep, like inside the bone. Enough to keep me awake.

Like the last couple of times they took blood from my right arm. Had pain all along my right arm, hand, shoulder and underarm. Back then i got away after a week or so with antibiotic patches in painful areas.

The ironic part is my toe at the right foot with the puncture since July 3 looks for the first time normal (pain is gone, rudeness is gone, all pain is gone in my right foot). Found a guy resembling him but i'm not so sure yet.

2:48 I think i know what happened. There was some sort of smoke last night around here and i think it's coming back. I also started to feel the smell of dog waste. Lately they put them on top of the lids of the SW bin. Gotto go and check.

2:51 That was no smoke. It was the smell of a poop laid on redwood mulch (very rare, dogs usually like to go on grass). The antibacterial tannins from the redwood mutate the bacteria whatever from the poop faster than your body can adapt. Because the body needs resources, brain resources to fight that, the conscious or higher level functions of your brain are being kept on a minimum level (partly shut down) and prone to suggestion (trance like).

I am more positive about this guy though. Dick, the sexologist?

3:52 So it was the red band aid with W on it. For some reason (trance) i did not remove it when i came home. When i did, i did not feel anything. About half hour ago i realized the site of the puncture is painful and i applied an anbitiotic patch. Just by applying it i applied pressure on the infected tissue and started to have first hot flashes and then chills.

12:55 I saw some animal videos, one showing aggressive raccoons and remembered this. It was for the 4th of July. They found and brought in an aggressive one. All the raccoons i saw before were eating worms in the grass but this one came towards me. Almost caught me smoking, but i saw it first. Got instead a push pin needle in my leg, where it stayed for days. Don't know how i didn't feel pain. Most likely it was stuck in my slipper (warm, fuzzy materials) that i sometime leave at the door. Or in my shoe. In Lake Oswego i was once chased by two coyotes on the street.

6:45 I was too tired last night and knew it's useless cause they will bring some right away so i just put a mask on and went to sleep.

But this morning i was nauseated and went and checked and saw a heavy black bag next to a vent at the next building, among others. Some of the vents there are also clogged. But there's probably no one in there.

8:36 Today i was feeling weird, i panicked and went for a TT shot. It was 5 days or more after the incident. The pharmacist, a very fast moving guy told me it is never too late but he doesn't see any symptoms. I was thinking like more for the future, to avoid similar incidents.

I knew from past experiences they would trick me somehow and today it was no exception. The guy who gave me the shot (same pharmacist), put a rend band aid with the name W on my arm was no other than... As an attorney he should know better how many crimes he committed buy doing this.

But that does not in any way compare to what his father did at 911.

12:00 E magar... Și n-are maniera!

There are now 5 Lime scooters across the alley... 5 persons supposedly came and never left... 

8:30 After sleeping in the afternoon, when i wok up was having some sort of day dreaming hallucinations. I ate and then had a couple of drinks and was missing cigarettes. When Angela awoke i got in the car and went to the liquor store to get some. Just when i left Phil Collins was singing Coming in the air tonight.

Windshield was dusty though i hosed it yesterday and i was driving with the Sun in my eyes. In front of me a guy did some very weird maneuvers, making me nearly stop. Then when i looked in the mirror, i saw a Tualatin Police SUV behind me. I froze knowing i had a couple of drinks before. But he went the other way and i went and bought cigarettes.

Came back and first think when i got inside i noticed the smell of fresh mold. I remember in the morning i heard people in the building doing laundry, several times. I went i realized heavy mold smell was coming from the basement.

I went and looked and saw about half of the vents around the building were clogged, some completely cover with soil and red wood dust. I proceeded to unclog them. It was 95 degrees and the smell coming from there was unbearable. I was all perspired and dizzy and covered with red wood dust and soil from heat do toes.

I had a small round brush that i passed through as many squares in those nets, trying to push the stuff that gathered on the inner side as well.

Due to some weird design, the exhaust pipes for laundry in this building go through basement and some are leaking. I once fixed them but don't know what is the situation right now. The laundry vapor in the basement wets everything and then creates mold.

A couple of people, one with a dog, came to watch my back while i was with the head down to the ground. When i got back inside, some weird smoke started to surround the building, covering the nauseating mold and detergent parfume smell that was now coming from the just open vents.

5:08 Went and did the rounds, disposed of some bags. At the liquor store a bunch of Japanese people went in ahead of me. Once in the store, they started to speak... Chinese. Once back at the apartment, a van with open doors and building materials inside. It smells pretty much like inside Chinook Winds casino. My whole body is inflamed after being there last week for two days, hours at the time. So they just poured some salt of the wound, so to speak.

5:28 At 100 degrees outside, it was still smelling like dog poop. Went by the west bin and saw bags on the ground in positions impossible to pick. I came and took the claw. When i was coming back with the claw coiled like in thr image, a woman, prbably the one from Apt4 was advancing towards me covering her face from the Sun that was in my back, showing much suffering on her face. The woman upstairs is missing. Don't know if because i said the stairs are dangerous, most likely because of the heat. There's got to be more than 100 degrees upstairs. She probably went home.

6:00 Also at the one level apartment across, where the 4th of July party with balloons was and where also is living of the Japanese girls that do gymnastics in the backyard and shows with other kids every time i thought i saw the other day...

11:17 The weirdest thing just happened to me. A few days ago i put a piece of plastic foil under the left side of the balcony upstairs using pushpins, to prevent bird seeds from falling on the concrete slab. Birds and squirrels are then comming and make a mess bringing red dust mulch on the concrete and in the way of AC which blows the dust.

I think two of the pushpins broke and the nail like tips fell on the concrete. I did not bother to gather them and the next day i washed the slab with the hose anyways.

This morning when i woke up i noticed the fingers on my right foot, that are not black like the ones on the left were hurting more than usually (diabetes, wi-fi microwave damage) with shooting pains at times. The finger next to the toe became stiff and a bit swollen. It is not the first time this happened so i did not worry too much.

Then i noticed it was getting worse, i was limping, the whole foot became sensitive and i decided to put a patch with antibiotics. In a few hours the finger started to be less swollen, painful and stiff however it was still sensitive to the touch.

I asked Angela to come and look, more like i wanted to show her how smart i am and beat diabetes pains and other symptoms with antibiotic patches. However when she looked she saw... a pushpin tip that entered all the way or about 1 cm into my finger.

I vaguely remember i felt a bit of pain when i put my shoe on, maybe yesterday before we left.

Now i cleaned with alcohol, put some generic Neosporin in the hole and a band aid around the finger, and with the patch with Amoxicillin 2 inches away (lately i added one with 2x500 mg every day, in different areas of the body), i wait to see.

However, i started to feel chills.

I was telling Angela, how much luck is to get one of the broken two in my toe and not to feel a thing and then stay like this for days, walk, etc.?

11:38 I started to fill dog smell in the air. Every time i did today i found at least one open bag or one in the grass. How many times? More than five four sure.

12:05 PM Is her with the dogs in the backyard right now? Was her at times also? 

2:18 A native of California. We'll see about that. But what is her age?

12:31 Have you seen the new generation Japanese models? (links on right, warning, some graphic images). Many of them could pass for Blacks, Latinas and even Whites in the US. Some, for kids. How they did that? I don't know but there could be some genetics involved.

I was eating when she came. I think she left a huge one by the stairs. I accidentally went outside to pick something from the balcony (door is closed with the AC) and found it, fresh. Now i'm nauseated.

I think she, the other she, others, come from this apartment.

12:52 Google is screwing with me badly today. Every time i try to do a search it does this. 

4:20 The result of the work of the heavy women climbing upstairs. Also this Wednesday they damaged the grass when mowing, to remind of a wall in a video i kept posting.

I (sub)scribe...

5:15 Mestubushi. Last night i wanted to get away and went to Chinook Winds casino. I did not play much but mostly been hanging around, in the parking lot, smoking in front. I noticed the cigarette disposal was close to the shuttle station, were mostly sick people were getting on and off the shuttle. So i tried to move at the other side of  the entrance.

When i went inside i was briefly upstairs. Using the stairs which are now enclosed in a temporary wall. Don't really understand what are trying to do in there but i noticed on both side of the stairs they were building materials, side under floor have been exposed and they were... machines, like a mini excavator with drills at one end. Though it was all enclosed, it was opened at both ends of the escalators and the escalators and the upstairs area of the casino were both in use by guests.

There was a security guy at the lower end of the escalators but somehow i managed to take a picture of one side of the escalator when i was coming down.

It did not bother me visually, but as a result the whole casino was filled with invisible irritating dust. It is painful, today i woke up but did not realize it but i am absent minded as a result of being exposed to that.

The stairs for upstairs at the apartment were probably like that for a long time, never saw them from that angle  until today, and because i am so irritated i panicked and emailed the office (thinking she from upstairs might fall and i could get the blame), and had to send them several email until they understood (or maybe not) what i was trying to describe. Apparently they did not understand from the picture what i was tying to say so i had to describe it in words.

It is not the first time when they are doing this at Chinook. They had done remodeling work at the roof at one time with the same result of dust being released inside and several years ago not long after i started to go in there, after 2016 in one night they used buckets of adhesive to attach vynil on large surfaces of the floor in the presence of guests.

During COVID they always used some sort of very strong smelling disinfectant, always when i was nearby. One day an Asian looking woman was washing the moving rails of the elevator with it.

In the day i got banned two women were chasing me wiping the machines behind me and i think that smell had something to do with the fact i went nuts and confronted that Japanese clown.

Last night i also went behind the casino and saw the sewer situation did not change.

I know what this all is about. They are trying to imply heavy usage of the stairs by me.  

6:08 I wish i could take more pictures yesterday. All the security guards were looking like Vikings taken from the movie The Last Kingdom though somehow fatter and slower. It was quite a show.

7:28 I always wondered. Where they took the Morton salt girl model from?

8:05

10:45 Have you seen the movie? Here is how the castle Bamburgh looks today.

11:15 Laura Stoica

2:13 AM Wanted to go outside to smoke the last cigarette before going to sleep. A strong sulfur like smell, too heavy to be able to smoke. Went to check. There is an old, stained, huge mat next to the North bin, other stuff in there that stinks like a restroom. Went to check the other bins. There was a guy, smoking next to SW bin. And then i saw it. A raccoon coming towards me. Still far away, went inside. It came at the sliding doors, looking at me. I think it was limping and hungry, but did not want to feed it. Then it would have come again.

Was thinking earlier. Why the adapter for my laptop (notebook whatever) broke so many times. The laptop was probably hacked or modified when i went to a hotel somewhere, it was putting out microwaves to a level of maybe up to 1% of that of an oven. However think of the exposure time, up to 10 or 12  hours a day. The laptop has one hinge broken probably because the plastic became brittle because of too much microwave radiation.

8:55 Woke up chocking. Got dresses and out of here. My walk felt like i almost been run over by a number of huge Sport Utility Vehicles of whose drivers can't see for 10 meters in front. Yeah i know. They should run backwards cause they have cameras in the back. I once saw one of these with a tiny camera on the front grill. That would do it.

Yesterday they brought at the bin the worst mat ever. Can't be from this complex, never saw a person that looked like could own it.

No need for dog bags today. It literally smells like a restroom and chocking mold. When i came back from my short walk, i felt the smell 5 minutes before i got here. No one is showing up on the alleys today uh huh suggesting again no one lives here. Upstairs, just the cats running though the green element is here. Don't know what to do, i only slept 4 hours. I started the ozone generator which hurts my eyes and makes my neck and back itch.

Also three lime scooters, suggesting people are coming but not leaving. (Like the case with abandoned kids bikes near my entrance).

Yeah i moved wet mats from the no dumping place near this bin so they can be taken out. That was before they had a contractor removing them every week.

9:13 I was going to write about, no loud exhausts today, however one started in that second, but did not run not for long before it left. Was thinking to take the mat, put it in the truck and take it somewhere. In front of City Hall maybe. But unlike the guy who brought it here, they would arrest me for doing that.

During my walk i also saw young virgin nuns from the Dominican Philippines Mission (to Tualatin, Oregon, US) with hair caught in samurai hairydo driving cars with blue smoke in the back, chocking me when i was climbing the hill, to fulfill the prophecy. Others doing other funny things, like walking with hands held together like for prayer.

(During my walk i was also thinking. If Biden can't run a campaign, can he be President anymore? (Is anybody running this country, other than...???)

Yeah i gave up after fixing the catalytic of the truck three times. It was on a 3rd of July, 2012, when it broke the first time (literally, to pieces that were rattling inside).

Then they stole it. After that i went to an exhaust shop and they welded one for 500 bucks that still works (somehow) to this day. I only use the truck for emergencies.

10:00 By the way Tesla is back up again, 25% or so for the week, dragging up the whole market. What did they do, put a fifth wheel on cars?

Fell asleep, woke up. Signs of infection in the whole body from that mat, though i have patches with antibiotics on me. Especially a headache. I think one of their aims is i get meningitis starting with an UTI (representing my sins), so i eventually have surgery to release the pressure, i don't know, my skull open, to fulfill the prophecy like Biden?

So i entered survival mode, went online and searched for a place where to take that mat. Found one in Newberg and a closer but  not certain one closer on TS Highway. So instead of calling, i jumped in my truck and drove over to make sure first. That reversed the exposure and the heat in the truck with no A/C made me feel better. Also the nausea disappeared during that drive.

However at Pride on Tualatin Sherwood they do not accept mattresses. But i took a glimpse and saw they accept motor oil. So i know where to take it next time. They sent me to Newberg.

So i came back home to call them and take the math, thinking one of the reasons they did this today is 4th of July. As i said in the past, any holyday would be good for the start of fulfilling a prophecy.

However when i got home to my surprise i saw the mat was gone. They left something however. A blue flower. That was there earlier when i left but now was move on top of a cardboard box. A blue bag open looking like a flower presented in a cardboard box. Blue bags first appeared after AlexaCrush appeared once on TikTok in blue jeans.

On the road, many vehicle with LPN containing variation of KGB and PG. PG from Parental Guidance i would assume. They started doing this after AlexaCrush episode which i tried to prove is the same with Myiuki Nishijima, with face distorted by a fish-eye lens and with eyes colored by CGI.

And cardboard boxes. Don't know what is the obsession psychosis with cardboard boxes these days. It started that is one day after i removed most of Amazon boxes i gathered in the last few months.

Trying to imagine how would have been me parading all the way to Newberg with that mat that was so stinky would make entire cities stink.

And there are, in this bin, under, some terrible things. I saw days ago a bucket filled with something fermenting. I opened the sliding door to air and there is no relief from outside.

2:17 PM Oricât aș clănțăni eu din tastatură, ei nu schimbă tactica meme-urilor la tot ce scriu (pentru curățarea memoriei dvs.). (Și mă fac să mă uit iar la poza pe care abia începeam să o uit...).

Chiar acum am depistat o mare sursă de confuzie în limba română. Probabil artificială, ca multe altele, poate fi responsabilă de prostirea generațiilor prin inducerea în subconștient (hacking, virus) aversiunea față de... amintiri ale experiențelor vizuale. A (se) uita. Nu cred că e acceptabil să existe același verb pentru două acțiuni atât de importante și principale în activitatea umană.

Amândouă au date în DEX ca etimologie latinescul oblitare. Toate cuvintele depistate de mine ca având etimologie sanscrită sunt mult mai aproape de sursă decât acest oblitare, care poate merge pentru uitare (franceză l'oubli), dar privire? Ăștia au copiat pur și simplu etimologia de la uita.

Cel mai probabil vine din dacă, unde corespunde sanscritului uta, care se folosește ca întărire la sfârșitul unei fraze, bla bla uta, care în română s-a transferat la început, în sens de iată/uite bla bla, care poate avea aceeași origine dacă/sanscrită (uta) iar cu timpul a evoluat în sensul de privește.

O coincidență nefericită s-ar părea care ne poate afecta psihicul la fel ca un virus.

O soartă asemănătoare o au cuvintele bucura, curea.

2:20 La marile publicații on-line scriu doar anonimi... Cine e Daniela Șerb?

6:55 Every time i watch an episode of Last Kingdom i become a warrior. I fantasize about slaying my enemies but usually it ends in a verbal fight with Angela who also becomes one. I think it goes to your subconscious, after seeing so many killings with blood and all. I hope we will finish them soon (browsing that is).

The series started in 2015 and ended in 2023.

We all know both Ukrainians and Russians are Vikings at heart. I mean, Russia was born as Kyevan Rus', where rus' in Norse language means row (a boat). The main difference is the Russians have some Mongol in them and also some fading Indo-European, especially by the language.

Wondering if the film was  not a tool of propaganda, following the 2014 war, to raise the Vikings in Ukrainians.

1:00 AM It smells like dog waste in here. I went outside and threw in the back of the bins several bags, found one bagless in the grass. The person upstairs like usually is walking through the rooms since 10 when "she came back" (i am not convinced is the same person) making noise during quiet hours (10 PM-8 AM), keeping Angela awake.

6:30 Sunday night after 11 i was driving on I5 with less than ten miles left to Portland with cruise control on 80 (128 kmh) like anybody else. I found myself away from the cars after me by about one quart of a mile and had one black SUV ahead one lane to the left. The current raised by that SUV suddenly brought into my lane a cardboard box, about 1x1x2 ft. Don't know if it had anything in it.

I did a violent maneuver to avoid it and another one to bring the car back under control. These new family cars have soft suspension and in the same time are heavy, for comfort, so are unsuitable for that kind of maneuver, especially if the road condition is not ideal, like that area of I5.

I was driving once in San Jose maybe about 5 years ago with the other Elantra, at a similar speed on a multilane piece of freeway when after a similar maneuver, trying to avoid something, i started to oscillate left right, and did it about 3 times until i stabilized the car, but that car was shorter.

It was in the same area when one night when i sat in line at Little Creek casino (for COVID) with a mentally disabled woman who disappeared earlier that day (from the same area, Minnehaha where i passed through earlier in that day) when i ran over a semi wheel (not tire) that barely touched the car under, with no damage (the other Elantra).

Within miles from where i've been hit by an F150 with off road wheels at midnight in August 20/21 in 2021. It was on a Christmas night when i avoided in the same way a bale of hay near Rice Hill, Oregon etc..

Lately i had to move a lot out of the way of lots of similar pickups that came too close behind, tailgating. I think they can always say my car is low and they cannot see under 10-20 feet in front of the truck, because of the height, cabin shape, seat adjustment whatever.

There was a big pothole at exit 11 (eleven miles to Portland) they now finally filled with asphalt.

It is a 70 mph area, people go with up to 80 but the road is in bad condition. Soon after the worst part or in the area that has been fixed recently, closest to Portland, the speed changes to 60. Main problem is the left lane is inclined to the left by 5-10 degrees. It was in this area or 10 miles to Portland comming from Tacoma/Olympia that happened most accident like situation, all man and i believe intentionally made. I believe they keep this road condition intentionally so it can justify if something happen.

7:20 I have been drinking and smoking a lot in the last few days. Even after sleeping all afternoon, i have trouble remembering things, typing. Mostly because of some dog poops kinda away from this enclosure of the complex, across from the mailboxes, i only found today. (Saw them when i left for a walk, disposed of later). I suspect they come from she dogs in heat, putting out pheromones because i could not stop from thinking at one thing only and there was only one song stuck in my head.

12:00 I (swear ) never knew until today what S&M in Rihanna song stands for... Would have never looked if the song that was stuck in my head for days was not suddenly replaced with... Than i remembered this one, the phrase with the smell of course and then i googled for the title. Where are you, Eminem? (click at your own risk).

"FCC won't let me be so let me see..."


Talking about Eminem... It was always a 50-50 split in my mind, but the thing with Slim Shady diluted it even more. Who ever got Slim Shady? It was probably his downfall back then... He must have fallen in love with himself so much since he still insists on, what is that, decades later?

BTW if there was one more nail needed at the funk's coffin this was it.

12:45 Nu știu, eu mai demult cum vedeam ceva japonez, o față, o operă de artă, pe Yoko Ono, închideam ochii sau mă uitam în altă parte. O naivitate marcată de ambiție, imitație a vestului, chiar o mică răutate nativă.

Lucrurile s-au schimbat mult după ce am "cunoscut-o" pe Miyuki. Originalitate. Spontaneitate. Modestie. Un entuziasm latent, o curiozitate despre lume, dorința de a-i bucura pe alții, gata oricând de a accepta o provocare etc. etc.. O artistă ca nimeni alta în toată lumea.

Bine e vorba și de niște generații. Oamenii ies din izolarea de secole și privesc spre vest, părțile clamoroase vreau să spun. Ies de sub influența propagandei și cedează pragmatismului. Au acumulat valori materiale imense și unii poate chiar vor să se bucure. Treaba lor, au cu ce.

Ieri am văzut încă o dată clădirea muzeului din Warm Springs (eram parcat cu fața la el LOL) și mi-am amintit de ce căutasem cu o zi înainte. Poarta raiului.

Există în arhitectura răsăriteană acest motiv. Ceva ca o piramidă despicată în două. Se poate întâlni în logo-ul Acura, mai puțin la Honda și la antena de prins nori din Reno. Un mister în plus de rezolvat pentru mine. Care o fi istoria acestor porți ale raiului (a nu se confunda cu porțile Torii care marchează trecerea din lumesc în spiritual la intrarea oricărui templu Shinto).

Și dizertația mea nu ar fi fost completă fără să amintesc și de o sculptură care poartă acest motiv. De fapt cel mai simplu lucru ar fi să-i scriu autorului (dacă mai trăiește) și să-l întreb. (sorry decedat 2019).

Am postat mai demult despre el nu în legătură cu poarta raiului ci pentru că ar putea fi sursa de inspirație a țepei cu cartof din Piața Universității. Care a venit la 4 ani după domnia lui Constantinescu, pe care eu îl suspectez că ar fi fost un actor japonez, o excepție la toți actorii unguri care înlocuiesc elita românească dispărută pentru totdeauna în istorie. La canal. La Sighet. Unde vreți dvs..

Ok până la urmă, după o zi întreagă l-am găsit. L-am găsit în lista de actori și nu de sculptori, acolo unde îl găsisem prima dată. Nu știu de ce.

Omul a luat și el ceva de pe la noi. Pe Brâncuși ca inspirație.

Nevermind that. S-a încheiat un ciclu. Țeapa cu pește ne vine de la Brâncuși, cu numele lui de dac pre-creștin, via Nobuo. Bran, Bram Stocker, Țepeș. Țepelin. Ichtus.

Suntem cu toții doar oameni. (Umani adică, să nu uităm femeile. How could we).

Cât despre misterul cu poarta raiului, cred că l-am rezolvat între timp. Nu era greu. E posibil să fie doar încă o amintire despre vremurile când piramidele, mari și mici erau chiar așa ceva. Porți de călătorit în timp și spațiu, activate de energia solară (sub forma de split light cuanta) care duceau zeii și oamenii în locuri atât de avansate încât noi probabil le-am putea numi rai. McLaren, DeLorean.


Revelation 14:15. Ilani.  

8:08 I take it... None of them was smoking...

8:30 Ok i get it. Amaterasu got upset and looked herself with the Moon (Loona) in a cave for a whole week... Lucky bastard...

 

9:09 Like a river...  

9:20 Heaven's Gate?

Half to midnight. I finished my beets soup (yes, borscht) and we are siping on it and upstairs she started to drop heavy objects on the floor like always when we eat.