11:40 AM Top foods that are not deserts and raise my BS most

0 Munchies (Doritos, Cheetos, pretzels, potato chips).

1.Rice

2.Polenta (a Romanian huge staple food)

3.Potatoes

4.Bread

BTW have you ever tried hot polenta with cottage cheese, butter and omelet or with cold milk poured on it (as a hot cereal). I use 3:1 ratio. Boil water, pour corn meal while stirring, turn the dial to 1.5 out of ten, use a glass lid and stir hard for 1 minute every 4 minutes for 20 minutes.

4:55 PM Went to Walmart and back. Several attempts have been made to draw me in an accident. Today's theme was switching lanes with me in the blind spot (saw the blind cat yesterday while gathering poops, it was staring a me with one eye, that cat was blinded before i put the barbed wire).

Main reason was to buy needles for my Lantus pain. My brain is exhausted from continuously processing info about the wound and decisions making like how and what to put there, according to what i see when i take off the bandage, 3-4 times daily. Feels like not talking much, trying to enjoy the lack of pain after last actions and the spring weather.

They have two brands of needles. RelyOn which are 10 bucks for 50 and another one, BD or something which are 83 for 100 or 4 times more expensive. I decided i wanted to go one size up, like the ones i used in the beginning or 5 mm but they said they don't have them in stock, possibly discontinued by manufacturer and for the others i have to wait for a prescription cause the prescription expired. To me, it seems odd, the most prescribed size is 5 mm and at Walmart they have RelyOn only in 4 and 6. Nevermind.

Regular soda, the kind with phosphoric acid gives me stomach problems but no matter how hard i looked, i could not find the flavored seltzer soda like Polar brand. They hid it somewhere, i heard there is a big trend nowadays, and the big corporations like Coca Cola are lagging in sale and Walmart decided to help them. I asked at the stand and at the door, they told me isle 22 or 27 or something but did not go back.

This happened after i posted this? Yeah it was like 7 months ago. Before the mishap with my heel.

Got back and hit by the smell inside the apartment. These days is some sort of yeast grown on the carpet seeded by the black cat in the grass and the portable toilet antibacterial stuff.

The outer fiberboard layer of the floor (which BTW is glued with collagen from bones and hides from slaughterhouses, the so called animal glue) is bulged and wet under the couch due to... The black cat is here on the grass to seed us with new strains. I kept the door open for about 15 minutes, humidity inside went down from over 60 to under 50 (outside is 35 right now). But i bet now is going back up as i type here.

I recently bought 60 watts dehumidifier on Amazon. I knew 40 pints in 24 hours is exaggerated, but is not pulling even one and is lowering humidity by 1% maybe. So i have to look again but they do not put the specs right or there is too much electricity used.

Yes a regular AC pulls significant amounts of moisture out o the air on the cold radiator during normal operation (an extra benefit of having it, which is not that good in dry areas). Can't wait to install it but no need for it yet.   
12:00 AM Made a few quick moves in the apartment, the resonator is following me like usually. What i wanted to write. I was laying in bed in bedroom and every time they moved upstairs, smoke was coming... out the walls? And i am not feeling like myself, almost never am.

12:12 AM Finally a chance to take a picture that's not my wound or the porta potty or...

12:17 Just heard a very loud bang outside.

4:15 PM I was getting ready to go gather the poops since last week. Got outside only to see a guy filling a pump for treating with herbicide around the building, another one started a loud exhaust, shaking the walls for me to breath. Later. Picked @20 bags.

7:35 It just occurred to me. This is the closest thing that could explain what's happening with me and the guys upstairs. Always in motion? Are they trying to stop the "abnormal waves" coming from my brain? Reminds of...

And of course the members of the family of the Prime Minister have all diplomatic passports... Ok maybe a bit of abuse in that direction... And thinking... Maybe immunity for speeding once or twice... But torturing, every day of the year?

But it did not start with the current ones. Previous neighbors where doing similar things. All of them. And sometimes it is all so prompt and going for so long it could only be done with robots. So it may be just a cover and there is a deeper level of the game... So... I am not so excited of my findings today cause they will simply swap neighbors...

9:45 Compression stockings are dangerous. They can wrinkle or like in my case you can forget them rolled up and that cut my blood circulation to some degree for about 12 hours. To make things worst, the day before, sometimes at the beginning of the week i tried to walk on my cheap motorless treadmill that always goes uphill, bending my feet backwards.

There are a few areas of infection around my wound (red in the picture), which if kept unchecked, move around, like down on the heel like after that blood cutting episode. That was the biggest set back so far, with pain going in the sole of my feet all the way to the toes. Painful when walking.

I've done what i've done and got out of it, still having a sensitive point or two. But the biggest source of infection for which i need antibiotics all the time is a few areas of skin above the ankle where i put patches on diabetics lesions (brown stains above ankle) and now it hurts and don't heal and i've tried anything. Burning pain on top of skin that goes deep inside the muscles and moves above knee, etc.. It is made worse if exposed to low even room temperature.

Other than that, the wound got to 6-7 mm in the widest areas, 4-5 in the middle, it looks ugly, like it's gonna be an ugly scar or is still inflamed after the cutting episode. The whole area of different color/texture shows the initial wound so one can see how much is left to heal.

This is it, i'm trying to heal a foot that was already pretty badly damaged prior to this incident. At times i imagine it in a bin in a pathology lab.

About diabetes. I discovered that my skin is very thick by using this thing (which is good, it means i still have some collagen in me). Because of that, 4 mm diabetes needles are too short and the bubbles with insulin injected in fat areas are too close to the skin from inside and that makes assimilation faster, with drops in BG in the first 12 hours and then spikes in the rest until the next dose.

There are big hammering construction noises outside this Sunday at near 10 AM.

12:30 AI is a machine. Quiet. About 15 minutes ago i started to pack back my wound. He climbed the stairs and started to walk heavy. When i was done, a few minutes ago, silence.

7:15 PM Air so still and is so nice outside, i made a few steps on the green grass where the cat was yesterday and realized there is no smoke near the garages. Could it be coming from this building?

The guys at Apt.1 moved out recently, so those at 3, the old woman feeding cats at 4 could not be, though once the wall at one of their room closest to our bedroom was warm. It remains 4, the woman who talks on the phone in the balcony for hours (with the black noisy black BMW, maybe she could not stand the smoke inside) or the guys upstairs, i heard him making weird noises in the kitchen area all night a couple of nights ago.

Just remembered something. Also a few days ago i thought they were smoking inside, told Angela, wrote here, the next day she got in Angela's way (they are very careful in avoiding us).

Not the first time, i think the previous guys at 2 did it, the woman also had colored hair and i think i saw once their boss, a Latino, all dressed in black with a big thick gold chain.

10:45 It was relatively quiet for the last couple of hours. Then i came to do the wound. As soon as it was unpacked, he jumped from wherever it was and started to stomp around. So he made me walk with my wound unprotected at the computer to write this.

8:25 PM I wrote several times about my closed circuit dryer. After inspection on March 19 when it was taken apart i replaced the worn out, leaky flexible pipes with some i bought on Amazon. Only trouble is they are black (probably designed like that to conserve (radiate less) heat). Here is how it works a commercial closed circuit drier (aka ventless drier).
 

I instead used a window AC connected to the "classic" drier. Pass first the hot and humid air coming from the drier through the cold radiator of the AC, where it gets cooled and water condensates, i collect the water and the cooler air coming out of it is directed to the hot radiator and re-heated using the same amount of energy extracted in the cold radiator before returning it in the drier.

My 5000 BTU AC (basically a heat pump or heat exchanger) is probably bigger than the heat exchanger inside the drier (as per the video) and i dry faster than "classic", the same amount of clothes, with less energy (heat from exhaust is reused with the hot radiator) and the clothes are cleaner because no air from the apartment with all the smells and dust don't get filtered in the clothes as it gets outside as it happens with classic driers. But i have to do three spin cycles before drying to do so.

Awkward? It does take a bit of the closet space. And yes the cold radiator, the pipes and plastic boxes needs cleaning every once in a while. The AC itself uses about 500 watts of power, but i go on a lower setting on the drier since the air getting inside is already hot to some degree, and one setting (resistor) is about 1500 watts.

I think window AC manufacturers could sell kits to be fitted with existing driers, helping everybody save the planet and stuff. Or design some from the ground up. Other companies could sell kits that could work with a number of units etc..

I don't know if it's that or something else (like chlorine released from the black PVC but i think they provided a mutation in the yeast/bacteria inside and everything started to stink real bad, beginning with the tube i used to collect water from drying which turned into slime (did lots of laundry this week).

Or is it the new "memory foam" mattress top we got yesterday that could have some antibacterial in it.

Had to do this because of the "design" of the pipes in the basement. Water condensates in those especially at winter time and exhaust steam don't pass no more. In about the same year they invented a drier working on this very principle, called "ventless" with everything inside though.

Thing is yesterday i've been thinking how smart i was when i "invented" this contraption. But now i am sure there must be some starter outside somewhere on the redwood dust. Could be the portable toilet which also covered the smell with its deodorant until it got unbearable.

But the reason i wrote this. In the last few days there was a cat sitting always in the middle of the grass, scratching and leaking all the time and suddenly i had a revelation. They need the cat islands in Japan and they feed them because they are experimenting on them. I saw too many of these acting in "intelligent" manners around here, not behaving like normal cats.

Got a plastic snake in the balcony but one of them, the smelliest, came and sat on top of it. They pooped for years under the main door. From time to time i still find a poop next to stairwell wall etc..

Ok i got these on 21 or 22 and i installed them about a week later when i totally ran out of clean laundry.

11:44 Could this have anything to do with the smell from outside that keeps me dizzy? Lately i put a new element in the Winix filter, moved it next to bedroom window, it is less than ever.

No i don't cook hash, meth or anything else. But some in one of the 3 garage building surrounding ours (F) might.

3:25 Noises from upstairs when i read certain news, among many punctual others.

11:45 I almost forget about the special boot. After wearing it a few times it turned things for the worse by further cutting the blood supply to that area with an infection on the left side of the wound that never went away. And yes it gets worse with the temperature too. I have to wear 4 layers of protection (pad, gauze roll, elastic wrap and the soft part of the oot, inside, to keep the infection from coming back.

11:50 Pattie Boyd, one skinny woman and two of the greatest (musicians).

First google answer. Wondering if he chose the guy on the right on purpose to prove nobody does it like him? Bending so many notes if not done right can easily start to sound like a cat meowing.

The part of the song i always took for granted. No the song was not about Patti. So it happens i know who Layla is and that is her real name.

8:08 PM Went with Angela in Beaverton to a store. When we got back on 217 i was followed by a car with Xenon high beams on while a huge gray Dodge (the Police style) was in my blind spot, for miles. License plate SB 95 145. SB may come from a number of things like Siberia, Sibiu, etc.. while 95 is the year i came to the US. They both, others made me very uncomfortable to drive.

He passed me a couple of times and i looked hard and could not see anything inside because of tinted windows. Then how can they drive like that especially at night? Unless if the car is fitted with some self driving mechanism.

Here at the apartment. Earlier when i went in the kitchen area for a snack the ice cream van came under my window with very loud digital chimes. But when we got back from Beaverton, there was a cart (competition?) in about the same spot. Today April 23 temperature outside was 56 F (7 C). As i said many times, with the price for two cones you can get a whole pack of ice cream at WinCo and all apartments here have fridge with freezer. But hey, it's ICE!

The main guy from D5 (where the day care is) came to supervise my passage, looking pissed while the mystery woman at D7 was casting a light on our parking spot. A teen latina who bought ice-cream was wearing a soccer ball under her T-shirt, figuring huge breasts here at the other entrance.

4:20 PM Had this in my mind for a longtime, also haven't had my mind so clear in also a long time since i cannot have on single drop of alcohol because of so many antibiotics i took without getting nauseated to the point i want to puke. Or maybe it was not processed/refined enough in my mind.

Yeah i am in a confessing (gut spilling) mood/mode after watching yet another episode of dr.Watson. The one with Lazarus syndrome (thinking if there is such thing, yes there is but is limited to 10 minutes though, in the movie is hours, beating the educational purpose that is supposed to residue in any work of art).

However i will use the movie as an example of what i want to talk (read complain again) like Kurt Cobain.

Ok here it goes.

Have you ever looked at the (wonder) characters in movies, maybe like Tom Cruise, so many others, and seeing behind the characters, some otherwise professionally hidden hangovers from the monster parties they must have been to the night before, the erectus hollywoodiansis we like to stare at, combined with the intellectual emptiness in their eyes and especially in their slightly out of tune voice while giving us their most memorable lines. The very distracting, almost perfect curvatures over the nerdy type of personality (a spicy contradiction) of female doctors.

Other. Can't stop thinking of the clinic. The beautiful, surreal post modern interiors. Probably never seen in real life.

6:15 I've been thinking. The reason they left the portable toilet in here might be the same as for Lime scooters. They have enough inventory to afford to keep them in place until a new job is contracted in the area, to avoid a trip to home (base). Or maybe then have knowledge of a future job here.

In the case of Lime scooters, they left them until someone needs them at the location were the toilet is now. The so called "no dumping area". During those times they were clusters of them both next to dumpster and sometimes in there suggesting one way trips to here only.

Not to talk about the dozens of kid's bikes next to our door over the years of which some i threw in the garbage myself, after a week or so not being picked by anybody.

I remember in one particular instance they were 3 of them in the exact same place where the toilet is now. One day about 2 summers ago i was smoking in the back staring at the AC when i saw a cop comming towards me from the direction of our parking spot.

I felt awkward and told him something like "i am more than 6 ft away from the building" which is the rule here at the apartments. But he smiled sarcastically and answered "we're not the police of smoke", passed me and went in the direction of the scooters where i believe some guys from the apartment were waiting for him.

So yeah, they could be doing some sort of instant, poetic, extra-judicial justice for virtual imaginary crimes by letting that thing here while i'm struggling with the wound. Changing the makeup of airborne bacteria.

BTW, no stairs climbing or floor pumping upstairs at the last time doing my wounds (after i complained), just loud base in the parking lot, which probably make for the rest 50% of instances i do it and could not remember when i wrote.

But not only Lime scooters and bikes. Besides mats and beds and kitchenware and barbecues. All kinda baby walkers, other baby items. One time i found at the other end of the lawn a bag with a full set of clothes for a girl. Jeans, shoes, top, purse. Similar assorted items, many times in the dumpsters.

One of the last time i went to Spirit Mountain, less than a month ago, some guy came in front of me showing his back saying something about "dead pedo don't re-offend".

Thinking about the context, with the entirely fake story of Jeffrey Epstein, suggesting Einstein, jews, science and scientists.

6:45 He came home about 10 minutes ago, now that Angela fell asleep, now he started to talk to us using his feet.

7:37 Can't remember where but i know i once wrote in a single post about dr.Parent, the 16 unauthorized biopsies (counted by me) he took from my esophagus "to check for cancer" during a routine endoscopy in 2002, the two broken ribs, to give me something else to think about for the next month and the students at Cluj, who were watching a similar endoscopy a couple of years later, and of course the scars on my esophagus which could have been in their minds scars from eliminating varices on esophagus, a complication of cirrhosis of the liver.

Nicu Ceaușescu died in Vienna in 1996, one year after i came in the US.

7:49 Early this morning, at about 3 AM i rolled my compression stalking up my calf to do the wound and forgot it all day long. As a result, i blocked the circulation in my leg for about 12 hours, i started to have pains all over the calf and ankle and the infection at the wound (which was closing nicely) flared back up. Now i'm again in trouble with it.

11:33 I am saying this for more than 10 years but back then robots weren't running half marathons or fighting wars so it was very hard to believe so i kinda gave up, concentrating on other things.

I just have been doing my wound that BTW hurts more than lately, for about an hour now. At every of my thought there was a creak of the floor upstairs. Editing my thoughts, making me forget them generally. Probably this is how they made me forget that compression sock rolled under my knee, slowing the circulation on that leg. Retaliation for talking too much about those two little arteries.

It's probably not so hard for well bred AI programs. Taking into account my vitals when i write, talk, etc.. they can probably figure out some of the stuff i am thinking. Or at least when i am thinking and making me forget cause they don't like much of the stuff i am writing. No they don't need that, just some good microphones, IR cameras etc.. and AI.

5:30 AM The guys upstairs are impossible to catch or talk to. Unless if they want to. Have not seen any of them any time i went outside except when they wanted to be seen. I even forgot their faces.

Recently i uploaded a number of audio recordings with stepping noises mostly at any hour of the night.

Today Angela when she came from work (and garden) went to take the garbage (cause i try to limit as much as i can going outside). She was waiting in the car. The rule so far is they are avoiding us, we are avoiding them. Mostly because i am afraid i will be tempted for a confrontation and i know they are ready for it at any moment (by what they are do to us at night).

Since she wasn't leaving, Angela got mad had this idea and instead of going to the garbage she went and went and talked to her. Not about the noise last few days but about pouring water in the balcony, throwing garbage, etc., things that did not happen recently.

Last night they retaliated on me. Around midnight i fell asleep and then awoken withing seconds by three knocks that could have been at our door or from upstairs. But the moment was so well chosen that i got so mad i could not sleep all night after.

This morning i was trying to talk to Angela to tell what mistake she made talking to the untalkable, the guys who are here on a mission with us, and he awoke and made a few elephant steps on the ceiling. There are probably new holes in walls or ceiling cause the place fills with weird wall smell every time they and especially him walks.

All i can do now is wait for him to leave so i try to get some sleep. If they let me. If not, in a few days i'm gonna go agaom to the nut house and then who is going to take care of my wound?

6:40 Ok "he left". I should just be grateful for that and try to go to sleep in the living cause here it stinks like wall (was thinking, could this had been also caused by the decaf i had late at night, could it be they sill have some caffeine in it) but i promised myself.

For the last 20 minutes he was here in this corner of the bedroom, working the floor. Not at the built in closet, bathroom or anywhere a  normal person would be in the morning when he/she gets ready to go to work.

But the weirdest part. One second he was right above, the next second i heard the door (some 30 ft away) and steps on the stairs and all became silent. Which confirms my theory, there are different persons who come in and out and others who do "the job". Most likely a woman tuned into my brain frequency. Most likely former princess Mako.

Other times i went to look who is going down the stairs that pass in front of the kitchen window, after the door was closed and could not see nobody and then i was hearing the car being started, too soon for someone to have had the time to get there (and then again silence). Not only with current occupants, this happend (too many times) before.

3:10 PM Angela came from work and locker with an item in her arms the size of a baby. When i opened the door i saw behind her 2 very young and short Asian women figuring Latinas each with babies in their arms.

7:23 Today i opened the door 4 or 5 times, each and every one somebody or several people were ready at the door inside D5 and they came outside. Besides one or two familiar figures, every time there is somebod else. Must have seen hundreds this year.

Found two big poops this time on the other side of the stairwell wall.

A while ago i went to see if the porta potty is still here, i made a few steps on the grass to look around the corner of the building, a girl was running away from the potty.

10:05 I was never good with statistics or paperwork. During my programming years part II (accounting) i struggled a lot with the way i needed to organize, store and process information, but that disciplined me a lot though i still don't like it.

That is the reason i cannot prove there are certain out of the ordinary associations in my life. But let me try.

In more than 50% of the cases, when i do my wound, one of the two happens. The black BMW linked to Apt.4 starts. It has big, proud mods to the exhaust system and it shakes the hole building.

If not. If it's morning, someone stumps the floor. If it's afternoon, no matter the hour, someone climb the stairs. Tonight they did so though they were trying to "show" some restraint. However the dust made me sneeze like many times before when they were walking on my ceiling. So i assume, if it made me sneeze, it means some must have gotten on the wound too. One spec of dust is enough to contaminate it.

Needless to say. I never do it at the same hours.

Things have taken a turn for the worse since they brought in the portable toilet. Though the tree trimming job has ended last Thursday, they did not remove it yet.

I have come to finally use doctor's recommendation for packing the wound with Silvadene. Nothing else works anymore and though the wound is closing, the skin around it is/was always infected. However the Silvadene is harsh on the newly formed skin cells though i believe it eliminates mostly the non-viable ones. The so called "proud flesh". With it i get some relief. Will see.

4:04 PM You can learn anatomy by looking at MRIs and X-rays you have done on occasions. Or you can use a 3D interactive model. Or both. I thought these things were for professionals only, but today i ran into something worth mentioning. 39 dollars a year subscription is nothing compared to the value of information in this software which includes a human body atlas that is draggable, zoomable, while adding or subtracting layers.

This way i have learnt that there is about 1 cm of teguments (yellow in the image, adipose, connective tissue, skin) on top of calcaneus and Achille's tendon.

7:45 She has been talking in the balcony on the phone most day. Outside temperature is 69 degrees, they came with an ice cream cart but there is a thick "fireplace" smoke outside.  The smelly cat was in hour balcony again.

12:32 AM After eating lots of collagen and using optifoam my wound is now closing so fast the skin is trying to grow over a piece of eschar and that hurts. I think.

2:00 PM I think i figured the reason for the porta potty. There is a tree grinding machine working within the line of sight, with much vibrating of the building, all day long with peaks when i pack my wound. Not long after the 4-5 months of excavating, earth moving and concrete pouring at the new alley project which started when the park project ended so there is a continuity of noise and vibration.

8:25 PM There is a continuous vroom here. One stopped, another one just started started. They start their didgeridoos and let them idle for 15 minutes before going anywhere. They rule this place alright, with City, Police, anything, no doubt about.

Today was Friday, they did not come to trim trees anymore which means they are done. But they did not pick their portable toilet which was brought here last Friday. Its presence and the vibration create some very interesting infections around my wound.

Upstairs they started something, a router, i don't know, now i got pretty strong microwave signal in living. Let me check here too.

12:12 AM I guess all the nurses in dr.'s office were right about wearing compression socks size E over the heel and stuff and rubbing the eschar a bit while cleaning etc.. Learned how to put them on using a slippery plastic sock i remove after. Hope it's not too late but it's been almost 3 months since i'm asking myself this question so i am already used to.

8:00 From agony to extasy. PM I have been in pain all day. The pain comes mostly from several abrasion from patches in areas with damaged skin (had no idea when i put them in there) but is bad and propagates inside muscles beneath and all the way to the knee and muscles above.

I felt like i needed a shower. The guy upstairs started his march. Smoke started outside. My pain is now mostly gone. I noticed in the past that if i walked (or moved like in a shower) more blood circulates through my body and my pain subsides. However, now there is also smoke and pumping of the floor.

I wish i could have a drink which further improves blood circulation but cannot because i just took an Augmentin and that would be too much for my stomach. Alcohol would also clear my mind a little from this smoke.

2:38 PM I think i heard earlier some noise, but right now there is no sign of construction work and the toilet is still here. Next to the poop tree (where most poops show, among roots, on the left). Now everything doesn't smell anymore like poop but like portable toilet deodorant and a bit like ammonia which altogether give me a headache and a slight shortness of breath (and much cough, like before).

I have done crazy things this weekend. After several hours at the doctor Thursday, Friday i changed the oil (or was it Saturday?) and Saturday i went to Indian Head, 4 hours driving, with a box under my left feet which also blocked the brakes once.

So i had a big flare up yesterday, due to much sitting and standing with poor blood circulation in legs and probably mutant bacteria from the antibacterial stuff in the toilet which scared me really bad. Doing better now.

Lately Amazon came up with something new. Many next day items are available only to pick at their location at Whole Foods, a couple of miles detour for Angela in her way from work. I am waiting for a critical item (it looks like i did not hit the last button in the purchase screen and had to order it again yesterday) and though it is "out for delivery" sine 11 AM, it is still no there. She is now comming home without so one of us would have to drive there later.

3:47 When it rains, it pours. Haven't heard a carpet cleaner van in a longtime. With noise level >70 ad the source, next to the dumpster. Angela bought two cucumbers for 3 dollars at Fred Meyer (owned by Kroger) for my diabetes but they are both bad.

9:00 Went to pick the item from Whole Foods. First i tried to play smart and turned and went by the potty to see if there's any construction within the line of sight. Could not see anything. I remember earlier, i told Angela i thought about, like if we go to Romania in her village, there is no sewer connected toilet. Was thinking if is doable to get one of those. Probably not on long term. Was only thinking though. Hypothetically.

Got on the 65th street. Everything in slow motion - no, i am in slow motion, everything is moving too fast, night, rain, everywhere i go these days lane margins are not visible at night and rain. A times was driving between lanes because i was afraid of other cars.

Driving like in a dream, taking seconds to process a light to realize if it's red or green. Keeping longer distance, others pushing close from behind like always lately. Missed 2 turns, turned around, found Bridgeport Rd but could not find Whole Foods which was visible on the left or right. Made some turns, got in front of it, i don't know how.

Forgot to pick the code when i left, panicked, they let me go by email address and gave me a device. Could not find the @ sign on the keyboard.

Back in the lot. Almost hit a tree. Almost hit the car on the other row when backing. Back on Boones Ferry. A deer, barely visible, crossing but i was very slow, right before Upper. or Lower. Again time needed to process traffic lights. Afraid of every car, at times i did not know on what lane i was.

Back at the door i felt the heavy smoke that surrounds the building and it is not a cable burning. I don't know what the hell it is. I feel like floating.

Should not have gone, obviously. But how to know?

Yeah it happened before. Many times.  But this time was worst. If that was possible.