1:52 AM Can your AI write this?

Generalization, a fundamental cognitive process in western philosophy on which concepts are built, is rejected by Buddhism.

But to them it may be more than a simple form of attachment to patterns, as it could be seen as based on greed or the need to "hoard" reality in a finite and relatively small number of repeatable and predictable patterns, breaking the principle of aparigraha.

(Just to give you a small "heads up" on how different they are from us). However, by rejecting and ignoring our philosophy, they are falling too often in sadly predictable behavioral patterns, that are behind the shore of our perception and ignored by us. 

Of course the coronation of pattern thinking in west being stereotypes (strong types, from Greek stereo - strong, with super heroes on top) with a high degree of refining and abstraction so common in American culture especially in music and movies.

Yes in Romania before 89 we all attended philosophy classes both in HS and college with of course the need to explain Marxism. I hated those because like physics it was mostly the history of philosophy. Mostly the need to memorize things vs the thrill of long threads of easy, logical reasoning (yes, via patterns).

8:00 Awoke with pain. Tended to my wound. A combination of triamcinolone and triple ointment antibiotics last night reduced the redness and swelling on the skin next to it. Wound is visibly shrinking. Some smoke made its way in here.

9:30 Can noise be violence? Several instances so far with loud exhausts, severely disputing my thoughts processes, setting me powerless and mad. Last while i was reading this "news".

10:40

10:45 Yesterday i got in big trouble with the wound. After cleaning inside the apartment for many hours and the inspection, i went outisde to deal with the poops. Smoke coming from outside influenced my decision and what followed after. That is i feel alseep without tending to the wound.

I woke up in a couple of hours with biggest pains i had since this episode started. I put several patches and took several antibiotics pills and got better just in time for today's doctor's visit.

I was surprised to hear him say my wound stayed the same in the last 2 weeks since last visit. Here is a screenshots with the two pictures showing differences in 15 days.

However he identified what he said was dermatitis (next to wound from where all the chills and pains came from) and gave me an anti-allergic ointment for that area only which worked (a little).

I know i started to have all body allergies (itching) after i used Opti foam which BTW made the biggest progress.

I did not put any extra patches and took only two pills today however every time after i dress the wound i get the chills so i put a patch and think about taking one more pill before i got bed.

11:00 PM As the noise from upstairs subsided, the apartment filled with smoke from outside.I believe it got to my head already and here's the proof (what just came to mind, the demons i have to deal with). "Cu viteză americană și cu tactică germană".

3:05 PM I think it's related to me reading the news, they started a very loud base upstairs, Angela was trying to get some more sleep (she got only 3 hours last night). I picked some ideas from the news but got so mad i forgot what i wanted to write.

5:22 I freshly tended to my wound. Amazing how all pain goes away when i apply some antibiotic on it (best), sprinkled some and too some orally. Upstairs a rare instance of doing laundry. I was thinking.

When these guys spread across Australia some 4000 BV (Pama Nyungan culture of which some became noongars and the Hungarians of Attila (with their unconventional war tactics) and the mongols and ninja etc.) they did so because they have learnt how to manipulate the tiny elements.

Do yo remember how the movie Mars Attacks ends? Got that one pushed a few days ago on youtube, not by chance. An illustration of what's happening to me. They get by a lot by tickling the humor in masses.

So they did today. Knowing i took apart my closed circuit drier that was full of one year worth of lint (on some circuits). Though i removed most of it in the tub with the shower head, some stayed in there.

So they brought a bunch of old clothes next to the battleground which explains why that AC i use in the drier stinks now so bad.

Of which i didn't know but when i got out to check for poops at least next to the entrance and i felt the smell from there so i decided it was time to remove all of them and i saw.

One can of beer (just bought a box from Walmart) etc.. I used 9 bags for dog and cat poop. And guess what. I saw a few drops of rain. I think i will take that AC and the flexible pipes outside no matter what they will think of it.

Yes they do manipulate tiny things. Whatever i eat at home one day i found on the landscape, exposed to soil bacteria. I believe they call it spirituality or witchcraft but i would call it handling unclean things. 

Just when i was thinking we have to thank the Brits for opening the Pandora's box, i realized it was not their fault for Attila and all the Mongols comming in Europe. However the Brits and French did participate in parting of the Ottoman Empire of which some fell under some weird influence and went "radical" and anti-western and now are under the big dilemma of the day.

8:10 AM Completely silent upstairs now but when i went in the bathroom @6:30 a Niagara Falls sound (water flowing a few seconds through the faucet in the empty tub, "to warm the pipe") and then more silent shower combined with a chocking smoke coming from outside triggered a whole anxiety episode.

When that type of smoke or others are present, there is never noise upstairs.

I don't usually hear that sound in the morning and generally lately. It caught me by complete surprise. 
But there was no surprise to me they knew when i went at the bathroom as they know all the time where i am and what i am doing, following me many times throughout the apartment with synched noises.

Could have been retaliation because i started earlier the washer a few seconds and then shut it down thinking it was too noisy too early. But it was during the time of noisy stumps in the morning though today it was silent though someone still left shortly after like usual.

I am now using a mask inside, trying to catch my breath. It feels like i'm breathing through my brain, and my lungs are never filled enough.
 
Lately they put loud TV if our TV sound setting is above 3 (out of 50) after 10 PM. It is true, it can be heard upstairs even at this low volume because these apartments are not sound proof. (Though they never talk to each other, in any language).

6:57 Tricks tricks tricks. There was a big diesel engine in  the parking lot and the kitchen window was about 4 inches open from doing laundry. I was in the kitchen area and peeked through the blinds to see what makes that noise and saw right in front of me a woman climbing the stairs also with a grocery bag. A novelty. Didn't have time to see her face, just instinctively backed up.

Yesterday we both went to Whole Foods to pick a free same day delivery Amazon wound care item (which i haven't even used, i changed my mind) and at the entrance of the complex (time was 3:30) stopped a school bus, opened the doors while station on 65th which is unusual, they normally enter in the complex and then opened the door, about ten well groomed Latino kids got out, i got to wait for them to pass or until the bus started, a long couple of minutes while all traffic on 65th was stopped and drivers looking.

After Whole Foods we went at Walmart, me waiting in the car, after half hour i started the phone but was keeping it out the window on speaker to minimize exposure at the legs, one curly big haired fat guy came to pick the carts and it looked like i was taking picture of him etc. and it felt like it was dispatched. BTW why Walmart prefer to pay people to gather carts instead of adding more cart bays in the lot? (they are very few and distant).

Most time when i go in the kitchen to get some foods and it is predictable, they bring a car at the day care apartment (D5). When we go or come from somewhere people with little kids get out.

It feels like they are getting real tight at me.

7:10 Was experimenting with Optifoam. Engineered to keep the moisture inside and suck the exudate while maintaining a certain humidity which really accelerates would heeling.

Problem is i have very bad circulation in the left side of the foot and it gets worse with cold. When cold enough, all the surface blood vessels constrict to keep temperature in and that does not help with wound heeling but it promotes infection which comes from the eschar.

So i have to keep it warm, got a couple of heavy cuffs which heat up in the microwave for 30 seconds and keeps warm for several hours. Yes of course i checked the temperature with different thermometers, on and off, don't want more than body temperature at the wound.

I had a big setback on Sunday when i went outside with the puny shoes with no sole and the ground was cold and my foot got chilled and the skin next to wound infected really bad (red-blue purple). So i went back to antibiotics in patches, got 4 of them in 24 hours, was really bad, i thought i got it out of control and also wore the cuffs.

But then i saw the biggest granulation ever. First didn't know what to make of it, i thought it was adhesive from the optifoam. But then i quit wearing the cuffs, did not put optifoam anymore, not knowing where the infection was coming for and the next day the wound dried and i lost most of it so i went back to optifoam.

However my feet went cold from sitting at the computer (it is like in the morning, when i am better, i forget everything it happened the next day and now i'm back with vasoconstriction mediated infection with red-blue-skin and chills and i just put a patch, will take some oral.

7:30 Ordered a pair of shoes with one size up (will stuff something soft at the heel) with sole and everything and they were shown as free delivery tomorrow with prime. However when i looked at orders list they are shown to be delivered on Friday. Will order them again to see what happens.

Ok did order them again. LOL Canceled most recent order. Amazon hates me.

6:42 March annual apartment inspection on Thursday. Deep cleaning, found some weird white stuff on bathroom sink cabinet walls (inside), don't know what it was but smelled bacterial and human dead skin, just cleaned it. Now i stink like that stuff, got to take a shower. Could that have contributed to my never ending skin infection next to the wound.

10:35 AM Lisinopril is generally used to lower blood pressure. However the mechanism of lowering it is by promoting vasodilation which in turn improves peripheral circulation which can be good for ischemic disease including heart or wounds caused and maintained by low circulation.

6:10 PM Granulox is a medicine made of purified hemoglobin used to accelerate wound healing by bringing extra oxygen to tissues but is not available in the US yet.

6:30 Just started to do a search, they came and threatened to awake Angela (by creaking and stumping the floor real loud).

11:50 How interesting. By the middle of the week the surface winds shift from south to norht and the whole weather thing turns (unusually) cold.

12:02 AM There is smoke in the apartment. I keep making mistakes, forgetting things, take wrong decision about the wound etc.. Upstairs they keep making noises though they toned it down a bit. Maybe they are affected by smoke as well.

6:00 PM Everybody walks and hit things a bit differently. Though the script remain the same, there are subtle variations in what people upstairs are doing. The reason they never talk to each other (except when i mention it, i hear one single feminine voice on the stairs and sometimes a guy caughing).

Rest of the time they must be different persons. I noticed earlier one guy making less and less noise like he got tired and i relaxed thinking there will be a break and then he left and half hour or one hour later he came back full of energy enough to tear the floor apart for hours.

8:00 PM (Don't) tell Musk!

8:20 BTW i drove yesterday with Angela 20 miles through traffic in the other side of town so she could hear her ultimate diagnosis for back pain. Bad feng shui inside the car Old age.

10:35

5:25 PM Amazon is always screwing me in critical moments. Everything comes in time except items i need right away.

11:30 PM No more response for antibiotics (triple ointment) + sprinkled amoxicillin and Augmentin systemic. Color of skin around wound became blue/purple. Deep pain inside, could be bones.

Out of desperation and intuition switched to betadine (iodine), used three times in 12 hours and now again at 24 hours and clindamycin oral (for several days now, which i have not taken before) plus Augmentin cutaneous. Kept my legs elevated and within hours pain turned to soreness and then it was gone. Never thought this would happen, the way i felt and the wound looked. Was thinking ER.

Skin color is almost back to normal. Some focal point on the upper left disappeared. There is still some numbness, don't feel nothing when i touch the wound. It happened during debridement too.

When all that bacteria died, i went briefly numb when i woke up the second time this morning. It happened before in some mornings since this started. Trouble walking, talking, chewing, that goes away during the day. It all indicates i had clostridium probably still have some. Massive bacteria death from betadine releases toxins that is.

BTW i get chills every time i eat something from the fridge.

Lately i slept in the bedroom, changed sheets weekly, showered every other day using rose soap, my sense of smell is coming back and i can tell there is still some s...t smell coming from the closet from the old pan under then new heater. Plan on flooding that closet again with ozone.

Upstairs. They became extremely active especially after last trauma with the boot. By reviewing the pictures of the boot frame and seeing the dedication they use for walking and creaking and stumping for  hours, following my thoughts and moods, i start to believe again the Satanism hypothesis.

9:30 It started about 30 minutes ago. A power blower that drives me nuts. I know today is Wednesday and they were suppose to come, but usually after 2 PM. Today i was about to miss them cause i have an appointment at 2. So they came early just to make sure i get it?

1:15 PM The frame of the boot, made of strong metal bars have been somehow fixed by the doctor himself in the office (i tried and it's not easy).

Yesterday i wanted to use the cushion part of the boot (it normally sticks by velcro on the two bars) just to warm up my foot and leg but i realize it is not possible because it also has a defect (the seam on the left side is longer) that creates a wrinkle that also presses on the side of the foot next to wound, creating pressure on the inflamed tissue and bruising it. As of right now, the new bruising after the last use at Walmart has not been undone completely.
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