4:00 PM Today again like yesterday, made a large cup of tea and then i went to check under the door. There was nothing. The smell was coming from the dumpster next to mailboxes. Again i tested the tea and was bitter like the dentures in the first day after making. Like wormwood.

They put some pieces of wood right after they emptied the duster, blocking the lids and people have put the sacks on the ground next to it. I went and when i open the lids, i almost fainted. The smell was like in a Ceaușescu era public restroom, only for dogs (or cats).

I found one big black bag, open, with one tiny piece in it. I think it was the piece i pick from under the door and threw the other day next to hydrant. Probably coming from the cat i just saw heading for the hole under the balcony of the one level one apartment building, the one with the green balloon.

Then i slept until 3 PM which is a lot. Angela came and i asked her to taste that teeth. She confirms it was bitter. Was made with a Stash mint little bag.

It was smelling again. I grabbed my grabber (the dumpster is empty, impossible to reach at the bottom). By the time i got there a small SUV stopped at the mail boxes and a Latino looking guy went to check his mail. However i ignored him and grabbed the bag from the bottom of the dumpster.

The same big black bags that showed this spring only, bigger then the others i found so far over the years. There was also a knotted green one. It was smelling but not as bad as the tiny one this morning. Maybe because the lids were taken out of the dumpsters, as they do the day after emptying.

For some reason the poop in an open bag smells much worse than if it wasn't in a bag at all, much worse than a whole dumpster full of garbage.

4:22 Ok i caught the cat with white paws going under that balcony. (Yeah i know they tore apart the blinds and threw them on the lawn a few weeks ago. The balloon is there since last summer). I go and pick garbage items all the time from around that place. I think the cat likes to poop under our deck because the wood dust is dry there and easier do dig.

Dejavu, i think i posted about that hole and a cat before but can't find where.

When the weather is nicer at least one girl comes from that apartment, seats on the tv box (left of this picture) and hits it with her heels when we cook of forget to put the blinds one when we are eating.

5:10 Her weekend boyfriend came as i was heating something to eat (beans and pork i made the other day), crushing some garlic for the sauce with a wooden pestle.

First he parked his gigantic truck on her spot next to ours, then he went and moved it somewhere else (to me that would be impossible in a Friday, afternoon, there are no visitors spots). Ever since he checks the floor upstairs for stability. He's smart (intelligent). Every time i try to record, he stops.

It still rings in my ears, his moan and her single giggle in the bedroom last week.

He's home alone, these days she comes home after 9.

I made some tea out of the same bags and it came bitter but no so bitter by far compared to the one in the morning.

5:13 It was beginner's luck when i made my first dentures, that i still wear. After that, i got relaxed, made numerous mistakes trying to make some better ones, but i learned (numerous tricks). Got to wear gloves when i make them cause some chemical is leaking in my skin.

Drinking was a (major) factors. One should not drink and denture period.
 

 5:55 Went and tried to smoke my first cigarette of the day. I managed to do some more pictures before that. Next to our apartments they were digging a hole. The progress of the park (when i took that picture the kids came outside and started to yell. They also dug around a building in our complex closest to the park (second picture, left).

Next to the balcony in that picture with the cat hole 4 kids came and started a pajama party. On the other side of the loan a couple of Mexicans, with a dog, watching (me and the kids next to me). 

Just filled the negative slopes of yet another model for the lower dentures. I noticed her car is here and they both concentrated in the bedroom where Angela is trying to sleep.

6:45 From first trials i came to the conclusion that if i coat the gypsum model with second skin (which is basically cellulose liqueur, similar to nail polish), the putty sticks better, the denture is smoother on the inside and the final extraction is easier.

However, it stinks and will stink for hours.

BTW after i open again the blinds they moved to squeak in the kitchen area.

6:50 I went in the kitchen area to pour me a soda (can't drink, working on dentures). 5 kids moved in the lawn, one of them (tallest, oldest with black and green hair making me wonder) was slowly licking a lolipot so i put the blinds again. So yes, i am caught between the guys upstairs and those in the lawn.

7:05 Can't start the most critical part that of molding gums and attaching teeth cause he/she is marching  upstairs while kids are chatting in the back (usually the won't do it in the same time to spare AI resources cause i misplaced the recorder that deters some of the noises. If i start without that one they will drive me nuts white trying to concentrate at doing that.

Angela could help me but she is sleeping (she is back on 10 hours a day 60 hours a week with 20 hours overtime that pay like another 30  on top of normal 40).

11:59 Closing day statement.

Our teeth is one of the greatest real assets our mother (nature) gives us. Upon birth (and then renewal around 8) we are granted a full set of teeth (32+32 teeth (ideally) that should help us through the rest of our days (to chew our food).

However. They do not come with a user's manual which partly makes sense. We cannot generally read until of before the age of teeth renewal.

...

Not all teeth are created equal. Not all people benefit from an ideal right nutrition and hygienic habits needed to keep their teeth for the rest of their lives.

Though i had dental insurance since my first years in the US (and saw numerous dentists before i came here using the free medical combined with bribe in Romania) my teeth were lost, one by one.

Root cannel "therapies" and veneers done by a luring smart (for himself) dentist did not work.

Sometime after year 2000 i got to know and see a dentist who did my first partials (dentures). Dr. Timothy Tanada. Japanese by birth. Christian by mane. First and best. When i went in 2004 in Romania i was wearing those dentures. (Like he knew).

However after i lost more teeth and those did not fit anymore, i went to other doctors or denturists which did not stand to the same quality. After numerous visits for adjustments, i started to adjust those myself. That was when i became familiar with the shape and functionality of dentures.

Finally lost all my teeth (extracted the last ones by choice) and got in trouble. Every time i was "chewing" i was still getting a headache. I told that to my dentist, several times, he did not say anything.

Then i remembered i once saw a video with a guy in India doing dentures on a side of the road. Can't remember of the details but i thing he was following all the known procedures which started with imprints. I saw young people in that video waiting next to him for their dentures to be done.

Then more recently after searching i saw a video with a guy in the US teaching us how to make dentures using "light curing materials". He did not mention in the video what materials he was talking about (i believe for liability reasons) and i assumed he used the so called "base" materials used to make custom impression trays.

Basically, made of uncured acrylic resins (monomers) combined with some fillers. Acrylic resins which are basically made of acrylic acid and/or derivatives and/or fillers do indeed cure (polymerize) with UV light. The man was advocating using sunlight which indeed has that kinda UV in the mix.

Then i ordered all the materials on  Amazon. With one hundred bucks i could theoretically make i don't know, more than 10 pairs. So o ordered those and after numerous mistakes, today, ten days after i started and about 20 hours of work (and learning) i got 2 functional sets of dentures and materials for many more left.

Of a much better quality tjen those from the acclaimed Shikosha lab in Portland where my last ones were made.

The main problem is the curing process. I had a toy UV "black light" in the 400 nm range that seem to work, though not penetrating more than i don't know, one mm into the the materials. The result is they are fragile until fully cured, either by environmental UV (our Sun) or by the lamp from the other side (after the model is removed) and then leaking acrylic, acrylate, methacrylate and/or other monomers in your mouth for the next few days.

At this moment i believe partials could also be done.

I posted all these with the belief a handy person who lost their teeth can get free from (depending on) insurances and expensive poor quality dentures (up top 1000 dollars a pair) made by specialized labs and clinics. The need for numerous appointments, since imprint, wax model and adjustment.

Ironically, like always they are now plaing Miley Cy_Rus "I can love me better" on Z100.

6:55 AM I can hear a kid or an animal yelling/crying outside. Could have been a raccoon. Wait a minute. Could it be racoons those who poop under the deck?

7:15 The smell became unbearable. I tried to go outside to see under deck and in that very moment a silver car came and stopped in the alley probably to bring a kid at the probably improvised day care at the same crushed entrance where the mystery woman lives.

7:25 There was one small "forgotten" piece, but the smell arose kind of a sudden, after i heard that cry, after it was gone since i picked the last one last night. One brand new gigantic truck with a trailer passed by, very slowly, made me very nervous as i threw that piece in the direction of the hydrant (not worthy for a whole bag) and i'm not sure where it went.

7:30 I think it was near the noisy BMW. Within minutes, someone started that car and left.

8:00 I did not write this down. My new teeth are excellent however they leak some chemical that tastes bitter and makes me dizzy and tired. Less and less, after a week almost none because i kept them soaked in baking soda.

After last time wrote above it still smelled and i went outside one more time. It was a trick. There was nothing left. The black BMW is still there, it was another noisy vehicle. I came back inside and took one charcoal cap for nausea had a taste of the mint tea with lime.

However it tasted like the chemical emanating from those teeth the first days after i made them. Acrylic or methacrylic acid. They symptoms should be burns, but probably at the concentrations i was exposed to the biggest problem would be adding to nose congestion and limiting oxygen intake (which could lead to heart failure).

I took two charcoal caps as they absorb those chemicals. Started to feel very dizzy, sleepy and tired, but after i took one more charcoal i think i got stabilized. Got some more nasal decongestant. This is a must considering the vibration from the construction site which would last for months.

Got some stomach pain that propagate in my intestine like in the first day i used the dentures and a vague burning sensation on my throat. Went and grabbed the milk i put earlier in the mw (we only drink boiled milk). She upstairs came at once and started to use the electric broom on top of me in the kitchen area and vibrate the floor and my ceiling. She probably again gave catnip to the the cats cause they now run like crazy.

4:00 PM Today again like yesterday, made a large cup of tea and then i went to check under the door. There was nothing. The smell was coming from the dumpster next to mailboxes. Again i tested the tea and was bitter like the dentures in the first day after making. Like wormwood.

They put some pieces of wood right after they emptied the duster, blocking the lids and people have put the sacks on the ground next to it. I went and when i open the lids, i almost fainted. The smell was like in a Ceaușescu era public restroom, only for dogs (or cats).

I found one big black bag, open, with one tiny piece in it. I think it was the piece i pick from under the door and threw the other day next to hydrant. Probably coming from the cat i just saw heading for the hole under the balcony of the one level one apartment building, the one with the green balloon.

Then i slept until 3 PM which is a lot. Angela came and i asked her to taste that tea. She confirms it was bitter. Was made with a Stash mint little bag.

 6:55 PM About 30 minutes ago i wanted to go smoking and felt the smell of dirty laundry. Went to check under the deck. There is little dust remained there but in a corner, embedded in a tangle of small roots, under a small pile of dust there was the product of a cat.

About 20 minutes ago i poured myself a glass of wine and a bit of diet Pepsi in it to make it bubbly.

I dragged the pieces out of the tangle with a stick and went inside to grab a bag. Then i went again carefully curling myself (got a bad back pain) under the deck  and gathered those. Wanted to dig more to see if i missed any but the smell was unbearable so i got out from that uncomfortable position.

Next to me there there we was. The guy with a pony tail from E4 with his dog barking and jumping like crazy my height high, and him barely keeping under the leash, saying "stay" "stay". A few seconds later he would have caught me under the deck. Then i saw the red Mazda with the lights on pointing at me and windshield whippers on.

Went inside, was really nauseated. Took a charcoal and soon felt hunger from the wine. Put a small pot in the mw and said to myself i can go and smoke while that one heats up but went in the back. I saw from the low level at the crushed entrance a "needy" kid coming out and a more grown one carrying some pieces of board in one of the garages.

The mystery woman, the owner of the Mazda, came out and gave that kid something, probably food, with a carrying gesture. Planes were flying. I smoked my cigarette and went back inside, ate my pie and was thinking on how to write all these without accidentally self incriminating.

So i guess in a way i was right when i said the mystery woman she introduced as Autumn was Alexa Crush, with some AI added. But she is not Nikolett Krajcsi and there is a long list of women i thought each at a time she was. (Coud see her only from a distance or at night). (I know believe) she is China Kantner, 54, the daughter of Grace Slick.

I feels like springtime.



7:20 On Z100 Billy Jean started. Earlier saw one of the black cats passing by my patio. I will go and check again under the patio.

7:35 I think i missed a couple of pieces under the deck (or someone brought a couple of pieces, making it look like i missed them).

It has been more than five hours since i awoke however by brain is partly asleep. Could it be the poop smell, the smoke that at one time came from outside, diabetes, all of the above, who knows.

8:25 The smell is still in here, though diminished. At 7:50 went to the liquor store after about one week. (At Z100 they play "Everybody at the bar get tipsy"). There is a reason they have liquor stores in Oregon. They can add one or a few shows every time i go in there.

They were two cars flashing yellow lights on both sides of the building. On the rood i've been bullied by a gigantic white truck. In the store they welcomed me with a guy bending deep to a shelf right in front of me. I  heard a count down.

I grabbed my liquor after the isle has been cleared bv a funny short German looking man. At the counter, i saw another Japanese (of the three i saw in there recently). I was gratefully when another guy grabbed my bottle. I asked for a strong bag. Could not tap the card (he said at times it gets stuck). I asked for a receipt, he gave me one to sign (wouldn't had to if the tap tag was working).

The Japanese guy could not stop his laugh when i signed, like implying "what a joke, he can't read and write". A woman in a car passed when i turned my lights on, catching my light. When i got back, the car in front of the crush entrance were the kid came out earlier was still flashing yellow lights.

On the radio Punk sings "if you're laughing you are perfect to me".

8:42 On Z100 Nick Back "the bottom of every bottle" as i am slowly getting comfortable numb.

The Soggy Bottom Boys weren't that smart either since the man with the pad was blind (Just for the fun of it).

 

9:45 Did they just write this down?

10:10 Românii au ajuns iar să se uite la (gura lui) Băsescu (istoria se repetă), cel mai mare wise-ace din istoria României?

3:10 AM No encounter of the closest kind happened to me with that girl from Kimpolung i think in 79. According to her social status, she was probably waiting until after marriage. I only remember her first name, Elena, and her round face, vaguely. I think she had brown or green eyes. She was rather short. It would be 45 years.

We went together on a trip with a wild crowd and "slept" in a small lodge on a mountain. I was about to start college and i think she was interested in marriage and that's what separated us.

I saw her in the next winter in a tobacco shop again in Câmpulung with a very short guy, as short as her both dressed in what they called Alain Delon similarly made ship skin coats (which i could not afford) which could have meant he was either her brother or her fiancée. I believe they walked in that shop after me to shame me whom i had a very cheap coat cause i don't believe they bought anything.

A child by us also would have meant an average height.

All these does not mean i don't like her anymore either way. (Don't know the real name).

I remember i met a couple of years later a girl in Iași who looked a bit like her by the name Maria (brought by Daniela who was a regular for my roommate, after o said i could not stand that situation) and she said she was a student at Pharmacy.

Daniela told me i could get a lot from Maria. She never told me anything after that drunk night, never saw her again. She had a strong accent like from western Romania. Maria Dunszt was 46 at the time and it all happened in the dark... 

Or maybe i did. She was acting like the first manager at Sussex (Cindy Dunster) in 1996 and next years. (Then the next one was Christine McVie and the next Carole King). San Francisco... Grace - Crush, Slick - Alexa. Could be.

I believe earlier that year was another girl, also named Maria, but we were interrupted by my roommate. She looked a lot like... 

Can't remember the year, also early between 80 82 i went to a party (at a distant relative in Iași of course) and she wanted with me in the bathroom (at the time did not understand why, was also drunk) but once in there she puked.

In 81/82 i stayed in a room in a house in Iași with a roommate (Păcurari 33, now the numbers have changed). He looked and sang a bit like Paul McCartney, but was playing guitar right handed. We put up a band with me playing keyboards. There was a room with instruments 5 minutes walking from there. The bassist could have been Lou Gramm. 

4:10 Yesterday, the richest "crop of the year". Found up to ten open bags and free ones on the grass. Two again under the deck, with more redwood dust brought there by someone to make it attractive for cats to burry those. After i dealt with the last ones after 11, there was still a pink one with loose knot under a bag next to SW bin.

I came and took my grabber, but the guy who is smoking next to the dumpster (that stinks) showed giving me a weird look so i gave up. That kept me awake all night and awoke Angela early.

8:20

@alexacrush101

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11:35 As i was doing a face search (and i found another "by accident") the place started to fill with dirty laundry smell. I went outside. There was a thick smoke covering all smells. Found three black bags open at the dumpster next to mailboxes. Went to the other dumpsters, didn't find much, came back, the smoke was gone, still smelling. I went back to the first dumpster and found one on top of a transparent tray i missed the first time.

Came back inside, washed my hands, went to pick the mail, was still smelling like dirty laundry. Went under the deck. Somebody pulled some dust back in there and there was a pile like from cats under. Found one more pile under the stairs, there was an unidentifiable ball of something under a pile, picked that one too. When i came i realized the smell was now persisting inside so i started the ozone.

Kim Possible.

5:40 Eye colors


2:00 PM Instead of one they have been two leavings from upstairs today. One at 5:30 and one at 9:30, with one our of hellter each. Last night when i got home i have been hit by smell of sulfurous dust that was the bulk of the dust in the bag when i vacuumed last night. It is coming from the paint mostly from ceiling, which is contaminated from the outgassing of drywall.

So though it is not a gassing per se, as it happened to me at Electronic Specialty, it mimics the effects bv creating nose congestion and a chocking sensation followed by palpitation and respiratory insufficiency.

(If i use decongestant, my BG drops by about 100 with half of the insulin needed).

But it is the ninja that are trying to revive Nazism in the US, using Hungarian actors. The main street here in Tualatin is called Martinazzi.

2:30 I believe this is the place where my ego was suppressed in February 1996 with 1,1,1 Trichloroethane (Tripundra). They where founded in 1946 and the owner from Argentina whom i believe at the time was a fugitive of US justice came to personally talk to me but then somehow reopened in 1998.

4:28 And I still hear the echoes (The echoes) I got a feeling... (Tooth for a tooth, eye for an eye)

6:00 PM La un moment dat am dat un search pe google "romanian influencers" și ce credeți că mi-a ieșit?

9:30 They woke me up at 3 AM after 4 hours of sleep and left at 6. Just ate and got really sleepy, wanted to get one more hour of sleep to be able to drive and escape a little from here, but they just came back and started. They usually when they get back feed catnip to the cat or cats and the cat start running like crazy.

11:02 What else. They renewed, about a week ago, the red wood dust in selected areas of the complex. It was fine, smelling nice for a few days, but now it started (or something under started) to ferment and there's a weird strong yeast like smell that contributes to me not being able to sleep.

It will soon dry and the rain and wind will get it on the pavement and the wheels of the cars will spread it around.
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12:10 AM At midnight... I think they are two persons upstairs and right now they are creaking the floor where Angela sleeps...

2:20 Slept 4 hours, don't know what awakened me but they were making noises and then left. Though in the last days i slept no more than 5-6 hours i feel very rested because i used nose decongestant which allow better oxygenation. Also i am positive because of that by BG decreased by 100, with only 20 units of insulin daily. Metabolism needs oxygen.

Again big noise in the bathroom (pipes hissing) when and only when i went to the bathroom though they upstairs left. This promotes gas retention (scared) and later palpitations.

2:23 I am adulting again. Building the dentures which proves mission almost impossible. Due to last 4 extractions i have been left with some spurs that leave negative slopes on the model.

I mean, the imprint made with gel or rubber like material copies everything and then can it be extracted both from jaw and positive model, being soft, but if make the rigid gum with that model, first i have to destroy the model to extract those but then, have to push really hard to put them on basically forcing my soft part of the gum to "pass" over those spurs.

So i tried to smoothen those out by adding some, it is very hard cause the wet gypsum "freezes" when in contact with the dry one (water gets instantly sucked by the dry model), making it hard to smoothen out, but in the end i've done something. They will be loose in that area, but keep questioning.

Why do i have those spurs figuring teeth maybe? I remember at the last extraction (incisive next to right canine) he twisted the tooth while inside by at least 45 degrees to the left, breaking the jaw of which a part was missing (don't remember passing out or had a missing time feeling), creating that "esthetic" spur after 3 months of pain and antibiotics. To keep (some of the) character? 


3:05 Don't know who is the tall dark skin young guy who "operates" the black BMW with modified exhaust that just started, but i'm positive he is again a Japanese figuring a Latino.

About half hour earlier Angela came from work (4 to noon) and then WinCo. I went to grab the bags and two again short this time Japanese figuring Latino kids (probably the same who where having a 3 hours yelling party in the alley the other day) where handling a TV behind my car.

5:10 They are modeling reality with lies. Truth is of little importance to them, just the purpose.

I figured the reason why was not sleeping last night. There was one next to hydrant and a smaller one on the other side of the building. As i dispose of them, they probably brought  new ones since i feel energized again.

I made the first picture when i started at 4:06 PM. It was then when they climbed the stairs (her and her weekend boyfriend). They been continuously b...g the floor with the purpose of making me to get mad and loose my patience and fail.

The last one is before curing. It took a bit less than an hour. It's like working with putty though the UV material is a bit more brittle. I made numerous alignment mistakes, applying new ideas, and tried to recover from those. Some are a bit crooked like some natural teeth are LOL.

As i said, the problem now is my 400 nm UV lamp is small and though it cures very fast, does not penetrate deep enough. The alternative would be the Sun which is a good source of UV but it's cloudy outside and late.

After first curing, i have to soak them in vinegar and remove the gypsum and apply light under to see if that works (never tried that before). If not, i will remove the falling ones, cure the bottom of the holes and them reattach them with Scotch superglue.

6:05 Ok i managed to remove the gypsum model without soaking them. Some parts of it came loose and broke when pulled harder, for some i had to use a drill bit on an wireless screwdriver. I noticed the light intensifies (by checking fluorescence on a white surface) if i live it plugged in the adapter. I did that, cured them from the bottom too.

They fit perfectly though there's a bit of difficulty in closing the mouth all the way with and old upper attached. Need some trimming maybe buffing. I think trimming the rear teeth with a rotary tool would do it. I am not perfectly satisfied with the alignment, especially the front ones so it will not be the last version. 

I have to start and do the upper too to see if they fit better. Total cost of materials was about 100 bucks but considering i made several trials just to learn and i have more than half left, i'd say maybe 10-15 dollars a piece.

6:45 Ok i ate two burritos with them and i can tell these are the best lower dentures i ever had (pending some buffing, need a rotary tool), and i swear i haven't read any book one how to make those though i can write (a short) one myself if i had the teaching material and a bottle of wine  (or absinthe or brandy whatever).

And they stink and or smell bad like chemicals because they are too freshly made. Jaw dropping? Didn't i tell i was wood carving when in grade school and chiseling letters on marble tomb stones for about 3 bucks a piece when in vacations in HS?

Now some of the jaw muscles hurt (muscular breakdown) because i have not been chewing for such a long time. Same problem with the smiling muscles. Have not been smiling for such a long time now i can't anymore (just to take a picture of my new dentures to show them).

Have a nice weekend everybody!

2:40 AM Ai Kago

4:55 Cred că e un ritual. Absolut tot ce postez e dublat de ceva. Nu știu dacă voi trăi suficient de mult ca să mă prind de ce fac ei asta. Însă de multe lucruri credeam că nu o să mă prind niciodată și răspunsurile au venit atunci când mă așteptam mai puțin așa că cine știe. Până atunci mă voi enerva ori de câte ori apare ceva. Și sunt cu zecile, nu am timp să ri-postez ceva la fiecare.

Chestii din astea mi se mai întâmplau la grădiniță când copiii răspundeau cu aceeași replică. Sau de exemplu mergeam în vizită la cineva și de câte ori deschideam gura să spun ceva, un copil se băga peste mine și nu mă lăsa să vorbesc.

Chestia e că nu numai online. Postez ceva, merg pe afară sau la store sau chiar pe drum și văd tot felul de maimuțăreli legate de ce am postat, cu brand-uri de mașini, numere etc..

12:55 A rather large number of people are interfering with my activities.

From waking up (people marching upstairs, making almost unbearable noises), going to the restroom (flushing toilets, hissing water that only happen in those moments), reading the news (marching upstairs) bending the other way around exactly when i look in that direction (butt showing), causing intestinal blockage, palpitations a few hours later or the next day.

Shows, if i open the door, a number of people would start acting catching me in all kinda visual frames, if i go in the stores, people will start moving around me, simulating i'm following them or i'm up to something. If i go in the park or other public places (including casinos) celebrities will participate.

Driving, permanently surrounded by their teams, featuring plate numbers, brands and slogans according to the "theme" of the day or moment (depending mostly of what i'm posting but sometimes only thinking, news events, etc..

Models on TikTok and X are addressing to me probably only to improve their ratings but never really want to communicate.

I don't believe there are any normal random people around me.

A good chunk of the news are featured with the only purpose of counteracting my posts. Stock market seems to follow my activities.

There are mostly two categories. Asians, most likely Japanese, sometimes acting like Spanish or Native Americans, with real Spanish showing sometimes. European looking, most likely Hungarians figuring white Americans.

Am i in hell or a parallel Universe being punished for my previous life sins?

3:08 PM There are a number of permanent themes "they" will never give up. They build a facade around me basically trying to prove it is not my past life sins, but the current one. The Indian dancer in the park yesterday. Numerous others.

Let me give you an example. I opened the door this morning cause i was sneezing like crazy. One guy dressed in construction dirty clothes was advancing on the alley towards this building, with a creepy smile on his face. Because these days i have gypsum on my pants and alginate on my face.

Something they will never give up cause it is one main ingredient in the show. They have to continuously prove i am gay. So they add daily elements to constant reinsure this. Of course it's not real proofs but only strong suspicions that lead to "almost sure" conclusions that are confirmed tomorrow by other "almost sure" facts.

I mean, what could be more almost sure than a male dancer from India that descended from a video in the park near the restroom when i was passing by? Never mind i met with Angela at the end of that bridge and walked back on the bridge to sit on a bench for the next 10 minutes.

So today they designed an event so wicked that with about 5 minutes of loud base they threw my day into chaos.

It is no secret these days i am trying to build my own dentures.

Over the years i became so fed with simulated low quality, with defects made on purpose to permanently annoy me, make me lock bad and having difficulties eating, hurting the roof of my mouth, gums, that i decided to try and to it myself.

What it seems easy at start it turned more and more difficult if not impossible.

First i bought an online kit (only for upper to try it first) made of a tray like shoe horse ready made denture. The tray comes filled with a thermal resin.

You make a negative imprint in a tray with alginate (a gel made with algae and other things like that), the same as the dentist or denturist would do. Then you fill that imprint with gypsum (dental stone). 100% percent gypsum is a very good material cause it sets fast, it does not shrink, etc..

Though is hard to find. I had a 5 pounds bag bought on Amazon that i used for years to plug holes, but i finished it. (Holes would re-appear miraculously from time to time and i usually make about one teaspoon in a water bottle cap, which i do not use all).

Commercial name is plaster of Paris, but not all plaster of Paris is created equal. The one by the brand DAP i just bought has up to 30% lime. Which makes it harder to set, then more difficult to remove.

First amount came with the kit. So i made everything as instructed and got one pair of upper denture. Which functions alright but the thermal resin seem not be durable.

Then i got the taste of taking imprints and making gypsum models and i thought maybe i should try to use more durable materials.

Professionally, they do dentures with an injection machine which is out of the question. But i saw a video saying you can do it with UV curing material. I mean, you make the negative imprint, do the gypsum positive model, build a gum with a putty like UV curing ping material around it and set teeth and then cure it with UV.

So i bought the UV curing sheets which has a stated tensile strength about the same of regular acrylic injected dentures will.

I have several UV lamps at home, of different wavelength, mostly shortwave germicidal and those did not work because of too short wavelength. And then i remembered i had a "black light" flash light i once bought for other reasons and tried with that one. In about a minute the material was as hard as stone. Probably harder than the acrylic dentures.

However there's a catch. The UV light from my toy UV flash light does not penetrate very deep. In thicker areas, it does not get cured (not right away anyways). For this reason the teeth do not always stay attached (they come out when pulled hard by hand).

There's a cure for that. Scotch superglue (the original one) is so good, i regularly glue dentures that break in half from usage and they stay glued for years. So after i build the denture, i cure what i can, then remove the teeth (not all come out) and then cure the exposed areas and then i can reattach the teeth with superglue.

It's a lengthy process. (In the meantime i think i found a better solution on Amazon). However, at the third day of trials i have accumulated enough experience to get encouraged to continue in this direction (UV curing materials and separate individually installed teeth). 

So this morning after i slept some 5 hours i said ok, should try one more time and let the gypsum model cure for the rest of the day so i can try in the evening. So i made the alginate (not easy), stuck the trays in my mouth (not for the faint of heart), kept them in my mouth for a couple of minutes trying not to puke, unstuck them etc..

Then i filled the imprints with soft made gypsum (there is a whole art of mixing the dust with water making the right thickness, like sour cream) and then it happened. Could not find the piece of plastic to put on top of the gypsum to create a flat surface need to work later on. And then, kaboom. The loudest base i heard since i live here.

The floor was vibrating under my feet. Music in Spanish, to make a counter allegory of what i wrote above. Could not think what to do. Until i figured i could use some pieces of paper and turn the trays with the impression now full of wet gypsum upside down on a table, to create a flat surface needed to be able to work on them (attach gum and teeth), the gypsum hardened.

I made a mess on the table and everywhere. The base kept pounding. I washed my hands, grabbed the recorder but could not find the USB-USBC cable to upload it.

In three days i started to build some confidence in knowing all phases of the process. But now i have doubts the models will come right, because i handled them while hardening. Having doubts makes it so much harder to work on anything.

Finally found the cable, but then i thought if i upload this, it would distract everybody's attention from what i wrote before. And those frequencies are not caught very well by the voice recorder.

In a few words, they choose the right moment when to do it to screw my day completely with 5 minutes of reckless "music". Who was it? I don't know, some simulated mad Latino. I did not have the guts to go outside and look.

It is called tokagure ryu. The school of the hidden door. They don't have to be in the same room to create havoc in your life. Basically sabotage you, make you waste time and interrupt a process that would lead to me looking a bit less scarry when i go around and less painfully to eat.

Hours after it happened is start to feel pain from different types of irritant dust, some that fall from the ceilings and walls, some from the redwood outside. I feel like drinking and smoking but i'm out of cigarettes and none of us wants to buy liquor anymore.

The wine in boxes we can afford (Franzia) that used to be so good 20 years ago has more sugar in it than ever and taste like all kinda added flavors but definitely not like wine. Thought the price seem to be inflation adjusted.

This is just an example. It happens almost daily with variations. I hear uncomfortably loud base several times a day and it's usually in the worst possible moments and very disruptive. (Besides creaks upstairs and very loud exhausts).

4:50 A guy with back pack (no car) just climbed upstairs and started to creak the floor. The black BMW with modified exhaust just started.

5:15 Went and smoked two cigarette buts. Kids yells invaded the alley on the other side of the building. My head sounds again like a ripe water melon after yesterday i ate again peanut butter on a piece of bread.

6:05 The models were hard enough to be pulled out of imprints. Poured two more just in case. Plaster of Paris is cheap. Upstairs finally stopped creaking.

7:45 That guy who climbed upstairs was her, with a backpack and no car. She is working the floor ever since. Outside there is a party of Latinos. Just to counter what i wrote above. Real Latinos speaking real Spanish. At times i heard them repeating the word "padre". They took of the moment i uploaded this file.

My recorder does not hold time and date. The time and date on the file are the generic ones.

9:02 Tocmai am spus mai sus că ăștia mă îngână.

5:00 AM

6:50 It looks like i might have found the culprits for the smell in the apartment. It was not tiny dogs but cat poops i found for a week under the deck. How long has it been going? Don't know, but when the weather started to heat up a little, the wood chips it started to stink so bad it was unbearable. And i thought there was something wrong with me, pancrease or liver not working etc.. and kept getting nauseated and taking charcoal caps.

They look groomed and taken care of though possibly underfed and kinda wild cause they did not grow or got heavier over the last months or so. Or they bring in different cats from time to time.

8:00

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5:05 AM Was Alaska Musk Ox the inspiration for Star Wars Bantha?

12:33 PM There is a continous uproar from the construction site. My head again sounds like a ripe melon. I start to write a phrase, i get to the middle of it and i forget what i wanted to say.

2:10 These guys have a different metabolism or something...


9:00 PM Kagura dance is performed to lure Amaterasu Sun Godess out of the cave... 

3:40 AM Buckethead those occasional rebellious dissonant changes of scales are meant to break monotony test critics chase away the bad spirits or the unsavvy/undeserving fans?)

Had no idea! (I honestly believed he was a starving artist!) Actually it makes sense. Many old arena rock or even cover bands now get shredders as guitarists because they are exceeding and also add a harder and crispier sound to the old songs.


4:35 PM Slept throughout the morning. Last night i replaced the screw at the backdoor with a wooden stick and checked several times. It was pushed back just enough for the door to be opened. There is something beeping in the alley for half hour now. Kids voices yelling. I opened the door to look and it stopped and then it started again. When i opened the door for the second time the two Japanese girls where taking pictures in my direction. My recorder works only if i reset it every time now.

11:15 Thick weird smoke from outside makes it hard to breath here.

3:30 PM Angela started to cook, they came to play with the ball.

3:50 Angela is cooking, they came to rhythmically hit the TV box. They haven't done this since last fall or weather was good enough for them to stay outside in shorts at 52 degrees (10C) as of right now.

4:55 Windows hasn't done nothing, it was a false impression. As the PC went to sleep mode it stopped the downloading. Today i did it again, wasted some one more hour. Some settings have been altered. Also had to sign into chrome, start the phone, get beamed, now i'm in pain.

4:25 AM Here she reminds me of young Gwen Stefani

Here...


Father's day on Lake Tahoe...

6:40 And the most recurrent of them all stories. Domini cani. Inquisition. Dogs and fire. Dog poop and redwood.

Please pay attention to what i'm writing below cause i repeated it so many times but people do not seem to understand what dogs of God are doing in here.

Slept two hours. When i awoke at 1 AM my mind was racing from things and people i saw yesterday. Trying to sort things out now that i know about what i posted above. Too much. However after after a few hours i started to feel nauseated and sick. Angela went for overtime since 4 AM. "To make for the money she lost in casinos". I don't care since i can't sleep anyways.

For the last few days it was dogs under door. In freezing temperature, the dogs were burying the warm poops in the dry red dust (it never rains under the deck because of the roof above) to keep them warm and emanating for the next  hours.

Yesterday it warmed up and last night temperature did not go under 40 (4 Celsius). So the switched back to dumpsters.

In the last month or after it snowed there have been always at least one bag with spilled litter dust around the closest dumpster, the one next to mailboxes. Today it was no exception, there is one big plastic box partially overturned, with some stuff still in there.

So i went outside, dizzy, with balance problems, high BP, almost stumbling, about to faint. Did not find anything under the deck. But the smell was in the air. Came and grabbed my grabber, one empty bag and  went to check the dumpsters. The same old story with closed, semi-open and open bags.

Once in the bag, (the dog) especially if it has some tannin (the fire) from redwood in it, they start being virulent because the tannins mutate the bacteria in there and keep fermenting until removed. I knotted again bla bla a number of bags. I hope i will get some sleep now.

Domonkos means Dominican in Hungarian. Check the pronunciation. Johnny Cash was one of them. It's all symbolism.

7:20 She upstairs is warming up for quite some time and i can't find the recorder. Outside there's fog and within the fog there's a... burnt rubber smoke? The rings of fire?

11:55 Today is March 1st when Romanians exchange small gifts or tiny cheap jewels (that can be expensive, though more rarely) tied with a white and red thread that some wear on their chests. It is called little March 1st.

After 30 years it feels like it all happened in a another life time, no emotion attached to it anymore.

12:05 Slept until 11 and awoke nauseated. Temperature rose to 60 degrees (15 C). Went and disposed of more little bags (pink, yellow and green) that some were fermenting for days or weeks behind the SW dumpster. While there, a woman left from the spot next to it, another guy came and parked a big red truck, bumping into a small recyclable bin.

Did not see or paid attention last night, thee is a piece of old rolled carpet stinking next to it which in turn makes mine inside stinking after vacuuming. When i left a big airliner flew above, visibly under 5000 ft (one mile) FAA safety limit. 

No i think it only appeared closer being one of the largest Boeing ever built.

The whole area between our building and the others stinks. Wondering how can other people can live here. Unless they don't.

11:38 They came to overshadow what i just said about Mărțișor. The man responsible for Colectiv disaster has been "reelected" in the same function and now is acting. (also because what i just said about fire and inquisition).

12:45 After Angela came i went and tried to put that carpet into the dumpster but the dumpster was full (that dumpster is rarely full) two days after Thunder Thursday when they empty the bins with pieces of furniture and building materials so the carpet stays on top of it, in the wind that blows from that direction.

12:15 In the past i added pictures with infinity columns at Ilani. Last night i realized these could represent aether whirls, small and big. But if the knew, why didn't they say anything? Or are they waiting for someone to say something to say later they said it first?

As i said many times before all traffic in Portland seems coordinated by an invisible hand. This truck followed me for 10 miles well outside their "service" area or about one hour in the slow mandatory daily built in @downtown Portland commuting traffic. Then the Tesla truck came. Pioneer gas and furnaces.

That after breathing here air contaminated with bacteria and dog s...t, not sleeping well, being really sleepy, almost bumped into a suddenly stopped Tesla car on I5 before that. I checked at that company hovel on Simpsons next to Killingsworth in Alberta neighborhood, i did not see any "cyber" truck in their fleet.
Is this real?

2:30 The moment i started to type in the other blog "the kids", a couple of Japanese girls (at least one of them is a grown woman posing as a child) figuring Latinas came and started to hit a balloon (filled with air) in the back yard, that is after the air was cleaned enough by me removing all i could of the s...t while Angela is trying to get some sleep.

2:50 Now after i posted that video they sit on the TV box while staring in the direction of our apartment and hit the box with their feet in the rhythm of that song (no they can't hear it, volume is too low) and succeeded awakening Angela.

2:55 Now i started to record the noise and they left. Some smoke came instead.

3:15 Now they're gone and poop smell creeped in. Must be a new one somewhere.