3:20 AM I think i'm in trouble screwed. Trouble is when you have a chance to recover. Screwed is irreversible. I mean at least semantically.

I spent yesterday about 6 hours in the ER at St.Vincent. Most time, waiting, of course. At first i found a place in a corner with no cell phones in sight. Cause i knew i can't stay next to those when they're "working". Mostly casually scrolling the screens up and down that is. I read yesterday in the Guardian.

To me it was not 4 hours and 20 minutes.

Never used wi-fi until 2015. Out of paranoia over some could figure everything i do online. Not that it was really important at the time. But man did i use the cell phone and wireless inside. But no more than @2 hours a day on average. And yes i would go for walks around the building while talking on a cheap plan, mainly with 2 persons in Romania. Yes, this song was about me.


But before that i've been sitting in front of a computer monitor an average of 10  hours a day, since 1986. There was little warning or none. Ok i have to admit. Some people, very few, tried, in their own way to pull me away from those. The ancient CRT monitors especially the color ones are putting a small amount of X-rays. Not enough to fog a film in the room but i guess the cumulative effect of humans, in time, is not negligible.

Then when i moved to the current address, i was too lazy and worried with other stuff, like my diabetes, diagnosed that year (2015) and the s...t embedded in the water heater's pan to fight to install wires everywhere so i gave up. I put a wi-fi card in my old computer sitting at my legs, under the desk. For Angela, we bought an all in one "Lenovo" which is some sort of laptop in a monitor with PC keyboard and mouse. Deal done.

Staying at the computer all waking hours, except going for a walk or after 2016, going in weekends to casinos.

Can't remember exactly when my PC power supply broke. A few years ago. I already had that Samsung chrome book which i bought for a trip to Reno and started using it. At first put aside, with a regular monitor. I think it was back then when i first realized wi-fi hurts me. But did not give up especially because the smoke engulfing the building was keeping me pain free and happy all the time.

But then i gave up myself totally and started to use the notebook on my lap. 10-12 hours a day. It broke 3 power supplies and then the notebook itself became so brittle the hinges broke and the only reason could only have been microwave radiation, it was only a few years old.

Then one Christmas, the year when i almost ran with 80 mph in a bail of hay at Rice Hill i realized i have some sort of chronic abdominal pains.

About in the same time i finished plugging the mole and/or rat holes around the building and the smoke stopped and then i realized something is wrong with me and wi-fi and installed cables. The chromebook was not broken yet and used an ethernet to usb adapter on it.

But it was too late. As i said, the effect is cumulative and once you reach a certain stage of exposure, when enough capillaries are destroyed you simply cannot take no more.

About a month ago i forgot the router's wi-fi on and though it was not connected to anything after a few days i started to feel pains everywhere. And the router is some 7-8 meters away. I think i already had blisters on my feet.

About a week ago one night i scratched myself at the left ankle, the invisible area, and some blood came on the sheet in the morning. When i looked at, i saw a black hole. Small at first, it expanded in the next few days, engulfing the whole blister. about 2 square inches that is.

After i tried all the tricks i knew, yesterday i went to the ER. Excruciatingly waiting to see if the necrosis is deep enough to warrant admission to the  hospital, surgery maybe.

Some a...hole came and broke the relatively new soda vending machine. It started to make a sound like an ICU respirator. Moving a little door, about the same times a minute. People passed by. I told one of the triage nurses, then a security guard came and tried to use it himself. Then Angela talked to someone and they told her it is an outside vendor and they can't fix it.

We moved into a different area. But there i got caught in the crossfire of many cell phones, all senselessly and unnecessary scrolling on data, which doubles the amount of microwaves (yes, cell phones use the same frequencies an oven uses, to communicate with towers).

No known authority in the US ever warned people about the effects of the microwaves from cell phones or wi-fi on human tissues. The criteria they used back in 90s when they tested those and established the limits was how much they heated the tissues. Enough to say, there are countries like from what i remember, Italy and Russia, have established limits 100 less than in the US.

Finally got in, got x-rayed, doctor told me there is no reason to be admitted, referred me to a podiatrist and taught me the latest trend in wound care. An over the counter antibiotic ointment and then some tissue soaked with petrolatum gel and half roll of bandage over. The trick i think is to keep the skinless healing area moist so it won't crack and bleed over and over again.

After watching Star Trek DS9 for a while i fell asleep and awoke after one hour with pain in my feet. At first i thought it was caused by the wound, pulled the bandage (though i was not supposed to do it in 24 hours) and looked. The ointment disappeared and the the gel soaked tissue started to stick to the wound, but other than that, no perceived changes. But then i fully awoke and realized the pain was coming out of the sole of my right foot.

Kept asking myself, why, why, and then i realized. The cell phones yesterday. I can still feel the burning sensation on the left side of my face.

And then i remembered something i kept thinking over and over again ever since i left the ER. The doctor told me my wound almost looked like a burning wound.

It all makes sense now. Diabetes makes my legs fragile, and wi-fi adds on top of that. When i bought the new shoes a few months ago, they started to "interact with my feet" in a way normally shoes would.

But my skin is not normal anymore. I read online about blisters and diabetes.

My left foot is in a worse shape then my right (always been) and it was there when the blisters first started and created the wound. But yesterday i had some plastic sleepers and socks thick enough to make my right foot sit tight in there (left didn't even go in all the way).

That, combined with the microwaves from those stupid phones created two new blisters and the pain in the sole of my right foot was enough to awake me.

BTW do you remember (missed it) that DS9 episode when Quark got married to a Klingon woman? Could not stop laughing, haven't laughed in months. Or years. I think they had something in common. Their teeth. Ha ha ha ha...

BTW just remembered something. I believe what contributed to me needing to pull all the teeth in my mouth was again the radiation from the phone and laptop. Now if i eat without dentures or leave those too long after i eat or wear them a whole half day i get a big headache.

11:00 AM Ferengi vs Klingon teeth (everything Star Trek on the web is low res, because it was uploaded in the days when first digital cameras appeared). I had this conversation with someone long time ago, @year 2000 and i stated the obvious. The greedy Ferengi in the movie represented the gay Jews and the honorable warrior Klingons (klinging, clean, gone) the Japanese. (Also Federation - federals, the maquis, Mexicans, native Americans). Who are the Vulcans? Probably the Freemasons.

     

I looked at the test results from ER yesterday. The only abnormal results (besides blood sugar) were the monocytes, right outside the upper limit. The doctor told me the one for inflammation is very low.

She gave me cephalexin (an antibiotic for mostly skin problems) after she gave me a choice "though it wasn't necessary".

I took two doses and then i missed one and when i took the next, i started to have hot flashes. After first two my skin suddenly "shrank" on my legs exposing twisted veins and my feet and feet became visible thinner with mostly skin covering weird looking bones because of less inflammation. Got a bone spur under one knee for a long time, but now it became painful.

Could it be because i did not eat before taking it but now pains are localized in areas with microwave exposure in the past. Remember my theory about "diagnosing with antibiotics"? If one takes an antibiotic and gets inflammation in some areas it means there is a hidden, latent, low grade or chronic infection going on.

11:16 I remember Mirela since 1982 or the first IInd year in college. Memorable.

7:34 PM After using neosporin topically and cephalexin systemically and intensive wound care today my wound shows signs of improvement. I mean, it showed. I put an waterproof clear self adhesive cover over neosporin and then took a shower. Used deodorant. Somebody from upstairs went down and back up the stairs at least a couple of times.

The smell here became unbearable and i went twice cause first time i ran out of bags. One guy with a huge truck was blocking the dumpster when i took the last ones. No trucks or other vehicles vibrating the building. However, my wound started to hurt again. Could it be because of the exposure to cold, but also... something crossed my mind.

Burn wound? Could this have been done with an IR laser or UV or anything that could hurt my skin? Today i had thick "diabetes" black socks but they are not very compact. Will change bandage and will see if the healing continues or not.

10:30 AM Amazon always does this. Lets me down in critical moments. Angela ordered last night some wound wash and paid 3 bucks to have it overnight. It has been delayed. I ordered a pair of boots, one size up, wide. There was no choice but normal and wide. However they came medium.

10:32 Most people of my age in the US or their spouses had have some kind of surgery in their lives. They know how it is to care for a wound.

No i did not have surgery. I had blisters on my legs probably due to an endless prank. People spraying something on my shoes when i was letting them outside. One of the blisters was behind in the ankle area, above the heel. Did not see it. It broke and i scratched at night and created a hole with missing derma of about 2 square inches.

They sew your skin after surgery. However here i got missing skin. It has to grow from whatever is under. Fascia. Connective tissues. It is a very slow process and you have to clean it and change bandages several times a day.

April 1st 2023. I think i handled some leaves that came out of the roof of one of the garages. Got a terrible itch on my right hand. I scratched like crazy until it became like this. Went to the ER, went to a dermatologist. It lasted more than one month. I got healed after i sprinkled some amoxicilin dust from a capsule in a couple of days. It would have never healed otherwise.

But now it's much worse. The area is 3-4 times bigger. Thee are black areas in the middle, i assume it is a blood "skin" but could be necrosis from an earlier wound i completely ignored. I do not want to put the picture here so scare someone.

This morning i was feeling much better, i thought i went "over the hill" or the critical point with it and delayed with dressing the wound and did lots of stuff in the kitchen, stepping on the cold floor. Now i got again chills after one hour of doing so.

Yesterday again i thought i was doing better and went outside, with new socks over the bandages and some rubber sandals. It was under 50 degrees and spent like half hour sorting the poops. All hell broke loose after.

Last night i saw in the bathroom again the box with unused Dove rose soap the dermatologist gave me back then to wash the wound. Had two bars. I used one for about a month, it always got better after, but the itch continued until i sprinkled that amoxicillin.

I washed my heel with it and then sprinkled sterile saline i made myself. I started to feel the smell of poop and an idea came to me. What if i actually the smell it's coming from me? My underarms.

My diabetes started around the same time i quit using deodorant. After i saw polyps under my arms and plucked them.

But my underarms don't smell like they usually did when i was young. These days they literally smell like cat and dog s...t. I figure the smell outside is not strong enough to make me sick directly the way i am every day. However the aerosolized bacteria that flies in the air coming from those may seed my underarms.

Yes i am among those who showers about twice a week. Not using deodorant, nobody is supposed so smell me cause i stay  here day and night. At casinos if i go once in the smoking area and smoke a cigarette, there is nothing to smell anymore. In the car i got oil and coolant leaks that act like "deodorants".

So i went in the bathroom, used a kitchen sponge with the tuff part removed and washed under arms with rose soap. Really well. Then i got my wound taken care of (by Angela).

And then guess what. I did not have the urge to go outside to pick the poops anymore. I slept a full 5 hours which to me is quite rare. Was not nauseated in the morning. But when i checked my BS, it was 140. I did not have a reading like this since i discovered i have diabetes and i already had it @300. Lowest was 160 i guess.

Thing is i also reduced insulin to @25 (Lantus units) which is close to lowest (20) due to high BP and take 2 metformin a day. When i was doing 44 units with no metformin it was running close to 300.

I take my diabetes it is all because of the smell from the bacteria that comes from outside, multiplies under my arm and then ends in my gut and it started when i stopped using deodorant under arms.

8:40 PM Though i took a bath (and used the rose soap) earlier, for the last hour i was nauseated. I knew it could be something too close to ignore. So i put a plastic shoes cover on my left foot and went outside, two steps of the stairs.

One guy came out running towards me and yelling of apt D6. Second on the right, ground level, closest entrance. There seem to be an unlimited number of teens (boys) in there. Every time i try to look at their faces i can't recognize them. They go in group, i saw 5 of them passing my balcony a few days ago.

I cannot recognize any of them, they keep changing. I don't believe there is any adult in there, as there is a group of girls at D9 (last apartment, same entrance).

So i closed the door and waited a few seconds. I opened the door, another one. They both left towards the mailboxes, and one of them yelled to the other a word in Spanish. Playfully but Barley convincing.

Then i stepped down the 7 rungs and made 5 more steps and looked.

There is a small area of redwood dust near the wall of the stairwell that never gets wet. It is there when the cats come to poop. I grabbed a tree branch and dug a little. Last time i checked i tried to spread the dust around and there was about one inch left and the ground was dry and firm under. Tonight i saw the dust was much deeper and then i finally find one, buried several inches down.

That does not mean it does not stink. That dust is to fluffy to seal it. The reason of my nausea. About 10 ft away from our entrance. But then i saw there was some sort of hole under where the poop was, leading... i don't know. That hole was not there last time i checked.

Every time i dig into that dust i get irritated by it. It is possible it was the cause for the blisters, not capsaicin from the air or from a spray can. But then, i was outside many times, for a long time before the blisters started. Redwood dust is very irritating, almost as much as chili peppers. A combination?

Tonight i had my left foot covered by a plastic shoe cover i bought on Amazon. Not much progress with my wound but it did not get worse either. Keep changing bandages.

This picture was taken from our door. The darker area in the middle of the dry area (right of the pillar) is were i found the poop.

1:43 I was nauseated and it was not my underarm. Took two charcoal caps, nothing. Went out the door and saw from the same standing position the above picture was taken a small dug out hole and a small "cake" next to it.

Put my plastic covers over my socks, got my feet on the "stepped" shoes (with no heel touch) and went to check. One boy was across the alley in front if the entrance i mentioned earlier, checking his phone. Picked the little cake, put it into a bag, came inside, another one came and then both left.

I did not pick one from this area in days, now there have been 2 in less than 24 hours. I take it they adapt to my adaptation (washing underarm). Got to wet that area using a watering can and then maybe mix it with some cement to make it harder to dig. Cats don't poop if they can't dig or on wet areas.

1:53 Opened the door. One guy with backpack was standing with his back at me, bent head, ft away from the stairs.

2:45 There is a newer, modified exhaust big black truck maneuvering, revving beyond the SW dumpster (next to new park wall) for about 10 minutes now.

8:15 AM A normal temperature i was used to for 30 years in Portland area at this time of the year is @40-45 (4 - 6 C) during day time and @freezing during night. Here come days in the middle of January with maximums up to 55 (11 C) after a few days of real winter weather.

I prefer lower temperatures because the poops don't smell that much. I am awake for 2 and a half hours, nauseated but can't go outside because of wounds of my legs caused by blisters from shoes exposed to probably capsaicin.

5:20 PM For two or three days in a row Angela wanted guacamole. For different reasons (mainly we had other foods to eat) we postponed that and today i went to check for poops Angela made a big one out of two avocados.

First. Every time i was going in one corner of the yard, someone would pop in my direction. When i picked a poop, a woman came eating. Then i went for the cat ones, next to me a guy was yelling something in Spanish etc. Then when i turned around to the battle zone to pick the ones i mapped earlier i saw a guy with two dogs kinda rushing between two buildings north of the alley, towards the new partly build path.

Then i saw another poop with diarrhea, spread on about half square foot which i could not possibly pick.

While i was finally sitting here and eating guacamole i remembered.

Got big problems with blisters at my feet caused by capsaicin? in shoes which turned into large, infected, bleeding wounds. Today i got to use for the first time that Amazon feature that allows delivery in the same day if you order merchandise over 25 dollars. Ordered some water proof patches, diabetics socks, etc..

It's past 5, they are not out for delivery yet. And i have chills my wounds got re-infected after going outside with bandages only (and socks on top) and have to take a shower. When i got back, before i found the poop next to hydrant, i got sprinkled with something coming with the wind, could had been rain drops. Upstairs, incessant.

6:15 A while ago i was hearing an unusually high RPM loud idling, for about 10 minutes, now another one (or the same) re-started. It almost sounds like a carpet cleaner. And i wanted to go outside to smoke a cigarette.

12:45 AM During my last raid i found pieces of a dog poop not far from our door and it was a small poop, not from the large black cat whit white paws. Don't know if those were the reason i was so sick in the morning. They were well camouflaged. I take it is some sort of revenge of the cats for that blind cat. I did not put the barbed wire before this morning. That cat had that scar on the eye for weeks.

But at this point i start to believe the cats are being manipulated somehow. Maybe they got chips in their little brains. Maybe those cat islands in Japan are for experimenting.

12:48 How would you feel if you started to write something and someone would climb upstairs (at any  hour of day and night) in that very moment. And then they are playing on the radio "we don't need your education", the nr.1 on my hated song list. Thinking of all the characters that got in my way from around every corner when i got outside, every time. Silence for hours and then they start vibrating the walls with engines and planes.

12:52 Earlier i saw a face in the news and started thinking. Maybe Tom Allen, the guy who hired me at Quadramed as software engineer in 1998 was actually Leonard Nimoy know for portraying the alien Spoke from Star Trek the original series which i didn't even seen at that time (for me it started with TNG).

It is true. We had 3 managers, 4 secretaries and we were 5 programmers of which only 3 were actually doing something. The firm was called Softlink and was acquired by Quadramed just before i got hired in there. But it's easy to find out. The big manager was Andy Carson from Portland channel 12 and customer service guy was Jeff Gianolla.

The guy who was typing code with 70 wpm (Brannon) was an actor from Hungary i identified recently.

Mike, the most proficient, also identified (a writer, maybe he was coordinating everything). But of course, they all were. One of the secretaries (actually the receptionist) was Macy Gray and her one hit wonder Try was inspired by my first program ever using object oriented Pascal called Delphi was called just like that.

Because i had no idea i could finish it but i did. Yes i was choking all the time because of dust falling from the fake ceiling and who knows what else and that and the stomach pain made me quit after 8 months, right after starting the next project though Tom tried to talk me into not doing it. Of course i was not in my right mind. Never totally been after being gassed in 1996 at Electronic Specialty in Vancouver.

Yeah piano players make good typists. I once went next to him and tried to see if he is really typing code but he was simply too fast too follow his fingers. At times he was coming at work saying he is too tired (he was also a student) and was sleeping under the desk and that was probably the reason i found a big mistake into the common (objects) library he was maintaining we were all  using. Or maybe it was all scripted for them to pretend i blackmailed him.

Decades prior? We were smoking together at the back entrance of that office building near Safeway at Raleigh Hills in 1998. 17 years, i think you could say that. 

There is also a physical resemblance between the other manger (Shannon, an Irish girl's name) and lawyer Ronald J. Rychlak, it would only make sense if it was him. I mean all that was missing in that office.

1:33 It again smells like fresh poop. Would be the third time i go out tonight. And they are already singing on the radio "oh oh here she comes".

2:00 And William Shatner. Shatner was my physics teacher in HS etc.. He also tried to run me over with a tow trek in 2017 i guess.

6:40 AM I awoke at 4 AM with my nose totally congested and nauseated. I waited till Angela's alarm went off at 5 and at 5:30 i went outside to see and found nothing (too cold for dog walks?). But when i got back, through the yard, i saw the cat running and i think it ran from our balcony.

I got inside and i noticed a smell like from homeless people but also i cooked some cabbage last night with smoked ham. I aired for at least 15 minutes and the smell is still here. It totally detoured my day. Like i'm in some sort of shock.

About a week ago i ordered some barbed wire to put in the balcony but then i ordered some plastic snake toys and put those first. I think the cat slept next to one of those. So today i changed my mind and laid the barbed wire on the concrete floor of the balcony.

But i don't like the idea, some cat might get entangled in it and today i ordered some mesh (i already had some but this morning i accidentally entangled it with the barbed wire and had to cut it to pieces) to close about 2/3 of the balcony with it.

12:23 Finally went back to sleep and slept 4 more hours until noon. However i awoke with a bitter taste in my mouth, something Angela complains about for a while. Could it be due to the smoke present here during all evenings.

3:15 They started at 8 today they are still beeping and vibrating buildings accross the alley, something they did for almost 3 months now.

4:33 The black BMW started again right after i finished eating. Will it idle for 5-10 minutes? No, it's just leaving.

4:37 No i was mistaken. That was another car. It revved and left now.

10:35

7:00 AM I was in the kitchen doing dishes, minding my own thoughts, mostly about some stupid article i read in Romanian news, something i cannot touch without getting dirty myself, listening to sporadic floor creeks upstairs, after the main guy left at 6:30 when suddenly i felt the smell of a very annoying smoke which came from outside. I opened the door and there was fog, with a bit of smoke which smoke was much stronger inside and was getting me a bit dizzy too.

Yeah every stupid theme started by the news corporation in the US had made its way to Romania and now they're talking there about... El Niño and La Niña?

Which prompted me to go and search. What the f... is El Niño and La Niña? yeah i take it that smoke got to my head, by the way i started writing... But the question is valid.

Ok periodic weather patterns. Inversion of currents in the Pacific Ocean. Is this real? And why the names?

To cast some shadow over the Japanese word ninja and their activities on the west coast in the US?

8:00 Ever since i moved here 10 years ago i had big problems with smokes. Mysterious smokes were coming over our building, keeping me high most of times. As soon as i walked away from this building, the smokes were subsiding.

They were also holes all around, i thought they were moles, but now i think they could have been also rats.

After i tried everything, including gummy bear types of worms, meant to choke the moles, chewing gum, water to flood the gallery, oil from oil changes, hot sauce, dog poop, name it, i finally took some advice i saw on TV and bought a sack of Portland cement, the stuff the concrete is made of and a few sacks of garden soil. Mixing the two, filling the holes slowly rid me of the burrowers and the smoke.

However there were a few places i could not reach well enought and one is the bush at the bedroom window, where i moved the cat's tent that night.

So this morning i got mad enough to pull the sack of cement (the second one, which BTW got all cacked, used a pick to dig into it and turn it back to dust) and got on my four under that bush (left in the picture) (did not feel cold did not feel anything because of the smoke) as far as i could reach and poured some and mixed with the soil.

While i was doing so another stupid modified exhaust car was vibrating everything, filling the enclosed space (yard, garden, whatever with exhaust mixed with fog)  for all the period which could have been more than 15 minutes which accomplished several things. Got me even more annoyed and nervous and not finishing the job right right (i already was under influence). Doubled what i said about fog and smoke. Typical ninja.

8:25 The annoying beep had started on the other side of the alley.

I take it the old woman moved or died. I saw 3 different women in there in the past few days.

8:35 Now i'm confused, started to loose glasses, can't remember what i wanted to write.

2:05 PM For some reason unknown today i was feeling very tired and slept all morning. Around noon i awoke in the smell of poop. Though i could find nothing in the morning when temperature was near freezing and would not have had any effect anyways, at noon when temperature was about 55 (13 C) i found @10 poops for which i needed 4 bags and one bag on the ground unproperly knotted and 2 more in the dumpster.

While i was writing here on the other blog i felt like i was chocking and when i looked there was again a cat sunbathing near the sliding door after it probably ate at the next balcony. I would not ever have known how bad these cats stink until i put one in the leaves bag fashioned like i tent and went near it several hours later. Possibly they use this one too for catching prey.

BTW the cat is really sick, nearly blind, i don't think they could fix it at the pet hospital. Possibly brought here by some for this kind of allegory. Or simply to make us sick.

4:52 It was a quiet afternoon. We ate dinner. Then he started. It takes at least 10 minutes since he starts the black BMW with modified exhaust until he leaves. I always leave within 30 seconds after i start the car.

Yeah of course it agravated me and raised my BP.

8:03 I didn't know why Angela was yelling at me until i got in the parking lot. Chocking smoke was engulfing the building. I went at Walmart, the same in their parking lot. I came back here, the same.

8:00 AM Went with Angela to get the car then went at Walmart and WinCo. Spent 100 bucks, put stuff in the fridge for one week ore more. Everywhere i went people were syncing with me. Very few people. empty stores, rushing to meet with me at the door, at the bays etc.. Same trick with occupying a bay next to where i'm going next. All designed to look on camera like i'm sneaking up on them.

Checked the gasket every time i stopped including when i got home after 3 trips of about 10 miles in total with exposure to oil of about one hour and a half (after you stop the engine oil still trickles inside the cover).  This time was let to cure for 40 hours though most at low temperature.

I had no idea so many kids leave the complex in buses at 7:30. Or at least walk to the entrance. Today is recyclables but i thought i heard the big truck when i left at 6 and yet at 7:30 it was coming out of the complex forcing me to stop to let it pass in a narrow area of the alley next to entrance, in the middle of all those kids.

Synchronization is the word. It looks like you go about your business but can adjust the timing just a bit to interfere with other people going about their business and the results depending on  how skilled you are can be very... intriguing for a casual observer.

11:55 PM I am all in pain because i went outside and a guy with a modified exhaust passed vibrating the whole thing. Earlier when i was trying to eat Jesus (one of the guys at 4) did the same with his black BMW. It is no only that corner of the building. Any vibration like loud cars and planes brings dust out of the walls and they do it every time i go outside.

That was also because they don't have planes at this hour to tell the pilots to increase altitude or do a maneuver with flaps down and revving the engine up to control altitude or speed. I saw earlier a plane passing making absolutely no noise. A rarity which showed it was possible.

2:00 PM Done it again. Me and my luck. One in a million engine type where you have to use both gasket and RTV. The IVth time. Learned from failure analysis.

Last time i put way too much RTV by the two spots where it is asked for by design and waited too long (about 5 minutes) until i put the cover back on so i started to harden in contact warm engine and humidity in the air did not get squished well. I took the whole thing apart, cleaned it, put in a Felpro gasket that some sites say it fits and some don't but it looks identical with the one i had (except for the color, all Felpro gaskets are blue).

I used a box cutter blade to remove the RTV which BTW was very well solidified in there, was really hard to remove, i really don't understand why was still leaking and did some light scratches on the surface, i really don't worry about those since they will be covered by RTV anyways.

The original gasket and all the others i tried this has a series of holes in the joining area which created the bumps in the RTV probably meant to retain an uniform amount of RTV? The problem was the blade itself which i keep in a ceramic pot plant together with other stuff i frequently need.

I know i used the blade the last time but today when i went at the car i noticed they were two of them stuck together by rust. Or maybe i had more than one in there. Whatever. It all took about an hour. There are about 18 bolts, 6 mm thread, 10 mm head, to take out and put back.

5:45 Had few hours of sleep last night. At around 4:45 i quit the computer but was awakened in about half hour loud noises upstairs. Usually i can sleep with earplugs but today the noises were too loud. As usually after i upload on drive a couple of recordings (done by phone) they leave. Like their predecessors.

Earlier, partly due to the same noises, i again had another dysphagia episode and when they awoke me i started to have a headache, which might have been caused by standing in the cold outside for one hour with only a visor hat on my head.

I know you can have a ruptured aneurysm when you induce vomiting and high blood pressure (got 160/90 right now and today i forgot to take the lisinopril in the morning), but you have to have an aneurysm in the first place which mostly are congenital and i had both an MRI and a CT scan of the brain and they did not find any and the headache is quite mild though located somehow in the back of my head (i usually get sinus related headaches mostly in front), but that was the most exposed to cold area today.

And i should have other symptoms too.

6:00 I believe they are documenting (recording) everything i say or even think at least in the last ten years but probably before that. This way they or their AI know exactly what are the expressions i still am not familiar with.

The two last persons i spoke with were mumbling, saying things i did not fully understand. The guy last night in the back when i picked the sack with leaves to take it to the garbage. He said something about the entrance of the complex being closed and i had to ask him again by whom and he said the Police. Then i looked towards the entrance of the complex and did not see any flashing lights.

Then at Walmart. The guy at the check stand was resembling Kiedis, the vocalist from Hot Chilli Peppers. Looking native and stuff, he started saying things, in low voice, like mostly for himself i did not fully understand but was not really interested so i did not ask him to repeat though it really saddened me.

And when he saw that on my face, he kinda changed his attitude.

6:17 The gasket. It's been 6 hours. For the type of sealant i used it takes 2 hours to set and 24 hours to cure. The engine was warm after i went to NAPA but then it probably cooled and the temperature is a key factor in curing. The previous one did not fully cure in 24 hours though that was not the reason it leaked after. And our fridge is almost empty.

6:37 Indian Head Casino is my favorite place to go. Though they don't have many machines, and like all the others are slowly changing the old funny machines with new greedy ones (though i personally do not play more than 40 bucks per night) there is something about that place i enjoy. Feng shui? People smiling?

In the last few years winters have been exceptionally mild and was able to drive over there most times while 20 years ago i had to return most times after Zig-Zag because of snow while trying to just go to Mount Hood (started to go to casinos only about 10 years ago).

Though internet have evolved so lately, with the addition of nascent AI and stuff, there is still no easy way to check for road conditions before a trip.

Yeah headache got better but did not clear completely.

2:22 Lili Erdős

9:26 I know some of what i'm gonna write here today may sound gross to some but i have to write it so people can really understand what i'm going through and the ways of the hidden door school and also to document and for me not to forget.

I have said many times before, shall not bend and disturb the superficial layer of dust covering the bulky poops of some cats after they unlike pets who are given certain amounts, they eat all they want and can in the buffet next balcony.

I would think traditionally cats would burry it in sand (being desert creatures) or soil, dust is not good enough. This way i have been breathing some fine irritating dust and some got into my esophagus. Also the dust that comes from the because of the vibration of that excavator across the alley.

Also was preparing a traditional type of liqueur out of frozen blueberries and grain alcohol by my own adaptation. Traditionally, it needs two months of maceration. I crushed the berries with no sugar added but until the alcohol gets well mixed with the berries, the strength of that liquid is above 40% and i tasted some of that.

It is good for digestive problems like diarrhea. I tasted it and indeed was very strong which also irritated my esophagus.

Angela is sick and very grumpy and constantly criticize everything i do.

30 or 25 years ago i taught her how to drive. Now when i drive with her she is constantly teaching me back with indications at every turn. Yesterday when i drove her to physical therapy (she is tired, did not sleep well in the last days for obvious reasons, including cat smell and bacteria) on rain and darkness at least a couple of times she told me to change lanes when i had a vehicle (waiting) in the blind spot. And i almost did.

She could not do the injection in the spine due to high BP in that day and she is in pain because of that and has to go to work.

She has a weird sounding cough which i attribute it again to the cats passing our balcony or door and dust and oil leak in the car (BTW i got the plastic snakes in the locker, don't know if it's gonna scare the stinky cats).

Yesterday i bought a big bag with frozen chicken breasts at Wellmart and put some in the little oven. Boiled some rice. Put those in a bowl and started to eat, being all aggravated and stuff. Standing in the kitchen in a hurry to finish cause i had stuff to do at the computer.

I started to hear some weird noises upstairs while i was chewing and swallowing. My stomach sphincter (chakra) got stuck (contracted) and i kept swallowing not knowing until my esophagus was full of food.

I know in situation like these food might go down if i take a sip of water but it was too full already and water only made it more painful.

Though a little buzzed with alcohol, i decided the only way to get rid is try to induce vomiting. There is always the risk of getting some stuff in your airways, especially if drunk. I would assume when your BP is high and you try to vomit you may blow some arteries (including inside the brain), i don't know, let me ask google etc.. But above all is very uncomfortable to say the least.

So over the next hour i tried 5 times with small amounts coming every time. Every time after, i tried to swallow a bit of water and from upstairs i was hearing the same frantic, muffled sounds and the sphincter would get closed again and again. Until there was nothing left in my esophagus and did not drink water anymore.

This morning the area was sore from the experience. I was in bed trying to remember things i did yesterday when my mind ran into something and started to think things inappropriate (opening the lover's gate i recon) and they started.

It would not stop until she left and those stomps and creeks blended into the beep across the alley (yest they started again, don't know what they're trying to accomplish with that little excavator, for more than 2 months now).

Should i had been less fit (those long walks, the relatively healthy diet really pay out) or lucky could not be here right now to write all these.

No wonder the Japanese folk attribute supernatural abilities to ninja. I think they are capable of remotely killing or at least heavily influencing someone with just sound and one may not even notice.

9:55 For the last 15 minutes there has been a loud blower blowing though it's not Wednesday.

10:03 Dropping a heavy object right before the second peson exiting the door upstairs. So it was him who left earlier though he usually leaves at 6:30. Like all previous occupants, they adjust their schedule according to needs. To have time for one more try this morning i recon.

But last days were special because they are pissed about what i just posted about whirls and stuff. The blowing sound moved further but i constantly hear it.

Thinking all the time of what i call "democracy paradox". I know they have approval from a large audience for what are doing here. But the large audience doesn't understand what is really happening and the subtle (hidden) ways they manipulate reality.

10:20 Walmart had find its own subtle ways of modifying reality too. They pump fat and broth in meat under pressure. Just tried some (with sips of water or coffee after every swallow).

That meat last night released one pound (16 ounces of it by cooking 2 pounds) of it in the tray below and the cookes lean meat tastes like chicken fat (got some left in the bag, will come with pictures next time). The weirdest tasting chicken i ever had. Gross.

10:27 Yes i know. They were three trays with cat food and now after i commented there's only one and there are peanuts for squirrels as well. There was a cat house and now there are two chairs.

But nobody ever sits on those chairs that replaced the cat house. I have not seen the old woman in at least six months. I saw instead the guy who lives in an apartment further away who acts like another carrying son (besides the one with the red Jeep who now is gone for about the same time the old woman is missing). 

10:45 No i don't live in Metzger which is like 5 miles away? That is the last IP address Ziplie gave to me.

11:00 Besides limiting searches by google mouse wheel scroll doesn't work anymore in blogger (by google) editing panel after i add pictures in html mode which is very annoying and time consuming. After adding at least one picture i have to scroll while editing with the little arrows or slider next to scroll bars.

So it has been 3 hours since i awoke and still dealing with "housekeeping issues". The beep is driving me nuts, i tried to record it, it comes to faint on the recording.

1:45 I recon it was a great opportunity for them to fix me after i bought that stuff from the liquor store.

And yes i once ingested by mistake a small amount of undiluted 190 proof (95%) alcohol and though it burnt my mouth, throat and esophagus (a bit) nothing else happened also because i had water handy and had a drink of water right after.

Grain alcohol (95%) is cheaper than the Paul Mason (40%) next to it and if you dilute it preferably with distilled water you can make 2.5 times the amount of 40% (or 50% if you like) of the purest vodka.  Can add some juniper flavor or wormwood and make gin or absinthe. Have a nice weekend everybody!

Yeah i remember that day years ago when i showed in Vegas with the other Elantra and everybody on the streets were carrying 2 ft long glasses in the shape of fuel bottles for NASCAR (without the bent part), just because i had some cherry or blueberry liqueur in 750 ml bottles with that EVERCLEAR label in the trunk and did some incredible mileage suggesting i was adding alcohol in the tank just to impress or something.

10:43 My microphone is broke and can't make google voice calls from my pc using a google voice number. While waiting for a microphone today i installed google voice app on the phone to make a phone call on wi-fi (and get 10 times less microwave exposure than cellular network).

So i turned on the wi-fi on the router (i normally use ethernet) by typing 192.168.1.1 in browser's address bar (the password for admin is on the bottom of the router) on 2.4 Ghz but after i installed google voice on the phone, something strange (and good) happened.

Google voice could not make a call until i set up wi-fi calling on the phone providing the address for emergency services. And then i tried and saw i can make phone calls with the phone app itself with my phone number while only on wi-fi only (with cellular network off that is) with far less exposure to microwave radiation (also saving battery).

The whole process took about 10 minutes and of course got enough wi-fi exposure to feel it in the sensitive areas (lap of course) exposed in the past to that d...n laptop.

2:39 AM I ran all day yesterday ozone in here, on the lowest setting until my face eyes and feet started to hurt so i stopped it. It was ok for some time and then i saw a shadow passing by the now shut blinds.

Now what could be the reason when the cats pass they come really close to the door?

In about 15 minutes everything in here started to stink really bad, especially the kitchen sink. I would assume they carry some virulent bacteria that gets in here in tiny amounts through small leaks around doors and then multiplies. Thinking about raising a little fence around the balcony using nylon mesh. Until then i layer the mesh on the balcony. I also ordered some toy snakes on Amazon that i intend to put there.

3:02 Yeah black cats are particularly good for this purpose cause their black fur blocks UV from sunlight. And yes they pass the front door when coming at the balcony to move to next balcony to get fed.

3:60 PM Google has started to give me a hard time while doing online face searches. They way i do it is i open one of the docs representing google sheets with the names of actors in order of birth year with link to a google search on images to any of them, using a browser extension that allow me to open @40 of those searches at a time, each in its own tab.

Until now it let me do about 10-20 x 40 face searches before starting to fuss about and ask me if i'm not a robot and stuff. If i answer that like 10 times within a minute or so, then it starts giving me puzzles, but not just one per search but two or three. Then if i wait a few hours it again let me do it. That was until a few days ago.

But starting then it does not want to do not even one batch of 40 searches, and it starts with those questions randomly in those 40 tabs so again if i start checking those boxes it ends with puzzles which takes some time each so i don't know what to do anymore.

8:29 

1:58 AM About a year ago T-mobile dropped both our accounts. They were 5 dollars a month accounts i bolstered a lot about. Unlimited voice and text, 500 megs of data. They were good for us cause we didn't need more. I myself barely use the phone, if ever.

They did not want to accept payments anymore after a problem with the auto pay credit card. Chase. Could not access the online accounts to change payment method either. Could not transfer the numbers of course.

So i went and bought new phones at Walmart. But the problem was we had to get new numbers. Because of that, trouble soon began with changing recovery and confirmation code numbers in all our accounts. Today i lost half day trying to recover my login.gov account and in the end i couldn't because, they said, i haven't used my new number enough to prove it was mine.

9:43 Din care cel dintâi sunt eu... Pisica. Apropo. Unde e darea de seamă a cheltuielilor bugetare pe ministere de anul trecut? (dreapta sus). Ce a făcut SRI cu 4.4 miliarde de lei?

9:50 I put a camera an old phone with an app at the window in balcony (floor to ceiling, 3/4 wall) to catch the cats and what i thought will happen already did. The guy with pony tail at Apt E4 came dressed in shorts, though temperature is 43 (6 Celsius).

However camera was aimed too low and the sensitivity is too low to catch him at that distance. I caught so far 2 cats passing right through the balcony in 10 minutes though. The smell i always thought was from poops is actually from the feral cats passing by (combined with the poops). Make that 3 cats.

They again started with the beep across the alley. I think it's been more than 2 months already. 4 cats.

5, 6 cats. The app quit working.

10:45 Though i saw more than 8 cats so far and heard the shutter sound each time i only found one picture of a cat. I think they move too fast and too close.

12:02 PM The app has several sensitivity levels. When on 1 it detects very little, when above 8 it gets started by opening and closing the main door (vibration). Then it keeps going on startled by the sound of its own alarm. However a cat just passed by and nothing happened. I will try another app.

A few minutes earlier. As that cat passed left to feed, it stopped for a minute next to the door while a diesel engine was shaking the building, letting the cat's kami to enter through tiny spaces by the door opened by vibration.

12:07 Weather radar shows a break in the rain, i think i will go for a long overdue walk, to get rid for an hour and a half of all kami.

11:12 Another cat passed and was not caught by the app. Sensitivity is set at 9, cause at 10 it keeps triggering by itself. The other app i downloaded now asks for money and i am not sure it's better.

Got to buy a physical one on Amazon. Maybe this one, but if i don't make my mind, the price will change.

5:00 PM Got 5 more different pictures of cats.

5:52 I replaced the bulb on the right side, resoldered on the left. Don't like the way i done it but have no alternative. There is this smoke outside that makes me dizzy and careless, combined with dog s...t smell.

In the end i tried to adjust the left headlight, a plane came very low, visible just in front of the buildings in the direction of the lights, as i was moving a black bag over one light or the other.

I took a look at the oil leak at the gasket. I added silicone seal maker and what is seen is what was squished outside. Yes i added a lot the third time but mostly on the outer side of the rubber gasket.

But half of it is now missing, it looks like it's been cut and then the plastic cover scraped with some tool. Now it leaks big time. For the first hundreds of miles from here to 7 feathers, Three Rivers and back, then once to Chinook Winds and back was a tiny leak, it lasted for about 500 miles.

Got to go under that bush and look for soft spots or where the smoke is coming from but it looks like i can't get rid of it. Every time i do something at the car, the familiar smoke comes.

Yes i know i touched a little on that cable on the left, no harm to the cable. Again because of smoke in that day too. I choose orange RTV because it was labeled high temperature, actually temperature there is not so high, however now i'm glad i did it cause is much visible against the black cover and gray aluminum.

6:15 Something is wrong with blogger editor, i can not scroll in the text with the mouse wheel, also got big problems with face searches, google is now limiting severely the amount of searches i can do.

Upstairs there was base for hours now it's stomping and dropping heavy objects.

1:20 Jan 8. Another hypothesis is the RTV is not oil resistant. I noticed there was a red color on the paper towels i used to wipe the oil, especially in the first days. I would think it could have been eaten by oil before it had time to cure.

Went at the car and grabbed the rtv tube from the (cardboard) toolbox in the trunk to see what i put in there. Now i got copper in the oil. Got to change it.

5:20 PM On December 15 i put a picture of a neighboring cat. I noticed many times in the past the cat entering under the balcony of the one level apartment.

A while ago i discovered the neighbor next door is feeding the stray cats. There are a number of trays on her porch always full with cat food. There was also a cat house. A number of cats from the neighborhood started to come and feed there. Then i saw a different cat going under that balcony. I figured it was stronger and bullied the first one out of there.

Then one day it was all stinking and i decided i should pick the leaves left behind by the landscapers for almost a month. For this purpose i bought a bag from Amazon, i already had a rack. After i gathered next to the other apartment i noticed a very bad smell i wrote about. Can't remember now but i believe the cat house was still there.

A few days ago i started to find the cat in the first picture sleeping on a piece of foam on our porch. First i moved the foam under a bush next to building and the cat moved there. Since i had this bag for picking leaves that resembled a tent, i thought maybe i should use it as a house for the poor cat, so i put the foam inside the bag and the bag under the bush. Last night was very cold. Today i didn't see the cat anymore and went and looked in the "tent". There was a very dense smoke outside but when i got inside in noticed the apartment filled with a smell of dirty laundry.

I know from experience that if someone leaves a piece of garbage, like a food wrap anywhere in the enclosed area behind our building, it all starts to smell.

Then i figured. The cat has a matted fur. It gave up licking (cleaning) self long time ago. The tent now stinks like ten homeless people put together. Just by going to look i brought that bacteria inside. Now my face is burning. Angela awoke. Everything stinks though i spent lots of time recently vacuuming, cleaning walls, doing laundry etc.. That cat is one of the big sources of problems around here.

Like in that day when i went to Indian Head casino and there was a homeless man in the bathroom. Though i just took a shower and changed all my clothes just before i drove there, the next day when i went to the ER i was stinking like hell.

I know they have cat shelters where they can at least wash it and give it back to me but i don't know if i'll survive long enough to contact them, make an appointment, borrow a trap, etc.. I think first thin i'm gonna do is move the "tent" under other bushes, but i know it won't stay there long. Tomorrow is landscape day and i know they will be very conscious and the cat will probably come back on my porch, after they remove the tent.

I know they have emergency numbers for people but they don't have for cats. Don't know what i'm gonna do, i'm in a bit of a crisis here.
The cat was living for years under that balcony.

8:55 Temperature outside. 45 degrees, typical for this time of the year. Humidity, 98%. It rains like it's the end of the world. Level of waters have risen by one inch.

After i finished the entry above, i was thinking. The cat did not run away when i last checked on it. I had a chance to either get rid of it or get rid of it simply by closing the lid on that bag. But for that, i needed some cooperation from authorities. Searched on google and found an emergency animal hospital in the area.

But for that i needed to call them. The guy from upstairs came home when i went to the computer to try again to make a google voice phone call. However, the mic quit working. I went to Angela's computer. The mic was working on Windows recorder but not on google voice.

Came back, now the computer would not display things on the monitor. Finally found the HDMI cable (i was on Display port, the cable that came with the computer). However i could not convince the thing to make a call so instead of calling (and expose myself to more microwaves) i just put the phone, wallet in my pocket and drove over there (a couple of miles i think).

Angela told me when she got home she got again a headlight warning on the display. I struggle for some time to make the low beam on left to work and last time it fell out of the headlight while i was driving to 7 feathers, projecting the light on the left concrete barrier after it got dark. Once there, i found beside the lamp was fallen, the connector i just soldered melted. But not in the soldering area. Then the connector became fused but still working with the new bulb.

But the warning this time was for the right low beam and Angela didn't realize that. Got two bulbs in the A locker today and wanted to cut the wires, resolder the left connector (the came in a pack of two), replace them both. However it rains like it's the end of the world.

But while i was driving i realized everything was slo-mo. Trouble keeping myself on the lane in the dark and rain, with little lane marking visibility. Got lost, finally found it.

So i got there and they gave me the number for animal control and after i insisted they gave the number for an emergency hospital that accept strays.

But in my way back here. Kept missing turns, got lost, found, lost again and then i realized. It was all from the smoke that came from outside. I always thought smoke comes from under that bush where the cat was now sleeping. Which could explain why the cat last time did not run away from me.

Got home, called that private clinic "that have a contract" "to accept strays" as the woman at the hospital said. Got into a conversation with an AI robot which however worked much better than customer service from India. She gave me a short assessment and said i should come with the cat (about 20 miles, 32 km) from here. However i was reluctant thinking i don't have two headlights and the one i have left could fail any second.

Went to check on the cat, thinking to move it with the tent under another bush, farther from here. I talked to Angela and asked her if she let me give the cat a bath and she declined. (what if the cat scratches me?)

However, the cat was not there anymore. I think the reason was the water levels raised all the way to the "floor" of the tent (picture above). Problem solved by itself. But how am i gonna know the cat would not come to sleep again in my balcony?

So i removed any piece of foam or plastic bag in a box from the balcony where she could sleep on (i don't think she likes to sleep on the wet, cold concrete). I took the tent and washed it in the tub. Had a couple of drinks, my head started to clear from the influence of that smoke.

Went to take the things i removed from balcony to the SW bin (the one accross is pretty full and like always there was a car with flashing lights in front of it). Passed the balcony of the one level apartment (last picture above) and felt the bad smell now coming from there.

Went to smoke a cigarette. A car stopped at the daycare?. Went in the back. The guys from upstairs left and shed their white LED headlights on me.