8:10 AM According to this article, i have chronic limb ischemia which i understand is treatable. None of the 5 doctors i saw in the last few years told me i have it. It does not appear as being diagnosed in any of the two of "my charts" (both from Providence and Legacy).

I remember at least the first doctor at Bridgeport clinic, Michael Jacko, gave me through feet exams a at least a couple of times. I remember i saw him after he retired at the food court at Spirit Mountain. He passed my table and said something like "are you still surviving?".

I remember Angela kept telling me to tell the doctor when i went to see him at approximately 4 months intervals (mainly to adjust my insulin dose (dr. Bedolla)) to look at my legs however though i told him, i was not really focused on it like i am right now like to ask for tests and he kept telling me i have to lower by BS. My BS really went down after the last round of antibiotics for the wound.

10:20 Ok so far i have refrained myself from posting pictures with my body parts and stuff but today i have to post one with my right foot. Because of the now almost healed X-shape wound on the right ankle that i discovered in about the same time when i did on the left.

It all looks better after i slept 4 hours last night and laid for 3 more this morning. After i stand, it usually turns a shade or two bluer which proves i have poor circulation, mainly due to numerous varicose veins.

The wound on the left foot featuring two black eschars in the middle is also X shaped and looks pretty much like the Orion constellation. Like it was initiated with a laser cut in the shape of a cross or an X in a place where i could not see.

I have pains that are dulled by neuropathy caused numbness in my feet and legs all the time. All it took is walking in casinos at Christmas and then i think on the streets here (the 3 miles loop after) and when i saw it it was too late.

The three Egypt Giza pyramids are said to represent the three stars in the belt of Orion constellation. 

12:40 PM I have reviewed the clinical notes from ER on Oct 2024. The reason i went in there that morning was very high BP (over 200/100, about to pass out several times) at home and visibly pulsating carotid artery which i saw the first time in the mirror.

They did an ultrasound exam of my carotid and they felt i needed one for the leg which had a coincidental infection from a puncture wound (i found a pushpin needle in there in July, most likely coming from my shoe) which was very slow to heal.

There is a picture there showing an almost healthy leg mostly because of the angle. The stains on my legs these days are more prominent because of the infection i developed after i washed that carpet Thursday being under the influence of smoke from outside. Same goes for my blood glucose which went up almost one hundred ever since. But the look and feel (numbness) of my legs did not change much in ten years, though the stains fluctuate.

The ultrasound on the right foot came perfect so they ruled out CLI. One thing i do not understand is how can you measure arterial flow laying when you have poor veinous circulation causing borderline CVI which manifests standing or sitting (my case). I mean, if the blood is not flowing out well through veins how can it flow in. The blue stains on the outer sides of both my feet did not change again in a long time.

6:20 PM It's been more than 5 minutes since he started the black BMW awakening Angela after about half hour (she had 4 hours last night).

3:25 PM Ordered this morning an A1C monitor on Amazon. Got it at my door in a few hours. However it is not easy to use without seeing someone do it. Instructions too fine printed. Even after i saw the video i spent one more set of pouches.

But eventually figured it out and the last reading was 7.8. Yes i filled the collector's capillary all the way. I am far from 10.2 in my chart at Legacy. And  yes, i believe they use the same type of monitor, by the shape and size of blood collector.

The reason i bought this in a hurry was i read online that if you have A1C over 8 you cannot have surgery because your wound won't heal. So if my leg got gangrene, they could not even amputate my leg that is.

Or they could try and i would die in horrible pains or something like that. Could have went to Walmart, they do this test on site for 27 bucks if i'm noy mistaken but for that i would expose myself again to cold which i'm trying to avoid.

I suffered a heavy set back a couple of days ago. I drank one bier but that was only the beginning. Smoke coming from outside made me irresponsible. I wet vacuumed the couch and a carpet in my bare feet, with only some plastic bags over and open window. Within 24 hours both feet started to turn blue, like they do some times were in the past and my wound started to hurt.

However after 24 hours laying in a thermal pouch, i slowly started to get better like right now i am almost where i was before this whole episode.

Same kind of smoke was present here all day.

8:20 There is smoke outside though is somehow different. I looked through my chart. My last A1C result was 10.2 not 11 in October 29. Then i re-started on Metformin (in 2026) and my glucose kept going down with an average of about 150 or less in the last weeks.

12:30 It's been like that for at least one hour. Quiet upstaris but if i want to go to bed it starts.

7:11 AM I currently take prescribed Cephalexin 500 mg 2-3 times a day and a beta lactamase inhibitor. I ate and took my medicine last time at 9, fish and chips (lots of carbs). Also, after i ate (drank whatever) bone broth 2 times in the last days my wound made big progresses.

I had some maceration with areas of skin next to the wound turning white and ready to peel due to use of xeroform (bismuth) petrolatum for 2 days in a row which is for low exudating wounds only. Black areas in the middle also turned brown.

Currently do not feel like i need antibiotics anymore. But i have to keep the area warm, otherwise infection under diabetics damaged skin is going to flare up and area starting hurting again. So i just put a bandage over.

But the most interesting part is since i take antibiotics which is since i discovered my wound (@january 12), my BS keeps getting lower and lower on the same amount of insulin and metformin i took about a year ago with much more modest effects (then i kept increasing by dr. prescription insulin with no metformin until i got beyond the point of insulin resistance which i think increased my BP dramatically 

I noticed this happening on other occasions when i took antibiotics but it is a very long process. Other "side effects". I do not have to go to restroom so often.

So i got 117 this morning on fasting which is very good news for my wound also cause BS under 140 promotes healing of wounds.

Also been nauseated the last days from a cat poop i found yesterday in a location i have not found before and was not searching, 3 ft away from the door. But who knows what is outside this morning. Two charcoal caps this morning helped with that.

7:55 Not very big, some of those could be concealed under clothing.

2:30 PM Long term infections like UTIs or teeth or worsened by environmental issues like the presence of dog poop aerosols in the air causes inflammation. Inflammation increases cortisol levels. Cortisol blocks insulin. Antibiotics reduce inflammation.

10:00 I didn't know! I lowered my BS for almost a month now, which means i have 1/3 of my red blood cells sugar free?

5:25 They are moving from Apt.1. A bunch of Japanese young guys came with a truck and a van and started packing neatly stuff in it and throwing each item (all day long) to make noise and vibration. The truck bed was full of coolers.

However nobody was living there. From time to time some guy with a wheelchair or walker was doing a show. About once a month. First he was a shorter one, and i think i recognized Brian Asawa. But lately he was replaced with another guy, taller, stronger and sometimes simply walking. I think he was symbolizing a guy who had diabetes legs or something, threatening or warning.

The first time when i went i forgot my bags (still had one) and when i came back and passed by close to those vehicles and they had a very aggressive attitude (they stopped and stared at me). Then they left, and i went and picked 20 poops, most large or about 2 kilos in total.

Besides, there was some sort of garbage smoke smell and a bunch of items thrown in the "no dumping area" like usually when it's weekend and it's raining. However somebody yelled when i pressed the button and made me nervous and i shook the phone when i took that picture (soo the poops can't be distinguished).

Cars and people getting in my way while i was walking at the dumpster with those.     

9:15 PM Base so loud in the parking lot i felt the vibration in my body. Just because i was thinking to post this guy's picture and info. Bola Zsoldos.

11:46 Was watching a bit of Star Trek before going to sleep. My mind was also wondering considering the possibility that i might have to live with a chronic wound there (there is very slow progress, mostly consolidating the edges, slowly closing some cracks there).

Those thoughts affected me emotionally while watching the movie in the same time and upstairs as usually he/she started to accompany my emotions with creaking the floor until Angela hit the wall and scared the h... out of me.

They continued however for one more minute and still do. Ok finally flushing the toilet.

12:22 AM Again. Stealing my thunder?

5:30 AM I had 144 last night before insulin (long acting, 24 hours) and 128 after. I ate and went to bed and this morning after 4 hours of sleep i awoke with... 105! Haven't seen this since 2005. Both Angela and i are nauseated and my nose is so clogged it feels like i have something stuck in it.

12:28 PM My wound looks like a third degree burn. Next to impossible to heal by itself in a heathy person, not talking about diabetes. It was going well until yesterday when i went out in the cold and tried to gather a big one spready by a mower. Still did not get my referral to a podiatrist. Or dermatologist.

1:22 What did i say about all critical orders Amazon delays for me? This was supposed to come today.

After Angela just called for me at Legacy Bridgeport (kept getting disconnected) i got an appointment at 3 (hopefully will get a referral) and will get exposed to cold again and checked to see if those "booties" were in and were not. BTW, just re-did my wound dressing, it's getting better again. Base from upstairs keep steering bacteria from the carpets though (stopped just now). 
1:30 This happened many times before. I wrote (now about base) and she left. She just left.

5:43 Went and saw the doctor at 3:00 PM. He prescribed me a couple of medicine, however the assistant made of mess of it. I think she again looked like a princess from Japan's imperial family. Slim body, slanted eyes, with the makeup she looked like a Latina. Her computer was slow and she said a couple of times her computer is at lunch. Doctor once he got there did not have problems with accessing the same computer. Thing is i have to go again at Walmart for Mupirocin. Let me see if it's there already.

7:20 Yes i went. How many a...les trying to trap me in an accident i had to dodge? Trying to remember but my brain wants to forget. Whatever. Enough to say it's getting worse with every trip.

10:55 AM Aleksandr Dugin

1:56 PM Susan from AVX? I was working swing, they wanted to move me day for one month "so i can train her". I remember i was pissed cause she was working day, was paid as me and wasn't doing nothing and by all probability she would have never done nothing.

Then i went to see that lawyer about temperature there (testing area, broken AC, constantly 16 C) and they demoted me as operator in an area with ovens and i quit. August 2000.

11:00 I think i know what's going on. Today i had to go and buy something, i've been outside for hours, though i have warm shoes now, my ankles are still kinda exposed and because my diabetics skin is damaged, it get easily infected, especially near that wound, especially when the are cold, creating a friendly environment from bacteria.

They have been leaving plenty of dog waste around with increased amounts every day loaded with bacteria by the or in the grass, where a big loose one was apparently hit by a mower today, probably trying to punish me because i used the expression a few days ago.

A bunch of die hard Dominicans are trying to give me some infection by means of dogs so i get a fever to fulfill their prophecy about St.Dominic. A dog that would set the world on fire. If not the world, they now in 2026 are willing to get satisfied with only my person.

Don't know if they are rogue elements within the order or have the pope's approval but my guess it is all a simulation of both, done for others to see.

Another South American pope to lead them into cleaning the US from sinners. Apparently nobody is willing or care to stop them, they just wait for them to stop themselves. Not worth the trouble.

No wonder the weak minded believe i am their enemy. Every time i go outside, some "potential victim" is by the door, and others nearby to protect him/her. Today when i came from the dumpster, a woman was kissing her baby big time after she took it from the day care as she was walking away on foot with her baby.

However the foot soldiers here are not South American. Some are Filipinos, most are Japanese disguised in Filipinos or South Americans. Philippines is a country made of over 7000 islands speaking 120 languages being one of the most Catholic countries in the world.

Shall i remind this city is called Tualatin?

11:35 BTW just checked my BS and was again 140 something on 26 units last night so i lowered to 22 cause i was afraid to do 26 because it changes so much depending on other factors like if i use decongestant or eat cucumbers etc... I know it goes down by 50 after insulin if i don't eat and don't fell much like eating now. Shouldn't this promote faster healing of my wound?

1:12 PM Yesterday i made video appointment for today at 12:20 with a nurse practitioner at Legacy Bridgeport because my primary care doctor was not available for video visits until March and for office visits until May.

I was at the computer at 12:20 and my camera was working however i saw the appointment was moved from 12:20 to 12:00 with drBedolla this time because the nurse called in sick. A receptionist i guess showed and she said dr.Bedolla was out for lunch and she said i have been notified at a number that is not in my list of numbers in my account.

2:06 Takehiro Murozono

2:55 Yeah ok i got 4 calls from the office of dr. Bedolla today in a voice mail box i never check cause i never got messages before in it. I jut put that phone number in accounts.

3:55 Did i say i got a wound at my ankle?

4:25 Was nauseated all day. I went outside. There was one not far from our door, regular amount of cat near the garages, but next to the three they were more and bigger.

11:20 Was quietly watching Star Trek Voyager tonight. Got where it became more interesting, when Kes left in a spectacular way and Seven of Mine entered. After i cleaned the yard once, i felt a smell again and went again (the wound in my ankle is not hurting so much anymore and i don't have many chills anymore), found only one though large and loose and very smelly.

This way i made a clean environment so they upstairs could do their workout no-problem. It has been a festival tonight, with hours of floor creaking and stomping, continuing one and a half hour into the quiet hours (after 10 PM). It could also mean they got pissed which could mean what i posted above with Takahiro is true.

11:20 PM Very annoying high rpm big engine. It stopped now when i got to write.

9:07 AM I awoke at 6 after four hours, nauseated. The cat again slept on the balcony and ran away when i went to look outside. At 8:50 the you con SUV started to warm up the engine, thundering for about 10 minutes but left when i looked for the link. Now another one started. Temperature outside is 25 (-3 C) and it would be like this for a whole weak. Making slow progress with my wound.

10:09 When the dust hits the fan. A heavy smell, first i thought it was mold then this morning Angela did some cleaning in the kitchen and i looked behind the fridge. Up until maybe a year ago i was regularly cleaning that area but lately i neglected to do so.

They were up to half inch thick dust buns everywhere, including inside the fan casing and under. In the past i was hosing the whole thing a few seconds and then picking the water from the floor (very efficient and thorough), today i could not do so because of my foot so just kept on dusting and shaking the duster outside the door.

But when i went the fourth time they had the time to improvise something. Playing victim as usually. The guy who is responsible with feeding the cats came with several Tupperware trays with food in his hands (for his old mother, i guess she is still there) though he came by car probably from his nearby apartment and got right into my cloud of dust.

Just remembered. I wanted to clean the evaporation tray where dust turned into a layer of slime but i forgot and pushed the fridge back in place.

10:17 This is very similar to the fridge in this apartment including dust buns and slime pan under the fan. When the fan starts and there is vibration from outside, the fan blows everything inside the room. There are more dust buns on the coil under, you have to tilt the fridge (someone else needs to hold it to the wall) to get those but it's risky, you can drop the whole thing on its back on the floor.

The fan and other guts of the fridge that gather dust are usually behind cardboard panels and cannot be serviced by the casual observer.

I believe the only real solution to this problem is water cooled fridges or radiators outside like in some type of ACs. Yes of course it was convenient for manufacturers and consumers usually don't see it so they don't object but i think it probably a major source of illnesses.

4:15 PM I stuck my nose through the door when Angela left for Walmart and Winco. Terrible. Temperature was close to 55, everything thawed and started to stink. First, i found one on this side of the building, not far from our door.

Then i went for the cat ones aligned to the garages in the south. Then i saw a cart from management stationed near those mats and i passed. Half hours ago i went and picked all the dog ones in that area. Some were hidden behind those mats. I picked a total of 5 bags of dog, 3 of cat and knotted 3 in the dumpster. Thee is a picture showing the distance from the tree with poops to our apartment (the bush at the corner).

8:10 After i posted the names of actresses Evelin Kandech, (to me was also known as Adeline, longtime ago), Hungarian mother and African father and who supposedly died in 2021 and Lili Erdős, the two women started to appear less and less upstairs. Today somebody is vacuuming upstairs intermittently for several hours now. Could it be they are moving.

10:32 Got it. It was retaliation after that guy got into my dust intentionally earlier today.

9:04 Just checked liver enzymes in my chart at Providence, BUN, etc.. They all seem normal. So it is not by means of liver failure that my BS suddenly dropped in the last few days. Did not do any insulin last night at due time and by BS is still 120. Haven't been eating anything yet.

But do i feel weird? Yes i do.

11:50 I ate (hot chocolate with milk and a bit of sugar) and my BS jumped by one hundred to 220. Feeling somehow better. Finally did 22 units (a 12 hours delay). Basal insulin means you keep it constant no matter what the readings. I will skip metformin for now as i am again contaminated with weird microbial flora in my gut.

Did my wound care, is quite complicated and frustrating, made some mistakes. I take it the progress yesterday was canceled by maceration which is now gone, not getting worse either. However, no more pain, no more hot flashes.

12:30 PM My libido.

11:08 PM Did not detect cell phone or other signals from upstairs until a few days ago. Like they don't use phones or have a router. Today i started to feel more heat in the legs than usually and then i started to pay attention to the monitor which is on all the time.

Before this i heard the occasional beeping but today i started to beep fast and the signal measured was significant but stronger than if a cell phone or router was upstairs, centered around where the couch is upstairs. First i felt some heat in the sole of my feet, it always starts there when i am exposed, hands and belly but then the location of the wound started to hurt.

I recon in this way it will probably never heal.

11:15 Now that i wrote they started to agitate.

3:20 AM I think i'm in trouble screwed. Trouble is when you have a chance to recover. Screwed is irreversible. I mean at least semantically.

I spent yesterday about 6 hours in the ER at St.Vincent. Most time, waiting, of course. At first i found a place in a corner with no cell phones in sight. Cause i knew i can't stay next to those when they're "working". Mostly casually scrolling the screens up and down that is. I read yesterday in the Guardian.

To me it was not 4 hours and 20 minutes.

Never used wi-fi until 2015. Out of paranoia over some could figure everything i do online. Not that it was really important at the time. But man did i use the cell phone and wireless inside. But no more than @2 hours a day on average. And yes i would go for walks around the building while talking on a cheap plan, mainly with 2 persons in Romania. Yes, this song was about me.


But before that i've been sitting in front of a computer monitor an average of 10  hours a day, since 1986. There was little warning or none. Ok i have to admit. Some people, very few, tried, in their own way to pull me away from those. The ancient CRT monitors especially the color ones are putting a small amount of X-rays. Not enough to fog a film in the room but i guess the cumulative effect of humans, in time, is not negligible.

Then when i moved to the current address, i was too lazy and worried with other stuff, like my diabetes, diagnosed that year (2015) and the s...t embedded in the water heater's pan to fight to install wires everywhere so i gave up. I put a wi-fi card in my old computer sitting at my legs, under the desk. For Angela, we bought an all in one "Lenovo" which is some sort of laptop in a monitor with PC keyboard and mouse. Deal done.

Staying at the computer all waking hours, except going for a walk or after 2016, going in weekends to casinos.

Can't remember exactly when my PC power supply broke. A few years ago. I already had that Samsung chrome book which i bought for a trip to Reno and started using it. At first put aside, with a regular monitor. I think it was back then when i first realized wi-fi hurts me. But did not give up especially because the smoke engulfing the building was keeping me pain free and happy all the time.

But then i gave up myself totally and started to use the notebook on my lap. 10-12 hours a day. It broke 3 power supplies and then the notebook itself became so brittle the hinges broke and the only reason could only have been microwave radiation, it was only a few years old.

Then one Christmas, the year when i almost ran with 80 mph in a bail of hay at Rice Hill i realized i have some sort of chronic abdominal pains.

About in the same time i finished plugging the mole and/or rat holes around the building and the smoke stopped and then i realized something is wrong with me and wi-fi and installed cables. The chromebook was not broken yet and used an ethernet to usb adapter on it.

But it was too late. As i said, the effect is cumulative and once you reach a certain stage of exposure, when enough capillaries are destroyed you simply cannot take no more.

About a month ago i forgot the router's wi-fi on and though it was not connected to anything after a few days i started to feel pains everywhere. And the router is some 7-8 meters away. I think i already had blisters on my feet.

About a week ago one night i scratched myself at the left ankle, the invisible area, and some blood came on the sheet in the morning. When i looked at, i saw a black hole. Small at first, it expanded in the next few days, engulfing the whole blister. about 2 square inches that is.

After i tried all the tricks i knew, yesterday i went to the ER. Excruciatingly waiting to see if the necrosis is deep enough to warrant admission to the  hospital, surgery maybe.

Some a...hole came and broke the relatively new soda vending machine. It started to make a sound like an ICU respirator. Moving a little door, about the same times a minute. People passed by. I told one of the triage nurses, then a security guard came and tried to use it himself. Then Angela talked to someone and they told her it is an outside vendor and they can't fix it.

We moved into a different area. But there i got caught in the crossfire of many cell phones, all senselessly and unnecessary scrolling on data, which doubles the amount of microwaves (yes, cell phones use the same frequencies an oven uses, to communicate with towers).

No known authority in the US ever warned people about the effects of the microwaves from cell phones or wi-fi on human tissues. The criteria they used back in 90s when they tested those and established the limits was how much they heated the tissues. Enough to say, there are countries like from what i remember, Italy and Russia, have established limits 100 less than in the US.

Finally got in, got x-rayed, doctor told me there is no reason to be admitted, referred me to a podiatrist and taught me the latest trend in wound care. An over the counter antibiotic ointment and then some tissue soaked with petrolatum gel and half roll of bandage over. The trick i think is to keep the skinless healing area moist so it won't crack and bleed over and over again.

After watching Star Trek DS9 for a while i fell asleep and awoke after one hour with pain in my feet. At first i thought it was caused by the wound, pulled the bandage (though i was not supposed to do it in 24 hours) and looked. The ointment disappeared and the the gel soaked tissue started to stick to the wound, but other than that, no perceived changes. But then i fully awoke and realized the pain was coming out of the sole of my right foot.

Kept asking myself, why, why, and then i realized. The cell phones yesterday. I can still feel the burning sensation on the left side of my face.

And then i remembered something i kept thinking over and over again ever since i left the ER. The doctor told me my wound almost looked like a burning wound.

It all makes sense now. Diabetes makes my legs fragile, and wi-fi adds on top of that. When i bought the new shoes a few months ago, they started to "interact with my feet" in a way normally shoes would.

But my skin is not normal anymore. I read online about blisters and diabetes.

My left foot is in a worse shape then my right (always been) and it was there when the blisters first started and created the wound. But yesterday i had some plastic sleepers and socks thick enough to make my right foot sit tight in there (left didn't even go in all the way).

That, combined with the microwaves from those stupid phones created two new blisters and the pain in the sole of my right foot was enough to awake me.

BTW do you remember (missed it) that DS9 episode when Quark got married to a Klingon woman? Could not stop laughing, haven't laughed in months. Or years. I think they had something in common. Their teeth. Ha ha ha ha...

BTW just remembered something. I believe what contributed to me needing to pull all the teeth in my mouth was again the radiation from the phone and laptop. Now if i eat without dentures or leave those too long after i eat or wear them a whole half day i get a big headache.

11:00 AM Ferengi vs Klingon teeth (everything Star Trek on the web is low res, because it was uploaded in the days when first digital cameras appeared). I had this conversation with someone long time ago, @year 2000 and i stated the obvious. The greedy Ferengi in the movie represented the gay Jews and the honorable warrior Klingons (klinging, clean, gone) the Japanese. (Also Federation - federals, the maquis, Mexicans, native Americans). Who are the Vulcans? Probably the Freemasons.

     

I looked at the test results from ER yesterday. The only abnormal results (besides blood sugar) were the monocytes, right outside the upper limit. The doctor told me the one for inflammation is very low.

She gave me cephalexin (an antibiotic for mostly skin problems) after she gave me a choice "though it wasn't necessary".

I took two doses and then i missed one and when i took the next, i started to have hot flashes. After first two my skin suddenly "shrank" on my legs exposing twisted veins and my feet and feet became visible thinner with mostly skin covering weird looking bones because of less inflammation. Got a bone spur under one knee for a long time, but now it became painful.

Could it be because i did not eat before taking it but now pains are localized in areas with microwave exposure in the past. Remember my theory about "diagnosing with antibiotics"? If one takes an antibiotic and gets inflammation in some areas it means there is a hidden, latent, low grade or chronic infection going on.

11:16 I remember Mirela since 1982 or the first IInd year in college. Memorable.

7:34 PM After using neosporin topically and cephalexin systemically and intensive wound care today my wound shows signs of improvement. I mean, it showed. I put an waterproof clear self adhesive cover over neosporin and then took a shower. Used deodorant. Somebody from upstairs went down and back up the stairs at least a couple of times.

The smell here became unbearable and i went twice cause first time i ran out of bags. One guy with a huge truck was blocking the dumpster when i took the last ones. No trucks or other vehicles vibrating the building. However, my wound started to hurt again. Could it be because of the exposure to cold, but also... something crossed my mind.

Burn wound? Could this have been done with an IR laser or UV or anything that could hurt my skin? Today i had thick "diabetes" black socks but they are not very compact. Will change bandage and will see if the healing continues or not.

10:35 My blood glucose is now 129, close to normal, on 22 units (lowest i ever done) of insulin and 2 metformin today. I don't know what's going on, did not decide yet if to do more or just leave it one day to see what happens. Yes, i took another shower with rose soap, used deodorant. The amount of antibiotics?

After the shower i replaced the water proof bandage with neosporin, petrolatum and sterile gauze and i think i put too much neosporin. Just checked (i am supposed to leave it untouched 24 hours) and yes, the skin started to macerate a little so i just put some sterile gauze to pick the extra petrolatum from neosporin.

10:30 AM Amazon always does this. Lets me down in critical moments. Angela ordered last night some wound wash and paid 3 bucks to have it overnight. It has been delayed. I ordered a pair of boots, one size up, wide. There was no choice but normal and wide. However they came medium.

10:32 Most people of my age in the US or their spouses had have some kind of surgery in their lives. They know how it is to care for a wound.

No i did not have surgery. I had blisters on my legs probably due to an endless prank. People spraying something on my shoes when i was letting them outside. One of the blisters was behind in the ankle area, above the heel. Did not see it. It broke and i scratched at night and created a hole with missing derma of about 2 square inches.

They sew your skin after surgery. However here i got missing skin. It has to grow from whatever is under. Fascia. Connective tissues. It is a very slow process and you have to clean it and change bandages several times a day.

April 1st 2023. I think i handled some leaves that came out of the roof of one of the garages. Got a terrible itch on my right hand. I scratched like crazy until it became like this. Went to the ER, went to a dermatologist. It lasted more than one month. I got healed after i sprinkled some amoxicilin dust from a capsule in a couple of days. It would have never healed otherwise.

But now it's much worse. The area is 3-4 times bigger. Thee are black areas in the middle, i assume it is a blood "skin" but could be necrosis from an earlier wound i completely ignored. I do not want to put the picture here so scare someone.

This morning i was feeling much better, i thought i went "over the hill" or the critical point with it and delayed with dressing the wound and did lots of stuff in the kitchen, stepping on the cold floor. Now i got again chills after one hour of doing so.

Yesterday again i thought i was doing better and went outside, with new socks over the bandages and some rubber sandals. It was under 50 degrees and spent like half hour sorting the poops. All hell broke loose after.

Last night i saw in the bathroom again the box with unused Dove rose soap the dermatologist gave me back then to wash the wound. Had two bars. I used one for about a month, it always got better after, but the itch continued until i sprinkled that amoxicillin.

I washed my heel with it and then sprinkled sterile saline i made myself. I started to feel the smell of poop and an idea came to me. What if i actually the smell it's coming from me? My underarms.

My diabetes started around the same time i quit using deodorant. After i saw polyps under my arms and plucked them.

But my underarms don't smell like they usually did when i was young. These days they literally smell like cat and dog s...t. I figure the smell outside is not strong enough to make me sick directly the way i am every day. However the aerosolized bacteria that flies in the air coming from those may seed my underarms.

Yes i am among those who showers about twice a week. Not using deodorant, nobody is supposed so smell me cause i stay  here day and night. At casinos if i go once in the smoking area and smoke a cigarette, there is nothing to smell anymore. In the car i got oil and coolant leaks that act like "deodorants".

So i went in the bathroom, used a kitchen sponge with the tuff part removed and washed under arms with rose soap. Really well. Then i got my wound taken care of (by Angela).

And then guess what. I did not have the urge to go outside to pick the poops anymore. I slept a full 5 hours which to me is quite rare. Was not nauseated in the morning. But when i checked my BS, it was 140. I did not have a reading like this since i discovered i have diabetes and i already had it @300. Lowest was 160 i guess.

Thing is i also reduced insulin to @25 (Lantus units) which is close to lowest (20) due to high BP and take 2 metformin a day. When i was doing 44 units with no metformin it was running close to 300.

I take my diabetes it is all because of the smell from the bacteria that comes from outside, multiplies under my arm and then ends in my gut and it started when i stopped using deodorant under arms.

8:40 PM Though i took a bath (and used the rose soap) earlier, for the last hour i was nauseated. I knew it could be something too close to ignore. So i put a plastic shoes cover on my left foot and went outside, two steps of the stairs.

One guy came out running towards me and yelling of apt D6. Second on the right, ground level, closest entrance. There seem to be an unlimited number of teens (boys) in there. Every time i try to look at their faces i can't recognize them. They go in group, i saw 5 of them passing my balcony a few days ago.

I cannot recognize any of them, they keep changing. I don't believe there is any adult in there, as there is a group of girls at D9 (last apartment, same entrance).

So i closed the door and waited a few seconds. I opened the door, another one. They both left towards the mailboxes, and one of them yelled to the other a word in Spanish. Playfully but Barley convincing.

Then i stepped down the 7 rungs and made 5 more steps and looked.

There is a small area of redwood dust near the wall of the stairwell that never gets wet. It is there when the cats come to poop. I grabbed a tree branch and dug a little. Last time i checked i tried to spread the dust around and there was about one inch left and the ground was dry and firm under. Tonight i saw the dust was much deeper and then i finally find one, buried several inches down.

That does not mean it does not stink. That dust is to fluffy to seal it. The reason of my nausea. About 10 ft away from our entrance. But then i saw there was some sort of hole under where the poop was, leading... i don't know. That hole was not there last time i checked.

Every time i dig into that dust i get irritated by it. It is possible it was the cause for the blisters, not capsaicin from the air or from a spray can. But then, i was outside many times, for a long time before the blisters started. Redwood dust is very irritating, almost as much as chili peppers. A combination?

Tonight i had my left foot covered by a plastic shoe cover i bought on Amazon. Not much progress with my wound but it did not get worse either. Keep changing bandages.

This picture was taken from our door. The darker area in the middle of the dry area (right of the pillar) is were i found the poop.

1:43 I was nauseated and it was not my underarm. Took two charcoal caps, nothing. Went out the door and saw from the same standing position the above picture was taken a small dug out hole and a small "cake" next to it.

Put my plastic covers over my socks, got my feet on the "stepped" shoes (with no heel touch) and went to check. One boy was across the alley in front if the entrance i mentioned earlier, checking his phone. Picked the little cake, put it into a bag, came inside, another one came and then both left.

I did not pick one from this area in days, now there have been 2 in less than 24 hours. I take it they adapt to my adaptation (washing underarm). Got to wet that area using a watering can and then maybe mix it with some cement to make it harder to dig. Cats don't poop if they can't dig or on wet areas.

1:53 Opened the door. One guy with backpack was standing with his back at me, bent head, ft away from the stairs.

2:45 There is a newer, modified exhaust big black truck maneuvering, revving beyond the SW dumpster (next to new park wall) for about 10 minutes now.

8:15 AM A normal temperature i was used to for 30 years in Portland area at this time of the year is @40-45 (4 - 6 C) during day time and @freezing during night. Here come days in the middle of January with maximums up to 55 (11 C) after a few days of real winter weather.

I prefer lower temperatures because the poops don't smell that much. I am awake for 2 and a half hours, nauseated but can't go outside because of wounds of my legs caused by blisters from shoes exposed to probably capsaicin.

5:20 PM For two or three days in a row Angela wanted guacamole. For different reasons (mainly we had other foods to eat) we postponed that and today i went to check for poops Angela made a big one out of two avocados.

First. Every time i was going in one corner of the yard, someone would pop in my direction. When i picked a poop, a woman came eating. Then i went for the cat ones, next to me a guy was yelling something in Spanish etc. Then when i turned around to the battle zone to pick the ones i mapped earlier i saw a guy with two dogs kinda rushing between two buildings north of the alley, towards the new partly build path.

Then i saw another poop with diarrhea, spread on about half square foot which i could not possibly pick.

While i was finally sitting here and eating guacamole i remembered.

Got big problems with blisters at my feet caused by capsaicin? in shoes which turned into large, infected, bleeding wounds. Today i got to use for the first time that Amazon feature that allows delivery in the same day if you order merchandise over 25 dollars. Ordered some water proof patches, diabetics socks, etc..

It's past 5, they are not out for delivery yet. And i have chills my wounds got re-infected after going outside with bandages only (and socks on top) and have to take a shower. When i got back, before i found the poop next to hydrant, i got sprinkled with something coming with the wind, could had been rain drops. Upstairs, incessant.

6:15 A while ago i was hearing an unusually high RPM loud idling, for about 10 minutes, now another one (or the same) re-started. It almost sounds like a carpet cleaner. And i wanted to go outside to smoke a cigarette.

12:45 AM During my last raid i found pieces of a dog poop not far from our door and it was a small poop, not from the large black cat whit white paws. Don't know if those were the reason i was so sick in the morning. They were well camouflaged. I take it is some sort of revenge of the cats for that blind cat. I did not put the barbed wire before this morning. That cat had that scar on the eye for weeks.

But at this point i start to believe the cats are being manipulated somehow. Maybe they got chips in their little brains. Maybe those cat islands in Japan are for experimenting.

12:48 How would you feel if you started to write something and someone would climb upstairs (at any  hour of day and night) in that very moment. And then they are playing on the radio "we don't need your education", the nr.1 on my hated song list. Thinking of all the characters that got in my way from around every corner when i got outside, every time. Silence for hours and then they start vibrating the walls with engines and planes.

12:52 Earlier i saw a face in the news and started thinking. Maybe Tom Allen, the guy who hired me at Quadramed as software engineer in 1998 was actually Leonard Nimoy know for portraying the alien Spoke from Star Trek the original series which i didn't even seen at that time (for me it started with TNG).

It is true. We had 3 managers, 4 secretaries and we were 5 programmers of which only 3 were actually doing something. The firm was called Softlink and was acquired by Quadramed just before i got hired in there. But it's easy to find out. The big manager was Andy Carson from Portland channel 12 and customer service guy was Jeff Gianolla.

The guy who was typing code with 70 wpm (Brannon) was an actor from Hungary i identified recently.

Mike, the most proficient, also identified (a writer, maybe he was coordinating everything). But of course, they all were. One of the secretaries (actually the receptionist) was Macy Gray and her one hit wonder Try was inspired by my first program ever using object oriented Pascal called Delphi was called just like that.

Because i had no idea i could finish it but i did. Yes i was choking all the time because of dust falling from the fake ceiling and who knows what else and that and the stomach pain made me quit after 8 months, right after starting the next project though Tom tried to talk me into not doing it. Of course i was not in my right mind. Never totally been after being gassed in 1996 at Electronic Specialty in Vancouver.

Yeah piano players make good typists. I once went next to him and tried to see if he is really typing code but he was simply too fast too follow his fingers. At times he was coming at work saying he is too tired (he was also a student) and was sleeping under the desk and that was probably the reason i found a big mistake into the common (objects) library he was maintaining we were all  using. Or maybe it was all scripted for them to pretend i blackmailed him.

Decades prior? We were smoking together at the back entrance of that office building near Safeway at Raleigh Hills in 1998. 17 years, i think you could say that. 

There is also a physical resemblance between the other manger (Shannon, an Irish girl's name) and lawyer Ronald J. Rychlak, it would only make sense if it was him. I mean all that was missing in that office.

1:33 It again smells like fresh poop. Would be the third time i go out tonight. And they are already singing on the radio "oh oh here she comes".

2:00 And William Shatner. Shatner was my physics teacher in HS etc.. He also tried to run me over with a tow trek in 2017 i guess.

6:40 AM I awoke at 4 AM with my nose totally congested and nauseated. I waited till Angela's alarm went off at 5 and at 5:30 i went outside to see and found nothing (too cold for dog walks?). But when i got back, through the yard, i saw the cat running and i think it ran from our balcony.

I got inside and i noticed a smell like from homeless people but also i cooked some cabbage last night with smoked ham. I aired for at least 15 minutes and the smell is still here. It totally detoured my day. Like i'm in some sort of shock.

About a week ago i ordered some barbed wire to put in the balcony but then i ordered some plastic snake toys and put those first. I think the cat slept next to one of those. So today i changed my mind and laid the barbed wire on the concrete floor of the balcony.

But i don't like the idea, some cat might get entangled in it and today i ordered some mesh (i already had some but this morning i accidentally entangled it with the barbed wire and had to cut it to pieces) to close about 2/3 of the balcony with it.

12:23 Finally went back to sleep and slept 4 more hours until noon. However i awoke with a bitter taste in my mouth, something Angela complains about for a while. Could it be due to the smoke present here during all evenings.

3:15 They started at 8 today they are still beeping and vibrating buildings accross the alley, something they did for almost 3 months now.

4:33 The black BMW started again right after i finished eating. Will it idle for 5-10 minutes? No, it's just leaving.

4:37 No i was mistaken. That was another car. It revved and left now.

10:35

7:00 AM I was in the kitchen doing dishes, minding my own thoughts, mostly about some stupid article i read in Romanian news, something i cannot touch without getting dirty myself, listening to sporadic floor creeks upstairs, after the main guy left at 6:30 when suddenly i felt the smell of a very annoying smoke which came from outside. I opened the door and there was fog, with a bit of smoke which smoke was much stronger inside and was getting me a bit dizzy too.

Yeah every stupid theme started by the news corporation in the US had made its way to Romania and now they're talking there about... El Niño and La Niña?

Which prompted me to go and search. What the f... is El Niño and La Niña? yeah i take it that smoke got to my head, by the way i started writing... But the question is valid.

Ok periodic weather patterns. Inversion of currents in the Pacific Ocean. Is this real? And why the names?

To cast some shadow over the Japanese word ninja and their activities on the west coast in the US?

8:00 Ever since i moved here 10 years ago i had big problems with smokes. Mysterious smokes were coming over our building, keeping me high most of times. As soon as i walked away from this building, the smokes were subsiding.

They were also holes all around, i thought they were moles, but now i think they could have been also rats.

After i tried everything, including gummy bear types of worms, meant to choke the moles, chewing gum, water to flood the gallery, oil from oil changes, hot sauce, dog poop, name it, i finally took some advice i saw on TV and bought a sack of Portland cement, the stuff the concrete is made of and a few sacks of garden soil. Mixing the two, filling the holes slowly rid me of the burrowers and the smoke.

However there were a few places i could not reach well enought and one is the bush at the bedroom window, where i moved the cat's tent that night.

So this morning i got mad enough to pull the sack of cement (the second one, which BTW got all cacked, used a pick to dig into it and turn it back to dust) and got on my four under that bush (left in the picture) (did not feel cold did not feel anything because of the smoke) as far as i could reach and poured some and mixed with the soil.

While i was doing so another stupid modified exhaust car was vibrating everything, filling the enclosed space (yard, garden, whatever with exhaust mixed with fog)  for all the period which could have been more than 15 minutes which accomplished several things. Got me even more annoyed and nervous and not finishing the job right right (i already was under influence). Doubled what i said about fog and smoke. Typical ninja.

8:25 The annoying beep had started on the other side of the alley.

I take it the old woman moved or died. I saw 3 different women in there in the past few days.

8:35 Now i'm confused, started to loose glasses, can't remember what i wanted to write.

2:05 PM For some reason unknown today i was feeling very tired and slept all morning. Around noon i awoke in the smell of poop. Though i could find nothing in the morning when temperature was near freezing and would not have had any effect anyways, at noon when temperature was about 55 (13 C) i found @10 poops for which i needed 4 bags and one bag on the ground unproperly knotted and 2 more in the dumpster.

While i was writing here on the other blog i felt like i was chocking and when i looked there was again a cat sunbathing near the sliding door after it probably ate at the next balcony. I would not ever have known how bad these cats stink until i put one in the leaves bag fashioned like i tent and went near it several hours later. Possibly they use this one too for catching prey.

BTW the cat is really sick, nearly blind, i don't think they could fix it at the pet hospital. Possibly brought here by some for this kind of allegory. Or simply to make us sick.

4:52 It was a quiet afternoon. We ate dinner. Then he started. It takes at least 10 minutes since he starts the black BMW with modified exhaust until he leaves. I always leave within 30 seconds after i start the car.

Yeah of course it agravated me and raised my BP.

8:03 I didn't know why Angela was yelling at me until i got in the parking lot. Chocking smoke was engulfing the building. I went at Walmart, the same in their parking lot. I came back here, the same.

8:00 AM Went with Angela to get the car then went at Walmart and WinCo. Spent 100 bucks, put stuff in the fridge for one week ore more. Everywhere i went people were syncing with me. Very few people. empty stores, rushing to meet with me at the door, at the bays etc.. Same trick with occupying a bay next to where i'm going next. All designed to look on camera like i'm sneaking up on them.

Checked the gasket every time i stopped including when i got home after 3 trips of about 10 miles in total with exposure to oil of about one hour and a half (after you stop the engine oil still trickles inside the cover).  This time was let to cure for 40 hours though most at low temperature.

I had no idea so many kids leave the complex in buses at 7:30. Or at least walk to the entrance. Today is recyclables but i thought i heard the big truck when i left at 6 and yet at 7:30 it was coming out of the complex forcing me to stop to let it pass in a narrow area of the alley next to entrance, in the middle of all those kids.

Synchronization is the word. It looks like you go about your business but can adjust the timing just a bit to interfere with other people going about their business and the results depending on  how skilled you are can be very... intriguing for a casual observer.

11:55 PM I am all in pain because i went outside and a guy with a modified exhaust passed vibrating the whole thing. Earlier when i was trying to eat Jesus (one of the guys at 4) did the same with his black BMW. It is no only that corner of the building. Any vibration like loud cars and planes brings dust out of the walls and they do it every time i go outside.

That was also because they don't have planes at this hour to tell the pilots to increase altitude or do a maneuver with flaps down and revving the engine up to control altitude or speed. I saw earlier a plane passing making absolutely no noise. A rarity which showed it was possible.

2:00 PM Done it again. Me and my luck. One in a million engine type where you have to use both gasket and RTV. The IVth time. Learned from failure analysis.

Last time i put way too much RTV by the two spots where it is asked for by design and waited too long (about 5 minutes) until i put the cover back on so i started to harden in contact warm engine and humidity in the air did not get squished well. I took the whole thing apart, cleaned it, put in a Felpro gasket that some sites say it fits and some don't but it looks identical with the one i had (except for the color, all Felpro gaskets are blue).

I used a box cutter blade to remove the RTV which BTW was very well solidified in there, was really hard to remove, i really don't understand why was still leaking and did some light scratches on the surface, i really don't worry about those since they will be covered by RTV anyways.

The original gasket and all the others i tried this has a series of holes in the joining area which created the bumps in the RTV probably meant to retain an uniform amount of RTV? The problem was the blade itself which i keep in a ceramic pot plant together with other stuff i frequently need.

I know i used the blade the last time but today when i went at the car i noticed they were two of them stuck together by rust. Or maybe i had more than one in there. Whatever. It all took about an hour. There are about 18 bolts, 6 mm thread, 10 mm head, to take out and put back.

5:45 Had few hours of sleep last night. At around 4:45 i quit the computer but was awakened in about half hour loud noises upstairs. Usually i can sleep with earplugs but today the noises were too loud. As usually after i upload on drive a couple of recordings (done by phone) they leave. Like their predecessors.

Earlier, partly due to the same noises, i again had another dysphagia episode and when they awoke me i started to have a headache, which might have been caused by standing in the cold outside for one hour with only a visor hat on my head.

I know you can have a ruptured aneurysm when you induce vomiting and high blood pressure (got 160/90 right now and today i forgot to take the lisinopril in the morning), but you have to have an aneurysm in the first place which mostly are congenital and i had both an MRI and a CT scan of the brain and they did not find any and the headache is quite mild though located somehow in the back of my head (i usually get sinus related headaches mostly in front), but that was the most exposed to cold area today.

And i should have other symptoms too.

6:00 I believe they are documenting (recording) everything i say or even think at least in the last ten years but probably before that. This way they or their AI know exactly what are the expressions i still am not familiar with.

The two last persons i spoke with were mumbling, saying things i did not fully understand. The guy last night in the back when i picked the sack with leaves to take it to the garbage. He said something about the entrance of the complex being closed and i had to ask him again by whom and he said the Police. Then i looked towards the entrance of the complex and did not see any flashing lights.

Then at Walmart. The guy at the check stand was resembling Kiedis, the vocalist from Hot Chilli Peppers. Looking native and stuff, he started saying things, in low voice, like mostly for himself i did not fully understand but was not really interested so i did not ask him to repeat though it really saddened me.

And when he saw that on my face, he kinda changed his attitude.

6:17 The gasket. It's been 6 hours. For the type of sealant i used it takes 2 hours to set and 24 hours to cure. The engine was warm after i went to NAPA but then it probably cooled and the temperature is a key factor in curing. The previous one did not fully cure in 24 hours though that was not the reason it leaked after. And our fridge is almost empty.

6:37 Indian Head Casino is my favorite place to go. Though they don't have many machines, and like all the others are slowly changing the old funny machines with new greedy ones (though i personally do not play more than 40 bucks per night) there is something about that place i enjoy. Feng shui? People smiling?

In the last few years winters have been exceptionally mild and was able to drive over there most times while 20 years ago i had to return most times after Zig-Zag because of snow while trying to just go to Mount Hood (started to go to casinos only about 10 years ago).

Though internet have evolved so lately, with the addition of nascent AI and stuff, there is still no easy way to check for road conditions before a trip.

Yeah headache got better but did not clear completely.

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