12:44 AM Should not write about music so early Monday morning but to me is just past midnight Sunday. Should not write about music at all cause it may bring me bad luck when i'm so sick. No i'm not drunk, i'm only high on clostridium toxins. And what i'm about to say has little to do with music anyways. And it's hard to call the linked songs music.

Every time i was hearing that song in the long driving hours at night kept asking myself what the h... that Ouch Oh Titi Oh Gee Oh thing means. Cause is the only thing i could understand from the song. Never caught the name or title of the song from DJ's or whatever they call them now at the radio. Show ghosts. Cause they're not even there. It's all AI now.

Ok so i took all songs from Billboard Hot 100 and listened to those i could not recognize it by name and found one at number 16. Hot To Go.

Ok, i could eat that girl for lunch i said to myself after i watched the very low budget video. BTW the only outfit that really fits her in the video is the yellow one in front of that biker.

However, i would first like to cook and eat Phil Collin's heart (before i die) (yes that is the face of a Jew, suffering, in the applause of the audience, just before we hear the sound of Phil's heart hissing gas), in one of the most horror songs ever made and played endlessly (for decades) on the radio. In the Air Tonight which is about gas chambers and stuff. Just watch his hateful face and listen carefully to the rest of the words.

So i was in Lincoln City at Road's End tiny park (i was so many times there, the road actually never ends) it's just another built in symbolism and told Angela just that and switched the radio to classic music (there are only one or two non-country stations there) just to escape (oh i'm so predictable) and the DJ soon presented and switched to the Slovak Phil Harmonica (yes it pronounces that way). Yes it was a... Walz (by Straus).

Was it because i said i wanted to harm that talentless skinhead Phill Collins? Phil Harm onica?

Ok but eating Phil Collins's heart or that girl for lunch would not help anything. There are two many of them. Anywhere. And snakes could be poisonous to eat. BTW what are those? (Is everybody's budget shrinking?)

1:40 Wait a minute, another coincidence or she is teasing (me only)?

2:03 Another one i keep hearing any of my trips when i switch to 92.3 cause i'm so sick of that commercial with top dog dot com. Diabetic's song. "Tease a little"?

8:54 Got a visibly pulsating artery on my lower neck. Trying to go to the hospital.

4:35 Angela came and took me to St.Vincent. They did an EKG on me right away. Then i waited for about one hour to get into a room. In my imagination all i was seeing was the ceiling of the corridors going towards the OR.

They hooked me to a monitor and my blood pressure at first was reading 215/129. Then they did an ultrasound. Tech told me not to worry about. Doctor told me i have an anatomic variation that brings the right carotid close to skin and with that blood pressure...

It is somewhat true cause right now when my BP came back closer to normal, after taking Lisinopril and given one liter of IV fluid, the pulsation is not that visible. The way it is right now could have been there, unseen, for a longtime. I turns i was really dehydrated, i think i drank wine and coffee yesterday and didn't drink much waver or something. Also was perspiring a lot.

But can't drink water with this smell, i get nauseated right away.

Other than that, blood sugar was 380. The blood sugar was around 300 during the times i was drinking sugar free soda. One i stopped that, it went up. Because that soda was hydrating me and diluting by blood sugar a bit.

I told the nurse about the problem with dog waste and she said i should take it with the management which i did.

So when i got  here i started to walk towards the office building when a guy whom i saw before, in late 50s or early 60s, gray hair, not very tall came with his dog and had the probably trained dog defecate in front of me, then picked in a green bag and threw it unknotted in the bin and then he went in building 3 i guess (had to look one more time).

So he kinda tried to take it all on him, hoping i would complain about that one first which i didn't. I am not a kid anymore. For a longtime now.

At the office they told me this is a common area and anybody can come when they want. They said they will try and send an email to everybody however they cannot teach people to knot bags and also knotting is more a matter of style then a rule which "they can't enforce anyway".

Then i asked them to install a camera and they said this is common area and they cannot and told me i am allowed to install one at the door instead.

At the door it won't do nothing cause no bin is on direct line of view and in the back where i can see a bin and all the lawn there are too many kids. But i'm thinking about.

BTW after i looked the last time in a bin i got a cold sore that numbed the area around it. What is doing that?