5:40 AM It's been what, a year since i'm smoke free. Talking about the smoke coming from mole holes and rat holes around the building.

That is after i plugged them with cement.

I find every day mistakes i found in the past in the blog with similarities and they are all due to both my lack of experience in the beginning but especially to that smoke.

I believe it created some inconvenience on the part of those people. On the other hand, i know, at least now, after all the fixes, are right. So when you balance the consequences of that with the mistakes i made, i mean, its negligible. Knowing the whole world is held by a group and pointing exactly what that is.

I don't feel like i need to apologize. What about my wasted life or Angela's or the millions who died in wars and in recent pandemics.

1:30 PM Thump thump thump. Pumping the floor. She got out of bed and went to the restroom (and flushed) exactly when i wanted to get in bed to heat myself a little after eating.

Last night i went outside to smoke a cigarette. In about an hour i started to have pains everywhere i was exposed to cold. Today those area are numb. Don't know what to say. My mandibula is healing, there is very little pain and numbness in the area.

I took some flaxseed oil that does wonders for stomach and esophagus. But thinking at the seeds shells fallen on the patio. I thought i recognized sunflower seeds shells. Could it be flaxseeds as well?

The birds eating those.

How do cats get toxoplasmosis, other disease? By eating wild birds. Wild birds like any wild animals they have all kinda pathogens.

So whatever they have it must be sticking on the shells that fall upon our patio. Birds for the cats to watch? Or contaminated seeds shell for me to be constantly sick?

I've seen it before. The two Ladies of December. And those were not coming from mistakes i made on the similarities blog. They were two writers from Hungary, at least one with a passion for hiking, hence the strong legs to stump with. They had a cat and a bird feeder too. But i once saw one of them and she  had her face all irritated from litter dust. Most likely, blackmailed or forced to do so.

Got one of them or both on my similarities blog but i forgot her name.

Back then it was localized to belly area only. Now it's generalized.

2:35 I had very few chances to see them. And even then i was incapacitated by smoke. It's been almost 4 years. Mostly based on the fact she left after i mentioned her name, one of them could have been... Also.