5:25 AM I go outside, with my mind fixed on something i have to do at the car. Usually awkward cause according too Moore's law only items that are awkward to fix do break.

I get hit by a smoke which is not even chocking or that unacceptable for the short time i am supposed to fix that which becomes longer. But soon, without realizing my perception of things get blurred and i can only see what i am doing and people start passing doing their things. I make too many mistakes, it all takes too much time for small jobs. Like more than one hour for a bulb yesterday (with stuck dust cap).

Usually one or two comming out of the day care at D6 cause lately i don't see them getting in but only out. Three teenagers yelling probably high, right at my back. A woman peeing her dog right behind me etc.. The Asian woman in the yellow car. The white SUV with a gorilla head with mouth wide open with scarry teeth on a side.

Then i think, all these things statistically are not supposed to happen in such a short period of time. Ambulances and helicopters and planes and one car every 30 seconds. Sometimes i shot the hood and go back inside and everything pauses and when i get back later when everything restarts.

These days the new windows the installed about 3 years ago are not that leaky and don't allow that much smoke inside and the HEPA filter does the rest and i don't allow mole holes next to basement (under siding). So i am not crazy high as i used to be for years.

The years in which i didn't know all these and i was going dizzy all the time and was not feeling that bad except all things were blurred to me.

One of those days (cannot find where and when i wrote about but was years ago) i went for a long walk (hour and a half) which was still not enough to clear my mind. Many times i got refreshed with the same kind of smoke on my walk, especially near the bank of the river.

At the so called community center in the middle of the park stretched along the river there was a guy with a white SUV who slammed the door, probably trying to get my attention, awake me to reality about something that was going to happen i needed to pay attention to (that was how i fell in that moment) cause he probably knew i was not paying attention to anything around me.

So here she came across the little bridge, this girl in yoga pants with glasses, always staring at her phone like awaiting for instructions on what o do next (eye contact, no eye contact, smile, etc.) with an attempted smile on her insecure face then going on a branch of the alley hidden among bushes and stopped, always staring at the phone. I stopped and turned around on the main alley, staring at the bushes. Didn't know what to do.

I had a vague idea i knew her from somewhere and wanted to talk to her, but in the middle of the bushes? Mainly i was afraid for her safety after i left, especially if we didn't get along well. I knew that guy knew about her. Maybe other people. It all looked like a setup to me. So after staring at her standing in the middle of the bushes, i left.

Next day she shows online with a dinosaur mask or something covering her entire head mainly confirming it was her. "You turned around for me!".

Do you think this was the most important thing, how your insecure face looked in that moment?

Last night i crashed probably from being exposed to something and forgot the main door open. Am i right now under the influence of some ninja smoke? Just had a palpitation which reminded me to open my mouth cause my nose in congested cause i cannot use that much decongestant. Or can i? Will i ever be myself again?

Was the same girl at the entrance of the hotel/casino again walking and staring at that phone, passing, pretending not seeing me, walking towards the hotel? After i put my cigarette out and got inside because of a Russian or Ukrainian man yelling on the phone outside?

Right after i walked out (was leaving) i saw behind me in the same hallway a maid pushing a long cart figuring a stretcher, loaded with something, going in the same direction, For two days i kept searching until i finally found a recent post on only fans and then she finally posts on tiktok so i knew she is ok.

Are you trying to imagine this happening on daily basis which to me it does anyways? Who was that older guy in the park in that white SUV? Are you reading all these or is someone telling you what and when to post?

Hemp ash because it does not stink but is way more concentrated? Camphor and pine resin to cover the smell of sulfur? which burns with the salpeter?

7:25 BTW. Altgirl. Altman.

8:20 Do all girls look the same when they smile? 

5:33 PM Ash Wednesday. They came to blow the leaves. After they were done blowing and mowing dust in the back they piled the leaves in the alley and i hosed the building.

Then i went and hosed everything. When the dust seemed to have calmed down, they came with a truck to vacuum the leaves in the alley. The truck had a cover acting as a filter and was hallowed by dust passing right through it. The grass was still wet but i think i have to go and hose the front of the building, again.

5:55 What do you mean there is no other way. They were years in which they did not peak the leaves at all. I picked them all in the spring, where it got warmer and could not stand the smell anymore. They were places with leaves blanket thick up to one ft and more.

Usually in a couple of days, a few hours a day. No big deal, with a rack and trash bags. Problem was they were wet. The leaves can be compacted in up to 10 times their "resting" size. In fact, i enjoyed some physical activity with those. Especially doing the job in the provided smoke.

But i did not document during those days. More recently i did it before they reached peak. Interestingly enough they picked the new fallen ones next Wednesday.

And the one month long smell of gasoline from a black Chrysler parked where the black BMW is right now.

10:20 Here comes the juicy one. After Angela told me several times i finally went outside to check what i've done Monday. From above, and the thing is like half meter inside in a very narrow and hard do see spot, i did not see any leak but cap of the plug was kinda too far from the transmission body, with some space in between.

So i just grabbed the phone, two pieces of foam and laid in front of the car (not enough space to get under myself or even my head). So i just put the phone again on the ground and took several pictures until i centered on that part.

In the mean time the guy with the gorilla head on his SUV that was parked again next to me came and started the thing. One minute later a woman (Asian or Mexican) came and climbed onto the passenger side, stepping real close to my legs. So i got up and went inside.

But went back and kept thinking and i had this idea and again extended two fingers through the hole in the panel and guess what... The plug turned 45 degrees right, like it was not since yesterday. But do you think that after spending hours trying to fit it in there i would not have done it?

The plug has a guiding cylinder at the center with two small guides things coming out of it and it only goes at an angle on some channels inside and when it reaches far enough it allows you to turn it so it locks. But it wasn't and if i left like that for the 150 miles drive would have leaked and would have lost the transmission fluid, possibly traction on the freeway at high speed, possibly getting hit from behind. 

A neverending story.

Here are pictures before and after i tightened it.

There are no signs of major leaks on the panel under or in the parking spot. Could have been just undone. Tonight.