2:38 PM I think i heard earlier some noise, but right now there is no sign of construction work and the toilet is still here. Next to the poop tree (where most poops show, among roots, on the left). Now everything doesn't smell anymore like poop but like portable toilet deodorant and a bit like ammonia which altogether give me a headache and a slight shortness of breath (and much cough, like before).

I have done crazy things this weekend. After several hours at the doctor Thursday, Friday i changed the oil (or was it Saturday?) and Saturday i went to Indian Head, 4 hours driving, with a box under my left feet which also blocked the brakes once.

So i had a big flare up yesterday, due to much sitting and standing with poor blood circulation in legs and probably mutant bacteria from the antibacterial stuff in the toilet which scared me really bad. Doing better now.

Lately Amazon came up with something new. Many next day items are available only to pick at their location at Whole Foods, a couple of miles detour for Angela in her way from work. I am waiting for a critical item (it looks like i did not hit the last button in the purchase screen and had to order it again yesterday) and though it is "out for delivery" sine 11 AM, it is still no there. She is now comming home without so one of us would have to drive there later.

3:47 When it rains, it pours. Haven't heard a carpet cleaner van in a longtime. With noise level >70 ad the source, next to the dumpster. Angela bought two cucumbers for 3 dollars at Fred Meyer (owned by Kroger) for my diabetes but they are both bad.

9:00 Went to pick the item from Whole Foods. First i tried to play smart and turned and went by the potty to see if there's any construction within the line of sight. Could not see anything. I remember earlier, i told Angela i thought about, like if we go to Romania in her village, there is no sewer connected toilet. Was thinking if is doable to get one of those. Probably not on long term. Was only thinking though. Hypothetically.

Got on the 65th street. Everything in slow motion - no, i am in slow motion, everything is moving too fast, night, rain, everywhere i go these days lane margins are not visible at night and rain. A times was driving between lanes because i was afraid of other cars.

Driving like in a dream, taking seconds to process a light to realize if it's red or green. Keeping longer distance, others pushing close from behind like always lately. Missed 2 turns, turned around, found Bridgeport Rd but could not find Whole Foods which was visible on the left or right. Made some turns, got in front of it, i don't know how.

Forgot to pick the code when i left, panicked, they let me go by email address and gave me a device. Could not find the @ sign on the keyboard.

Back in the lot. Almost hit a tree. Almost hit the car on the other row when backing. Back on Boones Ferry. A deer, barely visible, crossing but i was very slow, right before Upper. or Lower. Again time needed to process traffic lights. Afraid of every car, at times i did not know on what lane i was.

Back at the door i felt the heavy smoke that surrounds the building and it is not a cable burning. I don't know what the hell it is. I feel like floating.

Should not have gone, obviously. But how to know?

Yeah it happened before. Many times.  But this time was worst. If that was possible.