10:30 AM Amazon always does this. Lets me down in critical moments. Angela ordered last night some wound wash and paid 3 bucks to have it overnight. It has been delayed. I ordered a pair of boots, one size up, wide. There was no choice but normal and wide. However they came medium.

10:32 Most people of my age in the US or their spouses had have some kind of surgery in their lives. They know how it is to care for a wound.

No i did not have surgery. I had blisters on my legs probably due to an endless prank. People spraying something on my shoes when i was letting them outside. One of the blisters was behind in the ankle area, above the heel. Did not see it. It broke and i scratched at night and created a hole with missing derma of about 2 square inches.

They sew your skin after surgery. However here i got missing skin. It has to grow from whatever is under. Fascia. Connective tissues. It is a very slow process and you have to clean it and change bandages several times a day.

April 1st 2023. I think i handled some leaves that came out of the roof of one of the garages. Got a terrible itch on my right hand. I scratched like crazy until it became like this. Went to the ER, went to a dermatologist. It lasted more than one month. I got healed after i sprinkled some amoxicilin dust from a capsule in a couple of days. It would have never healed otherwise.

But now it's much worse. The area is 3-4 times bigger. Thee are black areas in the middle, i assume it is a blood "skin" but could be necrosis from an earlier wound i completely ignored. I do not want to put the picture here so scare someone.

This morning i was feeling much better, i thought i went "over the hill" or the critical point with it and delayed with dressing the wound and did lots of stuff in the kitchen, stepping on the cold floor. Now i got again chills after one hour of doing so.

Yesterday again i thought i was doing better and went outside, with new socks over the bandages and some rubber sandals. It was under 50 degrees and spent like half hour sorting the poops. All hell broke loose after.

Last night i saw in the bathroom again the box with unused Dove rose soap the dermatologist gave me back then to wash the wound. Had two bars. I used one for about a month, it always got better after, but the itch continued until i sprinkled that amoxicillin.

I washed my heel with it and then sprinkled sterile saline i made myself. I started to feel the smell of poop and an idea came to me. What if i actually the smell it's coming from me? My underarms.

My diabetes started around the same time i quit using deodorant. After i saw polyps under my arms and plucked them.

But my underarms don't smell like they usually did when i was young. These days they literally smell like cat and dog s...t. I figure the smell outside is not strong enough to make me sick directly the way i am every day. However the aerosolized bacteria that flies in the air coming from those may seed my underarms.

Yes i am among those who showers about twice a week. Not using deodorant, nobody is supposed so smell me cause i stay  here day and night. At casinos if i go once in the smoking area and smoke a cigarette, there is nothing to smell anymore. In the car i got oil and coolant leaks that act like "deodorants".

So i went in the bathroom, used a kitchen sponge with the tuff part removed and washed under arms with rose soap. Really well. Then i got my wound taken care of (by Angela).

And then guess what. I did not have the urge to go outside to pick the poops anymore. I slept a full 5 hours which to me is quite rare. Was not nauseated in the morning. But when i checked my BS, it was 140. I did not have a reading like this since i discovered i have diabetes and i already had it @300. Lowest was 160 i guess.

Thing is i also reduced insulin to @25 (Lantus units) which is close to lowest (20) due to high BP and take 2 metformin a day. When i was doing 44 units with no metformin it was running close to 300.

I take my diabetes it is all because of the smell from the bacteria that comes from outside, multiplies under my arm and then ends in my gut and it started when i stopped using deodorant under arms.

8:40 PM Though i took a bath (and used the rose soap) earlier, for the last hour i was nauseated. I knew it could be something too close to ignore. So i put a plastic shoes cover on my left foot and went outside, two steps of the stairs.

One guy came out running towards me and yelling of apt D6. Second on the right, ground level, closest entrance. There seem to be an unlimited number of teens (boys) in there. Every time i try to look at their faces i can't recognize them. They go in group, i saw 5 of them passing my balcony a few days ago.

I cannot recognize any of them, they keep changing. I don't believe there is any adult in there, as there is a group of girls at D9 (last apartment, same entrance).

So i closed the door and waited a few seconds. I opened the door, another one. They both left towards the mailboxes, and one of them yelled to the other a word in Spanish. Playfully but Barley convincing.

Then i stepped down the 7 rungs and made 5 more steps and looked.

There is a small area of redwood dust near the wall of the stairwell that never gets wet. It is there when the cats come to poop. I grabbed a tree branch and dug a little. Last time i checked i tried to spread the dust around and there was about one inch left and the ground was dry and firm under. Tonight i saw the dust was much deeper and then i finally find one, buried several inches down.

That does not mean it does not stink. That dust is to fluffy to seal it. The reason of my nausea. About 10 ft away from our entrance. But then i saw there was some sort of hole under where the poop was, leading... i don't know. That hole was not there last time i checked.

Every time i dig into that dust i get irritated by it. It is possible it was the cause for the blisters, not capsaicin from the air or from a spray can. But then, i was outside many times, for a long time before the blisters started. Redwood dust is very irritating, almost as much as chili peppers. A combination?

Tonight i had my left foot covered by a plastic shoe cover i bought on Amazon. Not much progress with my wound but it did not get worse either. Keep changing bandages.

This picture was taken from our door. The darker area in the middle of the dry area (right of the pillar) is were i found the poop.

1:43 I was nauseated and it was not my underarm. Took two charcoal caps, nothing. Went out the door and saw from the same standing position the above picture was taken a small dug out hole and a small "cake" next to it.

Put my plastic covers over my socks, got my feet on the "stepped" shoes (with no heel touch) and went to check. One boy was across the alley in front if the entrance i mentioned earlier, checking his phone. Picked the little cake, put it into a bag, came inside, another one came and then both left.

I did not pick one from this area in days, now there have been 2 in less than 24 hours. I take it they adapt to my adaptation (washing underarm). Got to wet that area using a watering can and then maybe mix it with some cement to make it harder to dig. Cats don't poop if they can't dig or on wet areas.

1:53 Opened the door. One guy with backpack was standing with his back at me, bent head, ft away from the stairs.

2:45 There is a newer, modified exhaust big black truck maneuvering, revving beyond the SW dumpster (next to new park wall) for about 10 minutes now.