12:10 AM I wrote something about the klan, about 10 minute ago and wanted to move it on a new day (did not realize i was past midnight) but before that i had to go in the kitchen area, to put the meatloaf in the fridge, when she started the washer. I did laundry earlier but stopped at 10. I think she is trying to self victimize. Like with the whooping cough. (it's her not him).
12:50 Yeah, the drier which symbolizes a rotating circle just stopped but now i feel the smell of fresh poops, after i neutralized quite a few tonight, last being about 2 hours ago.
9:30 And she pulled the post. Smoke is coming from outside, i slept 3 hours, there is an on and off 50-60 dB hum and i have a 4 PM at the doctor (establishing care for continuation of prescriptions for insulin).
11:15 For some reason i though my dr.'s appointment made 3 months ago was in the afternoon. I got this email saying i should e-check in for not havint to waste time at the appointment. Funny is they started to do this after i said it was good if they did it. So i opened the email and it was then when i saw my appointment was at 9:40. I looked at the big clock on the wall and i saw 9:40.
Jumped in my shoes (no socks), took my jacket, combed my hair and went in the parking lot. Did not realize i had my shirt upside down (after the shower). Good thing i took a shower earlier. But my truck was blocked by a construction vehicle. I had to wait a couple of minutes more until he took that from behind my truck. Then i almost hit a car while maneuvering (slept 3 hours).
I got at the clinic at 9:10 (one exit on I5 from here). Both receptionists were talking on the phone so i waited and waited. Then one of them asked for my insurance card, made a call and they took me in at 9:55 and yes i did not finish those forms i could have filled online if i opened that email yesterday.
All this emotional cycling that came from first contemplating another few months of waiting for another appointment and then making it today and on top being so tired i could barely stand or walk broke my promise not to talk to much at the doctor which i did, though i refrained from repeating things cause i was really scared they were going to write again my my chart that i am fixating on things.
So yes i complained about not being able to sleep last night mostly because she did laundry though i really wanted to finish something and he wrote on the chart, with red. Sleep disturbances. Figures. Most of the days of this week i slept more than 10 hours. But yes, it is never negotiable, what the doctor is going to write in the chart and then go online. Then i told them i did not want those notes on line and here they are.
When i got back here i found the possible reason nobody was sleeping last night. There was a big one next to hydrant.
2:55 Yet another team came to work on the sewers today. I see one Japanese guy badly posing as a Mexican with a hose in the sewer making a big noise with a pump.
3:30 Went to take the garbage. The sewer team were next to the closest dumpster kinda blocking the access to it, getting ready to leave with short nervous gestures. So i went to the other dumpster. In there i saw next to it what reminded me of an old tire tube but flatter and firm. I thought it might be an RV toilet reservoir so i just grabbed it and threw it in the dumpster so it won't stink around. I was not expecting to be that heavy though, like more than 40 pounds. Then i regretted it.
4:20 I started to believe that people who lack the necessary concepts (acquired through early education) necessary to communicate with others also can't communicate with themselves which is needed to positively satisfy the numerous motivational cycles that open constantly due to complexity of modern life.
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4:40 I miss 3:00 PM when i was supposed to do the next 34 units. I tried to talk to the doctor today and ask him but he ran out of time. I know what happens when you are one hour later. You get a BG like 370 and stuff like it just happened to me. But what if you are one hour later?
Let's look at the diagram. According to manufacturers, at 24 hours you should still have the same concentration like at 1. But the diagram cannot be right. First, when you first inject it you would ideally create a bubble of insulin in the fat which creates a bit of pressure which means max realease which you don't see in the diagram. Then the preasure in the bubble normalizes and you get a constant amount of insulin. However, when the bubble decreases, like more than a half in diameter, the surface of osmosis or where the insulin molecules start swimming among fat cells the bubble decreases and getting close to nothing in the last hour. Ok let's say there's enough concentration left in the fat to ensure that concentration in your blood till the end.
My question is. What happens if you do it one hour early, can you overlap and get a double concentration of insulin? I read some horror stories on forums. But i believe it cannot happen with Lantus, for the reasons stated above. The bubble is next to nothing by the end of the cycle.
Ok my compuer does yet another new trick on me, and that is not uploading an image the first time when is supposed to. However i am not willing to reset it now and loose hours in the midst of the biggest political crisis i have seen in Romania, that it's getting worse every day. Let's hope it will go away with a reobot.
