12:00 AM Youtube keeps pushing me videos... I don't believe this. Not for a minute. In all the successful songs i heard the melodic line always follow the lyrics which almost contain the melody. "Take my breath... Away" "aw/ way\". You don't build the song first, it is almost impossible to find meaningful verses to fit after, especially when you have a theme (requirement). This way it is understood, composer's intervention is minimal. Great composers know. You win with almost zero footprint or originality. It's all in the lyrics, all you have to do is put them on notes, make them sing.

But in this case is much more than that. The name of the band, Berlin (which in its turn i believe is subliminal for Perl - white), who had only one very successful song because it was designed that way, without hearing it before the premiere of the movie, combined with the verses gives the subliminal message of gas chamber. Like Phil Colling's In the Air Tonight and Sting's Every Breath You Take.

Upstairs, they won't let be me.  They did stop after Angela went to bed but restarted after i posted that song at midnight on the other blog. I believe they believe that if they torment me after i post something important (on the other blog) somehow they erase the impact of what i just posted (stealing my thunder, on a quantum level though).

In their world they believe so much in a rigid hierarchy which derives of course from the fact their Emperor is God, they can't accept each person has its own identity and his/her thoughts and will because they can't believe the world can function that way and freedom and justice is what Hollywood and politicians always let us believe. But of course they won't accept if a person starts to behave that way IRL.

Ok Angela just hit the wall twice. It's past midnight, she has to go to work tomorrow.

I also think they are trying to create a story that if told it somehow diminishes the impact of what i just said and that is also true. Whatever they gain is minimal though not negligible. What they don't understand is i don't care about the impact. All i care about is to deliver a message, in time. Pretty much like the ninja did before the battle of Sekigahara. Better said before the battle of...

(BTW i believe most ninja escaped through a tunnel and it was convened that way with Nobunaga who might have been one of their own and then they spread in Japan to organize the battle of Sekigahara).

It stopped for now but in a weird way. The steps froze in one spot, didn't hear someone going to bed or sitting or anything which indicates robots.

12:50 Nu vă mai luați după ce spune Trump. El azi spune într-un fel, mâine în altul după cum îi tună. Se pare că toată tărășenia a fost designed așa de la început, ca să aibă un impact cu o zi două înainte de alegeri. Ne-a exclus din Visa Waiver în luna alegerilor ca să poată influența alegerile pentru că a spus motivul doar înainte de alegeri, implicând că dacă iese cutare sau cutărescu ne vor da Visa Waiver înapoi.

Acest mod de abordare discriminatoriu și imixtiune în alegeri este fără precedent din partea primei democrații din lume (mă rog, din ce știu eu) iar vina este a lui Trump care se pare că a devenit singura voce în SUA iar el vorbește numai pentru o parte (ipotetică) din americani.

Cineva ar trebui să-i amintească lui Trump că România e totuși în Uniunea Europeană și Schengen iar americanii pot călători fără viză în spațiul Schengen iar asta nu se poate fără un acord bilateral.

Cred că asta e o mare discriminare și un eșec al diplomației UE. Cum poate UE să accepte ca americanii să vină fără viză în spațiul Schengen și nu toți cetățenii Schengen să poată călători în SUA fără viză? La fel cum au acceptat 17 ani după intrarea României în Schengen (călătoria cu buletinul) ca românii să stea la coadă la granița din Ungaria. E un fel de continuare a saga Schengen, care de asemenea a fost folosită în scopuri politice.

Sunt sigur că nu ar fi făcut asta dacă România avea un președinte care să poată răspunde la fel, punând o interdicție pentru americani de a călători fără viză în România.

Pe de altă parte, din ce știu eu, persoane care vor să vină să muncească în SUA nu au nici o problemă cu viza. În schimb eu am fost angajat numai la job-uri cu actori. Ultima mai importantă fiind la AVX unde l-am avut supervizor pe Axl Rose. Dacă sun la consulat, îmi răspunde Antonia. Dacă sun la serviciul clientului, îmi răspund tot felul de celebrități.

Dacă merg la Walmart, care e la un pas de centrul de recrutare al Army, Navy, etc. (sunt vreo 4 birouri) în Walmart apar numai celebrități pe post de cumpărători sau asistenți și mulți figuranți japonezi.

Când aveam un job bun și lucra și Angela și am vrut să-mi iau casă, în 1998, am vorbit cu un tip care lucra pentru o agenție imobiliară, Re/Max, Derald Dieterich, pe care-l cunoșteam de la biserică (BNC), care era de fapt un actor ungur (care se pare că a trăit toată viața aici ca și agent imobiliar, este de necrezut, omul are review-uri) și mi-a pus o condiție, să vorbesc cu Angela singur, deși ea nu știa engleză.

Ca să stau veșnic la apartament unde se perindă sute și mii de oameni, pentru show-uri. Cu roboți la etaj și pisici pe scară.

2:15 Am revăzut postarea de mai sus cu BNC (Beaverton Nazarene Church), da știu sună ciudat, Beaver în engleză poate însemna și... unde pastor era Dennis Swift care credea că dinozaurii au trăit pe pământ în același timp cu oamenii și care semăna cu cântărețul Mealoaf (da, era foarte teatral când predica).

Acolo l-am cunoscut pe David Diggins (alt DD), care semăna perfect cu Tom Cruise, doar că era puțin mai grăsuț. Când l-am văzut prima dată, respira cu zgomot, avea ceva la plămâni, dar i-a dispărut după (povestea cu Zenu). Am avut o poză în postare cu Tom Cruise care se îngrășase într-o perioadă, era în jur de anul 2000, unde semăna perfect cu David, dar o aveam doar ca link și a dispărut sau n-o găsesc eu acum.

Țin minte că am fost la el ca mecanic în 1998 cu S10, de mai multe ori cu Sentra și ultima dată în 2002 parcă.

Am fost la el de multe ori, mai ales când mă simțeam rău și totdeauna îmi citea ceva din Biblie și-mi dădea sfaturi. La un moment dat mi-a spus că pleacă în Texas și chiar a plecat. De vreo 2 ori cred m-a scos din psihoză și nu am mai mers la spital, dar am mers imediat după ce "a plecat în Texas". Da acum îmi amintesc, nu am mai fost pe la el când am lucrat la AVX, deci un an întreg.

Odată m-a învățat să iau Benadryl pentru somn. Aș vrea să plâng când mă gândesc la Angela, care dormea câteva ore pe noapte și lucra 10 sau 12 dar sunt împietrit.

Ca aici dar fără zâmbet.

Întrebare. A stat Tom Cruise aici imobilizat 4 ani sau ăștia puteau prezice când merg eu la el. Sau a filmat în ceva studiouri pe aici. Sau el de fapt era tipul ăsta din Ungaria, un neica nimeni. Mă rog, cântăreț de operă. Strada se numea Sorento, ceva ce sugerează soarele și împăratul Japoniei. Se știe că în perioada aceea a jucat într-un film The Last Samurai.

A și el mai semăna cu un fost coleg de-al meu de an și de cameră din anul III din facultate. Mișu Găină, LOL ce nume.

Ba nu, l-am găsit! Era în altă postare. Nu e poza lui, e un what if, adică o proiecție cum ar arăta cu 10 kg mai mult, transpirat, etc., dar a rezultat o asemănare perfectă (din memoria mea bineînțeles). Da normal, nu aveam cum să-i fac poză, era o perioadă când lumea nu era așa de confortabilă când vedea o cameră, iar despre celulare, a mai trecut mult timp până au avut camere cât de cât.

Aveam o factură de la el și am pus semnătura lână autograf. Are ceva din semnătura lui, cele două "paranteze". Oare ar valora ceva acum? Poate dacă ar fi certificată de un specialist.

3:13 Was Tesla Cybertruck "brutalist" design inspired by the 1980 Citroën Karin? There is a name clue as well.

11:40 I am shocked by the lack of existence of music on pre-recorded on USB sticks. Something to listen in the car during the long hours of driving like from Portland to Reno, or even here, locally, where most of the time you can only catch weird local stations with sometimes DJs arranging songs just for you (me). I mean, not expensive albums of unknown bands like on Thump or mixes like on Etsy.

Amazon?

Something with thousands of songs, hits, per years, genres, etc.. Would that be too much to ask?

What would be the impact on local radio stations? Minimal if none. Very few people will buy them. Or who knows, maybe people other than me want to escape the tyranny of those also. There's got to be some way of buying bulk music for your own use only. I saw a movie about Spotify.

3:22 PM Two days after that email exchange on this subject with the office a bunch of kids came in the back. One of them was holding a phone, directed at our apartment while pretending filming the others (they were gone, out of the frame). Don't think they can see me inside though today is kinda dark outside and had the lights on while munching on tortilla chips. Had to put the blinds on.

3:45 Angela opened a bit the kitchen area window cause it's too hot here because of drying and she was eating they came on this side of the building, climbed the stairs "to look at the cat", having a direct view inside of our apartment as i came from the shower in my underwear. They move around like they know what are we doing or are they remote controlled, through speakers in their ears.

4:00 Now they brought the soccer ball and started in full swing, in the back.

I went to the sliding door to look and see how many they are and they just hit the glass door with the ball (on purpose of course, they are provoking me by and means). And then "they all froze, being afraid to come after the ball".

4:20 I decided to go to WinCo just not to hear them anymore. When i opened the door, one of them hit my car with the ball and then shoot the ball behind my car sending a small kid to bring it.

6:40 So i left. In the store. Of course people gathering everywhere i wanted to go so i  had to pass a few times and come back later. At the beer. I noticed all beer visible behind the glass wall was Mexican. Went inside, grabbed a box of 30 of Miller light, when i got out a woman was pushing her car touching mine and she had a baby in it as i was putting the box in mine.

At the tomatoes. Could not open the store bag. Distracted by the road, forgot and licked my fingers. Then it was too late. I was on cameras. I tried to pick everyone without touching others. At the chili cans. Every time i grabbed one, another would fall from the shelf, bending. At the fish. A tall woman came behind me and when i turned my head she was one ft away from me.

At the check stand there was this old Japanese guy i know for a longtime who had i don't know, a small amount of Filipino in him. On his black shirt, on a sleeve it was written "We own this place" referring of course to WinCo, the best grocery chain store on the West Coast (not refined, but as price and solid quality) which is said be owned by employees.

For the first time i go to WinCo he asked me for ID for beer but i had to guess what he was saying. I got my ID in a transparent compartment of my wallet and he grabbed it and looked at it for one whole minute and then he released it. Then he asked for it one more time and i had to give it to him again etc..

In the parking lot, i was intrigued as why he was looking at my ID so much so i pulled it out of the wallet and started to look at it, checking for holograms and stuff. Next to where i parked two fat Japanese guys with a black SUV with California LPN posing in Latinos started to curse, in English, i don't know why.

Several tricks on the road, today mostly braking unexpectedly in front of me.

Back at the complex. The kids never left. They are still hitting that damn ball. When i parked, i looked in disbelief as all of them started to walk towards my car (like they did so many times in the past when i came with groceries). On top o i had a bag of tortilla chips of course. But they all passed my car and went in the back to another car which came in the same time with me.

Outside i heard a girl (some of  them are women acting like girls and while i was thinking at that they produced again a midget climbing at the other entrance)

Another one of them was just saying yelling to another a few ft away "Got to talk to you! Got to talk to you!".

It looks like it's gonna be a long rest of the day, and it's only 6 PM (and there is at least one bag of poop at the mailboxes dumpster i haven't dealt with it yet).

While i was handling the clothes to put them on the hangers, a girl kept yelling in the distance while i was grabbing each piece of clothing, like i was grabbing her. I noticed this many times when i was working at the car and grabbing tools or pushing or tightening something etc. How should i call it, telepathically triggered, sound based remote transference?

6:25 Finally. Knotted the bag. When i left, outside the door they were 8 of them. One climbed on the roof of the garages all yelling 80 dB plus. When i got back from the dumpster, they started to run away from me, now they are still yelling like crazy. But now i think i should have checked the grass too. But as i said, those in open space do not smell by far as bad as those in open bags, after a few hours.

Earlier i took a shower, used a fresh towel, dressed with freshly washed clothes and when i was driving back from WinCo and right now when i write i smell like dirty laundry. I believe it's because of the poop of which smell subtly propagates inside.

It's the last (here, local) assault before we leave tomorrow and before the elections. Like it was last night from above.

6:40 Yeah but it's too late for now. Wondering what music they have on it.

7:25 There are only a few surrounding apartments in the complex exposed to something like this.

7:25 With all the commotion and stuff forgot to do my insulin at 6. Now tomorrow i got to do it at 7:30.

7:32 I was about to say. They got tired. When somebody came upstairs. As i said before, they never interfere with each other (in tormenting me).

7:50 I know what stinks. As i used the water heater/washer/drier closet doing laundry for almost 24 hours now, it startet to stink again. Cheched my BG. 240. The difference is the walk, got only readings above 300 in the last few days due to stress.

10:40 Yes i did smoke one cigarette a day within last few days. I went outside to smoke a cigarette, it is quiet now, i saw an electric box fallen out of its place at the next building, with yellow fiber optics cables hanging. It was not far from where i saw that kid climbing on the roof of those garages next to that building. Could that be the reason they went quiet after? (Picture tomorrow).

I don't know who is living there, i know the upstairs apartment is empty, with lights on and windows open day and night. Downstairs, i don't know, last time i saw a kid playing in the living with his parents nearby. Have no idea who is living in the other two apartments next to those or if someone is there at all or if internet is cut out.

By the way they move i know these kids are not unsupervised, they probably have headphones to guide them at every move.

11:13 Just before i went to smoke i made some sardines with mayonnaise. I ate part of it then i went outside through the back door to smoke not knowing Angela is here. But she is here on and off, she has been sleeping most of the afternoon and in that moment. The back door was open. Some neighbors made annoying sounds and i went in front forgetting about the back door.

Then i got hungry again, i grated a pickled cucumber, stuck a spoon in the mixture and ate some of it, without bread. Then i felt something from the mix inside my mouth. When i looked, it was a diabetics needle.

It is impossible to have put it myself in there. Yes, i do my shots next to the fridge and put the pen and the needle on the counter on a new paper towel, but first thing i do after is i throw the needle in the garbage bin. Then i throw the piece of toilet paper wet with alcohol i use to disinfect the area in the toilet and flush.

This situation is very similar to that when i was last time at 7 feathers when i fell asleep at the computer with the door unsecured and then a piece of (self made) denture broke and could have swallowed it and all these are consistent with ninja assassination style.

In fact i am terrified it could had been one more needle and one that i actually swallowed. But i will see, if there are signs, i will not leave tomorrow. I am wondering how could they detect one of that in my stomach or bowels since is made of plastic and the actual metal needle is .4 mm thick and the plastic part if about 10 mm diameter (left) so all together is pretty compact and easy to swallow and most likely invisible to X-ray or CT scan. (yeah, google became my best friend).

I opened two cans of sardines, yes, drank the oil and them poured the content in a clean porcelain bowl and added some mayonnaise from a squeeze type of bottle which i just broke the seal ad opened, and mixed it with a clean spoon. How could i have put that one in the bowl, even if it was on the counter?

But i always throw the needle in the bin right away cause i am engrossed by it after the shot, with a tiny drop of insulin on the tip of the needle.

BTW i think i got pricked in my mouth with the needle and started to have some chills caused by bacteria entering bloodstream.