7:30 I haven't seen (or heard) the black BMW in a week or so. However the tan You_con SUV across with twice the engine size is now roughly doing the same job.

7:55 Orban (al nostru) văzut prin gura cațavencilor. Mi-ar place opoziția Olguței.

12:57 PM Really loud base upstairs, like never before. The kind of music i usually like. Just to set thing straight. I don't have that kind of speakers. Mine are tiny.

9:30 Tonight i went about one hour ago. A guy/gal with a white SUV with big speakers in the back was circling the buildings. As i made it near the battle zone, he/she backed up with the speakers closest possible, playing at an inhuman volume. Finally i realized what he/she was doing but was too late. My nose was itching due to dust raised from the walls.

Found more than 5 maybe up to 10 poops. Some in bags on the ground, with loose knot, some unknotted. The focus tonight was the big tree, There was a thick smoke coming from the new "park". When i got back inside smoke turned to rubber smoke and saw a plume of smoke rising above the park but not sure from where. Grabbed the phone and headed that direction, but it stopped.

One hour later i got nose congestion followed by chest discomfort, especially after my insulin shot, when my body's oxygen demand increases. But before i went into the zone, i looked. The silicone line is missing one inch on the left and one on the right. Looked at the pictures. It appears i did not catch the right end in the picture, but nothing was missing on the left. It looks like i have to climb there one more time.

Got shooting pain at the insulin injection site.

Now i feel poop smell, again.

12:12 Slept all evening last night, went to bed at 5 AM, then slept all morning. Awoke with nausea, retrieved up to 10 poops. When i went the first time into the battlezone, a FedX(enu) van with big engine shook up that wall. The second time, the tan SUV. I avoided the first two passages, but the tan SUV came back and caught me in there and made me breath some also got some in my eyes. Planning to do something about that 1.5 meter horizontal long crack (opening).

6:50 I've been daydreaming at this for weeks. My gateway to hell. Vibrating all day the building with that excavator, other vehicles, some (very few) mineral insulation fibers would break in the wall in tiny nano size pieces, get electrified and expelled through that crack around the building. Always some big engine or even small or big planes passing by when i went to pick the poops next to that wall or even further in the enclosure between buildings.

Had one more too near the apartment but i could hammer it and bringing real close to the wall. But this one, i could only see how big the gap was near the middle after i squeezed half tube of clear silicone in there. I believe they used a bent plank.

Had to use a ladder, i climbed like 4 rungs, the ground was in a slope, lower at right, i was near the top, with nothing to hold to or nobody to hold the ladder. Thick smoke was making me dizzy, like drunk and it was dark and did not use a flashlight to draw much attention.

However i did it but in the end could not reach with my finger to level it or wipe the excess so i just used a bunch of paper towels zip tied to a stick.

This is all i could do.

7:12 I don't know it could be the lens, i would do a shot tomorrow on daylight with the plank in the middle to eliminate lens distortion but it appears wavy.

7:50 Housing for all in Soviet Union. Was khrushchyovka type of buildings inspired from nazi resort hotels? How about The Line?

3:00 PM Went for a walk, after i took a shower. For some reason in the second part of the trip i got sort of stiff, like the big muscles in my legs, other muscles. Started having trouble breathing. They were instances with bad exhaust. Saw angry Aryan people at the wheel. I heard, still hear shots fired at the nearby range. Got to be closer than this.

At the street i saw three excavators, a number of guys talking, there is one excavator that moved in the space at the right of E building, but i really don't understand what they're doing. After lowering that alley, now they are pulling ground from itself, narrowing it and increasing height again. Will take some pictures after.

4:30 AM But those 3 surgeries in 2016-17, the hernia repair surgery done in 2019 (hernia caused by the previous 3). The year of 2004 when they performed on both procedures that would lead to sterilization.

And now the change of Providence logo to an iron cross.


Some would believe it's a nazi revival movement. But i know some of the people who did this to us were not real people. They were actors. It is much worse than a nazi revival movement cause it is all coordinated one level above. Is a simulation of a nazi revival movement, all done for other people to see. All done in the US, a country who fought nazi in WWII.

4:50 I saw yesterday one of the (black) cats hunting birds in the parking lot. They eat cat food from our next door neighbors at 2 or E4. If they are not fed, they will meow of hours at their doors (or hunt?) but never go to garbage. They are afraid of people. They behave like the cats on the cat islands of Japan which are feral but fed with cat food from donations.

And yes i awoke at 4 with much nausea and i found one of their poops in the stairwell enclosure. It is much worse than dog poop.

6:06 Sunday evening i was in the car with Angela eating our take out from Ilani and i was telling her the story of an alleged planet sized mothership near Mercury and kept repeating how a solar flare in 2010 revealed it. At least that was written in the news at that time, in the meantime they took that back. I don't know if that is true or not, but today (actually i fist saw it yesterday, did not pay much attention) i see this on my screen while trying to access many of the sites in my bookmarks.

I also kept telling her about Sun worshiping civilizations, starting with Ancient Egypt my have had actually worshiping or at least revering the aliens on that ship as Mercury is a planet that is seen almost all the time in the vicinity of Sun. 

Also Bitcoin (at which point he started to stomp again upstairs, the AI that governs them doesn't like what i post).

Google AI keeps changing the answer to this, so i have to add a screenshot i took earlier. Bitcoin, the king of all the crazy speculations. Nicușor Dan, should try at least to do this. Gold vs bitcoin.

7:00 The market has started half hour ago.

Rușii nu au alpi, austriecii, da.

2:16 Four vids showing the activity beyond the buildings on the other side of the alley or north from here. You can see the excavator at times is just moving back and forth making a weird sound with the chain tracks.

For the last few days, that excavator have been always right between the two buildings. They have been lowering again the walking path they are building. For the last month with a 2 weeks break there has been a continuous beeping and vibrating, from before 8 AM to 5, though the vibration heard and perceived has been lowering as they are going deeper into the ground.

They started when the activity on the other project, south of our building started to dim so they can keep the level of annoyance constant. BTW, when i opened the door exhaust smoke from the excavator was coming this way.

3:25 If Romania, a NATO member was to be attacked by Russia, it would take NATO troops 45 days to move there from Western Europe.

9:42 I think freckles could be a defense mechanism against what's cooking under. In other words they appear in areas where is enough damage caused by UV light and your body does not have other defenses left. So i believe studying the areas under those could hold the secret to skin cancer.

10:00 Știri ce par legate de ce am postat recent.

4 operații.

Mutilarea. Apropo, prin strâmtarea vaginului se grăbește orgasmul bărbatului (ejacularea).

Bitcoin, Nicușor Dan.

Orban și domini_câinii.

10:35 REM REO just plays on the radio, creating a huge node in the space time continuum. "White lies".

Why what Musk says is not possible (i believe it's a reaction of me posting that irrefutable proof of bone thinning in the elderly). From at least one point of view, there could be more.

Our computers based on the known well organized (defined) architectures work exclusively sequential, with a correction of course. Now we have the so called multi-thread or multi-node computers which have multiple sequential threads, basically several computers linked to the same periphery (memory, GPU, external).

Anyways, we would need serial or limited parallel interfaces to hook to a human brain, but at which points?

For downloading the information from something you would need a sequential link and a sequential scanning of a well defined source though it could be a multi bit bus with (limited) parallel link which the same result. But to make that information work in the same way as the human brain we would need a similar architecture.

Human brain though it also uses binary signals, uses mostly parallel but not well defined branching processes with an unpredictable number of bits processed in parallel on a vast reconfigurable tangle like architecture to store in one step mostly reactions to input (that can later be retrieved as memories of which input may be the pineal gland or sensorial (and could end there fulfilling a cycle) and also creating electric loops that could act as antennas for transmitting signals to other brains that might be around and in tune.

Thus there is no way to download those reconfigurable neural pathways. Now or in the predictable future.

I can think of a way to do it though. You would need to hook a person to a system of sensors to measure (identify) neural circuits for every reaction/memory of their lives and then stimulate him/her to relieve in a certain amount of time all the memories of their lives and then store all the needed branches for one memory at the time in a matrix like reconfigurable memory that would mimic synapses at all nodes.

Or maybe build a scanner that could "read" all the synapses and their circuits with the memories stored in those circuits.

From what i know i think there is not one single reconfigurable neural pathways based machine.

But then at what good. Let's say we attach that duplicate of our soul to a robot. What "life" would be to awake inside a robot that could not possibly have the same sensory or motor array?

The more i think the more i realize how bad this joke is.

1:00 PM For some reason i myself cannot explain i though Angela's MRI was scheduled in December but tonight she was telling me it is tomorrow or better said today November 17 5PM PDT, 8 PM Eastern, 3 AM Tuesday Romania. I panicked of course because it was my understanding those X-rays do not match and she could still have those wires inside.

So i plugged her old computer and retrieved more X-rays from there again under the form of screenshots (data is on a CD and i don't know where is at and she is sleeping). It looks like in the X-ray i posted on fb in 2016 there are 2 sternum wires out of frame and in the newest X-ray 2 or 3 at the bottom were missing because they were removed (for comfort as they said).

So those are both her X-rays and there are no wires except for the sternum wires provided there is enough contrast and focus to be seen cause in this image they appear much thinner than the sternum wires and they disappear in the whiter area and the newer images are not so sharp and maybe i can sleep tonight (after i chill a little). Everything else i wrote is true, to the best of my knowledge.

First image is done in 2016, the rest are from now. The viewer app back then also had a contrast adjustment. Also it was done at an angle so the wires can be seen.

2:00 Tough image quality is very low, i think i see here in the center of this image at least one loop similar to the one 9 years ago.  Though they might have moved a little

2:25 No i might not sleep well tonight.

10:20 Here is another picture from the old computer showing 3 of the wires comming out of the wound. For some reason is black and white only, should have some colored one in there but the old computer today broke (won't start anymore). I knew it had a problem with the power switch, will try to fix it later.

10:42 It all comes down to this. After enhancing it a little (contrast, sharpness) i see some V shaped patterns close to sternum that could be part of S or Z shape patterns but they are at least 3 sort of irregular, thick and washed out to be wires. Could be ribs. Or could be the wires, corroded and broken to pieces?

Question. Why in the old picture (with more contrast) the sternum appears to be larger with the (sternal) wires tight and in the new one the bone is smaller with the wires loose? Is this what they call bone loss?;

12:36 Ok i found the colored one. Screenshot done on December 19 2016 i think 2 days after the follow up with dr.Swanson, who removed the hanging sutures at one month after surgery during which Angela took several showers of course.

Even though clipping the wires is not uncommon in older patients to avoid the risk of heart bleeding when pulled, he (the PAS) clipped them too long. One more surgery was done in that month of December 2016 when they pulled two of the wires and hid the other too under the skin. One more surgery in the summer of next year, 2017 to remove the remaining wires. One more surgery, can't remember when right now, to fix the hernia created by the previous two or three. 

7:17 We got back from the MRI about an hour ago after we went to Mashita Teryaki here in Tualatin, got some food to go. One thing i can tell. The portions get smaller everywhere.

While we were eating, someone, rather light came and started to work the floor upstairs, never stopped since.

I used to get filled with a takeout box like that. Not anymore.

1:40 AM Got back home about half hour ago, Found a 2 litter soda pop (caffeine free, sugar free) i thought i drank, intact in a bag since coming from the store. Tried to open it to mix it with a drop of brandy left in the bottle but i heard no seal breaking and it had no pressure. I tasted some though.

Outside when i came I felt a smell. I grabbed my fishing pole, opened the door, a guy passed by and went uphill and then i heard a noisy vehicle idling. Went at the dumpster, knotted one and wanted to go to the battleground zone or should i call it from now on "no man's zone". "Dog zone"?. Does dog zone sound better?  It is on the opposite side of the building and from there i can't see our door.

However i turned around again, because i thought that vibration might bring painful dust out of the wall.

The guy with black coat with white and pink motives was at our stairs with his dog, 7 steps away from our door. like the mystery woman two nights ago. What else can i say.

2:00 Things started to fall with big noises in here. First a folding chair that was in  precarious position. Then something else, both making big noises.

2:10 I think i heard the woman upstairs crying, somebody else was climbing.

1:35 AM Nu mai cred că asistenta aia cu care mi-a făcut cunoștință dr.Swanson, care a operat-o pe Angela care se arăta preocupat de "fericirea mea" era Raluca Turcan. Era altă persoană publică. Cred. Pe atunci (2016) nu auzisem de ea deci nu aveam cum să știu și în mintea mea am comparat figura cea mai apropiat, cunoscută (din știri).

Nu cred nici măcar că a operat-o el. La vreo săptămână lui Angela (pardon neacordul, așa vorbesc eu și nu am să spun niciodată Angelei) încă îi atârnau niște fire. Fiind pe calmante opioase (nu știu cum se spune în românește, opiacee, sună așa ciudat) nu prea știa ce face, trebuia să am grijă de ea tot timpul. Deci am fost la dr.Swanson să-i scoată niște fire care atârnau acolo.

Atunci am văzut că tremura așa de dare, un cm stânga dreapta, deci nu avea cum să fi făcut el operația, dar știam că ei bagă în față nume faimoase, dr.Swanson, pe atunci se spunea că are 9000 de operații pe inimă la activ, și în realitate operațiile le fac alți doctori. Mă rog. Ei se maschează toți și intră în sala de operație, dar cu el am vorbit când a ieșit și înainte de operație, într-un fel de ședință educațională cu Angela.

A și mi-a spusă s-au distrat toți ăia de la operație că inima i-a pornit singură când a fost redirecționat sângele din mașina inimă-plămâni, nu au avut nevoie de vreun șoc electric.

Chiar îmi amintesc că eram la reanimare (ICU), ATI în românește, și Angela era intubată, deci respira ajutată mecanic, dar a cerut o foaie de hârtie pe o placă din aia de carton și a început să scrie niște întrebări și asistenta îi răspundea.

A doua zi au mutat-o în salon și a fost faza cu flegma în căile respiratorii.

Bine am plecat noi acasă după vreo trei zile, am cumpărat un pui întreg și i-am făcut supă (pentru colagen, vindecare după un sfat bun) și la vreo săptămână cum spuneam ne-am dus să-i scoată firele.

Dr. Swanson tremura, cum spuneam, nu le nimerea cu o pensetă ceva (sau juca teatru) le-a scos el până la  urmă și ne-am dus acasă. Angela în seara aia stătea în pat (canapea) și eu eram în bucătărie și mai trăgeam cu ochiul și o văd că se uită la niște capete de fire care ieșeau din rană și era cât pe ce să tragă de ele dar m-a întrebat pe mine întâi.

Am luat o lupă și m-am uitat, cred că am postat undeva poza dar nu mai știu unde. Poate pe g+ care a fost închis în 2019.

În realitate, erau 3 sârme (din 4) care trebuiau scoase în ziua a 3-a după operație care erau cusute pe inimă și erau conectate la un aparat ceva pentru defibrilație în caz de nevoie pe care ea îl avea după gât, împreună cu o pompă de insulină (pentru scăderea glicemiei și promovarea vindecării).

În ziua a 3-a sau a 4-a dimineața, eram acolo, terminat de oboseală, a venit un asistent cu un cleștișor, s-a uitat la mine, s-a uitat la ea, a văzut că nu știm despre ce e vorba, a tăiat firele scurt la ieșirea din rană, a luat aparatul și s-a dus.

Deci Angela văzuse cum a tras dr.Swanson de acele fire de la cusătură în ziua aceea și s-a gândit că poate nu le-a scos pe toate, în realitate erau 3 fire metalice cu izolație secționate cu cleștișorul care erau legate de inimă pe care trebuia să le scoată (tragă afară?) asistentul acela, parcă spunea că a fost și el în sala de operație, dar le-a tăiat și acum ieșeau câțiva mm prin rană și aici începe o întreaga saga, ce a condus la încă 3 operații, două de scos firele, una pentru hernia creată de primele 3 operații.

Toată chestia e că dacă sunt cusute prea tare, nu se mai pot trage și atunci e riscant să tragi de ele. Cănd mă uit acum văd că 2 din ele, probabil cele rămase sunt cusute cumva în cârlig. Cum le tragi pe alea?

2:22 Mda,  l-am înjurat pe dr.Swanson în gând cât am putut de tare, o mașină a bipăit în parcare, așa cum se întâmplă totdeauna.

2:40 AM Was a bit nauseated in the last hours. Went outside, first time about 20 minutes ago. Saw the dark green bag caught with the opening down between the frame and a lid. Went in the battleground, but none was smelling. Came back in about a minute, quick like never before, lately i was spending minutes in there. Was also afraid of dust coming at vibrations from that wall. I also needed the fishing pole for the open bags at the dumpster.

I saw from a distance the mystery woman from D7 between the stairwell wall and the bush, 5 meters to our entrance. She crossed the alley and went inside. No dog. The sign at the door was not moved. When i went outside first time her dog was barking really loud.

At the dumpster was stinking, like a public restroom in Romania during Ceausescu regime. After some struggling, brought that bag down and knotted it together with 2 others. There is a huge sack full of garbage with a hole at the bottom on the ground next to it that could not have come out of an apartment. Was afraid to try to lift it and put in the dumpster because it could have broke and made a much bigger mess.

My eyes, ears and face feel like i got some dust. Could be from a distance, silent, resonant vibration shaking that wall.

10:55 After a few days of break, letting time to forget, they started to work again at the yelow brick brown mud road north of the complex with much beeping and vibrating. I opened the window to record only to see my new phone battery is out again (5000 mAh), haven't done nothing with it since last charge a few days ago and got energized (again) by the supercharged mineral dust flying all around the building (from attic, holes in the wall, etc.).

Time spent in the kitchen could be time spent with you is a time when market grows.

12:30 Am avut un Nissan din 96 cu motor (legendarul GA16DE) cu 16 supape (valve), 2 admisie și 2 evacuare pe cilindru și două axe cu came (DOHC) majoritatea dacă nu toate motoarelor japoneze și coreene de azi sunt așa, throttle bodies (corpuri admisie aer) independentă pe cilindru nu am mai văzut (la mașini de serie, altele nu știu). 1.6 litri, 110 CP cu transmisie automată cu 4 trepte, acea mașină de 1600 kg în zilele ei bune se apropia de 5 litri la sută pe autostrada.

Admisie separată, cred că e pentru ca aerul să nu parcurgă un drum mai lung de la corpul de accelerație unic la cel mai depărtat cilindru și să apară variații nedorite de raport stoichiometric în perioade de tranziție de regim la diferiți cilindri, ceea ce bănuiesc că prelungește timpul de răspuns la pedală, atât de enervant la mașinile moderne cu injecție de benzină, iar cui îi plac curele de cauciuc la distribuție (valve timing belts),

10000 de ture pe minut la un motor de  mașină este impresionant. (Mobra noastră era așa, a nu, 14000 și chiar 19000 ture pe minut! dar avea un singur pistonaș cât un țoi! (50 ml)).

Limitarea turației unui motor apare din cauză că la turație mai mare uleiul ajunge mai greu în lagărele pistoanelor din cauza inerției datorată vitezei de înaintare a bielei deci trebuie o presiune mai mare la pompa de ulei dar și din cauza raportului mare diametru /cursă. La motociclete nu e cazul fiindcă nu au pompă sau baie de ulei, se ung cu ulei pus în benzină care ajunge mai peste tot.

Ăsta de jucărie are cilindri mai mari ca o Mobra!

 

1:42 Ok cred că știu de unde s-a inspirat Luminița Anghel!

5:00 Are you ready for my story for this weekend? Angela went last week to a doctor with her back pain and got an order for an MRI. I was a bit worried because i never saw an X-ray after her surgery to remove the last two forgotten wires since hear heart surgery. They removed two of them in December 2o16 or one month after heart surgery and supposedly two more in the summer of 2017.

I remember i talked to doctor Swanson after her last surgery (before the hernia he created) and he showed me a pictures with two wires full of blood like taken of someone's body. But Angela did not want to do another X-ray to confirm.

So i was worried a bit and asked her to do an X-ray before the MRI just in case which she did yesterday. However when i saw the X-ray yesterday though they look kinda faded and substandard i had a suspicion and compared them to the ones in 2019, especially the sternal wires. And guess what.

These don't look like hers since back then.

They use wires to put the sternum together (during open heart surgery they cut the sternum in two on its length just to preserve all articulations and ribs which are much tougher to heal intact and reduce everything tp a sternum wound) and the wires in her sternum seen in the old X-rays don't much those seen in the current one.

It looks like they mixed the X-ray with someone else's.

I don't know what this means. I googled and saw the epicardial wires are usually made of non-magnetic surgical steel. I don't know.

Probably the reason why the mystery woman got so close to our apartment last night when i was supposed to be looking for poops in the battleground area.

How about sternal wires.

12:00 AM Yesterday and today i binged browsed 2 seasons from a series on Apple TV. I would have preferred to continue doing that (with another series) but  the smell became unbearable. Went outside, retrieved two poops in the dumpster (good think i put my glasses on) which i knotted and 2 or 3 on the ground which i bagged, knotted and took at the dumpster.

Stepped on a fragment.  They are down to and constant to about 10 a day, only big dogs (on the ground) so they smell a lot. They are hard to spot because of leaves. BTW they did not remove leaves this week at all.

There is also smoke that this time only smells like wildfire smoke. Now i am even more nauseated because i had to smell those while bagging and knotting. BTW, could be from sick dogs because i got feverish after, my face is burning.

They started to work on the yellow bricks road again today with much beeping and vrooming across the alley. They are now digging two huge almost square holes in the road, about  the same width or about 15 ft wide, they went about several feet deep so far. Did not have the phone with me to take a picture.

A big Cadillac SUV was casting high beams on the dumpster and generally in the whole area and because of it and a car t hat passed i got feverous and stepped into one, but left when i got closer.

My back pain that started at Spirit Mountain ended later today after i took some water with backing soda.

There are more things related to Angela's surgery i wrote about but can't find where, back then i was writing on g+ too (some sort of competition for fb done by google and then shut down with me loosing thousands of posts).

In the day or second day after the surgery, i  have been in her room watching TV and could not fall asleep. Though it was a 2000 dollars a day room, all the toilets on that floor were stinking really bad. Add to that the smell of bandages and other smells.

Angela had an oxygen sensor on one of her fingers that was feeding signal into a room where assistants were watching. She was on heavy doses of opiates pain killers and she was rather happy all the time and then she fell asleep. But i saw her having some trouble breathing (i know how she sleeps) and i put my oxygen sensor on another finger.

At some point she stopped breathing, like having an apnea episode and the oxygen level on my monitor went down to 80 when i awoke her and called the nurses or they came by themselves or i met with them on the corridor on their way, can't remember.

Two guys came. We both told them they took her out of oxygen too soon and she should be back on oxygen and they started arguing over it. The blond bearded one as i remember said she should be on oxygen and he put oxygen at her nose. Can't remember when, right after or the next morning a nurse came and taught Angela to cough really hard and she coughed a piece of phlegm probably obstructing some of her airways probably created by irritation from her breathing tube in ICU or during surgery.

So yeah, in situations like these, time is of the essence. If one stops breathing while on sedation for post surgery pain, if you awake them right away nothing happens.

I believe this is  the stupid way in which Michael Jackson, others, died. Simple obstruction of respiratory airways that could be a nose congestion (from cracked walls shaken by loudspeakers) with closed mouth while on sedation could have done it.

That stupid doctor should have put a monitor with an alarm on his finger after giving him an injection with propofol, an anesthetic for operating rooms. Insomnia may have been caused by the same dust.

Being drunk could do it as well.

So yeah, those at risk (with sleep apnea and taking opiates, whatever), they must sell now smart watches with oxygen level sensors incorporated and alarms (i guess). But  i don't recommend wearing those with cellular network, wi-fi or even bluetooth on. Provided they are not stoned enough not to hear that alarm.

12:45 Upstairs, he just can't stop stump waking, is 45 minutes past midnight.

8:15 AM I was in pain all day yesterday, just for being there for about 20 minutes, looking for poops. Today when i woke up i felt both the poop smell and the dust, though the particulate counter shows nothing for all sizes, including microns.

As i said, must be under one micron, made of mineral wool or insulation dust that is basically a form of irregular dirty glass fiber, that can break in particles of nanometric scale (under one micron), get electrified and fly for hours. Could get combined with aerosols from poops and carry those away.

Every one of those dust particles carries enough electric charge to stimulate a pain nerve termination on your skin, causing on inflammation on large areas of your skin that can go deeper inside, last for days and completely changing your desires to do things like investigating or writing. Yes it goes right through clothes.

Though it rains (drizzles), there is dry a space of about 1 ft all around the building and Oregon rain most of the times is just drizzle (that lasts for months starting now until spring) with no wind and the electrified dust could travel through those spaces. Yeah i was intrigued for a long time how could this happen, since i was living at Sussex.

Though at Sussex it kinda stopped when that Arab guy living downstairs next door started to cook some traditional food, boiling sheep meat for hours every Saturday or something. Those sheep grease vapors helped stabilize the dust between walls and siding. I believe that was the reason my stomach pains that started in 96 when i moved to the States finally ended after about ten years.

They were days like today when there outside there was drizzling though the air when opening the door was "dry" and probably loaded with that type of dust (and in there the siding was made of aluminum "scales" that is horizontal sheets covering one another in cascades with no sealing between them, I mean, the water would flow down on them but under each two of them there was enough space for dust.

The same scenario as yesterday repeated today and i i did not write about because i was interrupted from the noises upstairs. There was/is a green pickup on the other size of garages there that was started and idling alone, pretty much like the black BMW did before it disappeared earlier this week hopefully for good.

And then the big commercial van with the inscription INSULATION with its big diesel engine came by and yesterday it stopped with the cabin in sight idling for many minutes and then circled the buildings with even more noise when going uphill but today just passed by so i just left, after picking a huge poop in the shape of a string from strings theory i was briefly reading about this morning so i just took off after picking just one poop and taking a few pictures, this time with my tiny camera that has an optical zoom.

Don't know if i said it before, the poops have shape, sizes and consistencies always in theme with what i read or write.

When i went to look closer, a woman started to climb the stairs in my line of view and went to the apartment where that wall belongs to but in there lives the midget that shows rarely and lately i haven't seen anybody, like in the apartment below were there is a guy who moves around in a wheelchair but again, shows rarely so i believe both apartments, like most here, are unoccupied most of the time and they only came when needed for theme shows.

I also complained lately about my face being swollen, is from the same cause, going in there, coming in contact with the nano dust combined with aerosols from dog poop. So it's a perfect combination between a built in metsubushi and the dominicani.

Also i believed they modified the whole wall, i don't believe the area with diagonal planks was there, they were all vertical panels.

9:13 Ok that diagonal section of the wall was there.  And the weird 3 - 4 planks on top of each other. Blame on me i did not pay attention to see if they rebuilt that one too or not.

1:40 PM. Yesterday besides whole body pains due to exposure to electrified nano dust i had some extra pains in the back, in the kidneys area. I had these pains before and they usually go away with taking some blood pressure medication, but i have been told by dr. Bedolla kidneys don't hurt because of that.

I am not sure it it's kidneys or other back pain in the area, but yesterday at times pain seemed more intense in the right side and continues to this moment, though it is diminished.

It happened after i went at Spirit Mountain last night. I went into the smoke area and played poker just to have an opportunity to smoke because of the painful exposure to dust yesterday. I can play with 20 dollars for a long time at one of those machines. I wanted to get some blood pressure medicine when i realized i forgot them at home.

First time when i was experiencing that kind of pain,  years ago, was when i was in the middle of some extreme stressful moments but it was going away real quick while today it lasted the longest i have ever experienced. It is true, also got some pain in the cervical area and  yesterday it was cold in the car and had to shut down the (warm) air many times because of cars with bad exhaust smoke in front of us.

It does not hurt when i move, as it usually happens with back pain due to orthopedic problems.

At some point yesterday in the casino i saw this guy whom i saw many times before in there, acting as a... how do they call the people who arrange chairs in there? I was alone at a row of 5 poker machines and he came and arranged the chairs at my right and at my left. I have said to myself many times i will some day say about him being present there but kept forgetting. That day has come.

2:15 Yes i was very tired and slept all day after i finished posting the previous entries and put some fish and chicken in the COSORI oven. Could not wait for those to cook, i just fell asleep probably the smell of cooking covered the smell of some poop outside that kept me awake. Awoke once, i started the oven ten  more minutes and then i slept until after one.

My self made upper teeth broke after about 6 months, also because i made some mistakes, lower are two month older and still last. Got to do new ones but it is a very stinking process, and i'm afraid the smell may get upstairs.

2:37  Got nauseated, right after i ate. I looked through the window and saw an open dark green bag caught in the lid of the dumpster, grabbed the camera, opened the door, but then a whole story started outside and gave it up. Even taking a picture of an inanimate object is very difficult for me these days.

3:45 Looked into the box with teeth and materials where i got previous versions, broken ones, etc..

Found a forgotten pair of teeth that i done days before the current version that broke yesterday which i did not like (and then made the current) but i think the were actually better, trimmed them a bit, they still smell a bit like monomer, i will boil them for a while to maybe finish curing and make sure they are not leaching monomer or something.

They are far from ideal, they have an underbite maybe smaller that the broken ones but they will do it for sometime.

9:00 I am trying to keep my calm and suffer quietly (was not sure about the spelling of quietly, but then i remembered and realized my spellchecker is off again after i did reset Chrome last night because it was flickering while trying to watch a movie on AppletTV of which i became a subscriber) about the physical pain i received this morning.

And yes i had to hit lots of accept buttons when reading the news this morning because got all my cookies deleted. Wondering who was the smart... who invented this accept thing, another manifestation of profound bureaucracy of the world we live in.

They forced all sites to put this question because some a...hole sued someone over a stupid cookie (yes i believe there was a lot of abuse done with cookies from some sites) or a lot of a...holes sued someone and now all have to suffer. Who the h... cares or knows about cookies?

But that was not the reason i'm physically suffering. I woke up this morning again nauseated. Wanted to do my insulin shot but checked my BS before that, on a hunch. And guess what. I had 155. And that after i reduced insulin two steps behind from 44 to 34 because i thought it was the reason for my increased BP.

What have i done in the last two days since the last reading was 280. Water. I drank lots of water last night. Because i became thirsty after i ate lots of Manzanita green pickled olives (and lots of fries done in my COSORI oven last night). And milk thistle. Took a lot of that and quit drinking about a week ago.

What's nice about that oven is if you figure the setting and settings for a certain food, like fries from frozen, you can just set it and forget it until your hunger reminds you.

The fries cooked nicely by themselves after i poured them from the freezer on that rack and pushed the start button, keeping the settings from the last night. And they are at least as good as fast food fries, without that much oil of course. Was wondering... Because i tried with raw potatoes and they came burnt in places, uncooked in others. So that must be it.  Frozen fries at a price near raw potatoes.

Ok so i was. as i told Angela on the phone, dizzy with nausea, started the COSORI and went outside to look. The big smell was coming from the dumpster where a largely open bag, like an open flower was on top of everything. Green. And yes a car or a person passed by while i picked and knotted that bag like always.

Then i went towards the battleground where poops reside. No matter how hard i tried, could not find a poop. Then i noticed one modified exhaust and one big diesel engine idling nearby.

Could find no poops but stepped on a fragment and i was carrying the smell with me.

As i said lately i started to awaken the suppressed sense of smell. No i don't believe people lost their sense of smell. People got used to smells much stronger than in nature and learned to ignore the lesser smells. Like from living in caves with fires inside. Or living in shacks with fire inside. Or living inside houses made of sulfur and driving on streets behind smelling exhaust. Or smoking.

So what i do is i try to relax, empty all of my thoughts and let my subconscious driven by smell guide me. This is how i find them in the layer of leaves. First by smell, then by vision. Of course had lots of misses but most annoying, steps into. So i try now to keep my eyes open, thoughts shut and while driven by subconscious driven by smell, walk until i find them.

And when i found one, i bag it right away and knot the bag tight to eliminate one source of smell so i can find the others.

Strangely enough, is hard until i find a first one. Then i memorize in my immediate memory filled with faces and news that shape and color and then i start finding more. Lately, when i bend to pick one, by getting closer to the ground, i find more.

But this morning the two big idling sounds were interfering with my senses and especially were mixing smells in the air, confusing direction though as i said, had a fragment on one of my shoes.

But then i realized. The vibration was not for that. I had a vague feeling that something else was happening and it did.

I wrote a few times about a hole in the wall at the other side of the building which i kept taping so rain water won't get in and kept notifying the management, for years.

But last summer they decided they should fix the siding (again) and after much noise and dust around, they came at this building and did some fixings of which some i thought were unnecessary. But when they did that, they opened the walls and did not close them back right.

As a result, there is an opening under a piece of wood that "seals" the upper panels from the lower which was not there. And yes, water can't get in the wall anymore, but dust can get out. Especially at vibration.

I noticed many times when i went at the battleground they were making noises. Either by slamming the doors six times when getting in and out of a car. From a big engine. Every time they do so the wall puffs an amount of dust from inside.

Pain started only after i got inside. In a short phrase, got Metsubushed again. Was thinking if to write about or not, cause it is clearly a divergence or diversion or distraction from what i wrote lately. Noise to my own posts but then i was thinking. Why i have two blogs for. One is for the general h...l and one is for my personal. Generally cause you can't really separated the two.

Mineral insulation problem is a more general problem as it is the pet excrements. What bothers me, i was writing about financial and scientific things lately and now here i come with a divergence, just because i am in pain. Bla bla.

In the past few days the wind was blowing from that direction and there has been lots of vibration from various construction projects all around and i was stunned and nauseated most of the time.

Now i got to add pictures and links. And quit the habit of making spell checks in a big hurry without glasses cause sometimes i chose the wrong words for replacement. And yes not only my skin all over but my eyes hurt too because of the dust. When i started the day i could read without. Don't know what to say, the low blood sugar, low blood pressure thing? Now i can't.

And then was thinking. Who would believe me? Things that are not universally accepted, like the toxicity of that kinda dust that according to me made its way in American buildings on purpose, and the possibility that some people may want to vibrate the building while i was there or when the wind was blowing from that direction. But think about. I live in their owned complex and building with them surrounding from all directions, no exception.

Some things that are under normal perception or ignored or according to a majority don't exist cannot be revealed even when pointing at them, and then, here i am, covering with my own noise my own recent posts.(And yes there is a real chance i can break my neck if i tried to add a line of silicone using my puny ladder there).

10:10 Mda, bucepșii sunt deja vizibili. (noise to the noise).

10:55 Ok i went and took a better picture and i also measured. I could do it with this tool and maybe a stepper on the ground and then wipe the excess with a stick or something. 55 bucks? Or maybe i should notify the office because that is a one cm gap (though i don't see how can they straighten the now bent "wall"). Or they could make it worse, somehow.

11:05 In this crop you can see there is a missing piece of wood hidden with a carefully designed optical illusion at the left and the gap between the transverse plank and the vertical panel that is about 1 cm in the middle, confused with the shadow.

11:10 Aylwin Construction, two big guys surrounded by lots of small ones.

1:25

7 AM 11/11/2025 A few more days (well, 50 are not a few but compare to 365.25) and the numerologist year of 2025 is ending. Probably the last in the apocalyptic series around year 2000 that actually started with 1996 or by some even with 1969 or 1960. Ok, i was slightly wrong with  those numbers.

Today is supposed to be a big day for the scrutinizers of nothing, or meaningless, unavoidable semantics (enough commas, everyone?).

What if we counted in base 7 or in base 2 or in 8 which is the number of bits in a byte or in hexadecimal 16 which is used for Unicode in computers?

Base 10 is most intuitive for us because yes we have 10 fingers at our hands and historically we have signs for each except for 10 which is made by jumping to next level.

Supposedly, equally big for those who speculate what they call the weak minds or many.

Enough of this. What i was thinking while doing dishes (yes, i don't have a new dishwasher yet, this one is born in 2000, still have to ask for a new one from the management, waiting for a favorable moment in the perception of majority).

The ladder of illusions. Nothing like this, uh-huh. It is a philosophical concept coined by me used only by myself until today when i chose to share (again) where an individual or a group, following false information, usually a rumor, or his own false perception, makes a decision based on it and then before that first rumor or perception is proven false though usually forgotten, makes another decision based on another false rumor that may or may not be based on the first before that one dies until he/she reaches a level where decisions are irreversible and usually catastrophic.

As Buddha would say, is a direct consequence of ignorance, but ignorance is not the only cause. It is ignorance followed by manipulation as speculation of ignorance.

It happens all the time and unfortunately applies to (large) groups as targets of manipulation by a few, i call the real rulers who i'm sure they are not so happy about anymore. 

In fact it is the main way democracy works, where the vast majority rules indeed however that is also an illusion because they rule after being heavily manipulated and climbed enough steps on the ladder of illusions that always grows an extra rung, every day.

Obviously never consciously followed the lyrics of this song until here. Like most people, i abandon following lyrics after about the first third of any song when i get tired.

7:20 PM Do you speak cat language?

7:25 How the whirls that form the matter of the Universe get created? When a large area of AEther rotates, of course, there is a speed gradient from center to radius of that rotation. Whirls form in that gradient similar to vortices in liquid Helium, a superfluid which are 3 or 4 degrees of magnitude bigger than particles (whirls in AEther).

The indestructible Vajra. Whirls in AEther once created can only be destroyed by whirls rotating in the opposite direction (matter-antimatter annihilation) (no object can disturb the AEther cause no object can exist at that scale other than whirls, like in macro size whirls in superfluids.

10:12 I said it many times before, Artificial Intelligence cannot be smarter than those who program it.