9:00 AM Two blogs and i made a mess posting on the wrong ones and wrong dates. Tried to figure it out but don't know if it's worth it or it makes any difference a day after and i right now i can think of only one thing and that is how to answer to my parallel posting each on his own virtual possible GF. But i am not worried about defining the situation. Whatever it is it feels good (cause she provides the visual part, the smile and everything).
Yeah one of the benefits is immersing in American culture. Is the exclamation "man!" a more polite substitute for... Man! i can't figure how many hours i slept last night. 5 at most, 2 at least.
Morning after sobering system check. Are my kidneys especially the right one that BTW hurt less today 3 days after i quit smoking looking inside like that finger on the right foot that seems to never heal and feels numb? Does my 30 years old gastritis-esophagitis-duodenitis-pancreatitis turned into something else with all these frequent dysphagia episodes and lately a weird feel of fulness even when i don't eat that much?
BTW yesterday i re-figured something (too many things going on in my life, i simply can't sort everything out). The mold smell when she steps upstairs may not come from DS9 (that is the space between ceiling and floor upstairs) but from my own bathroom when the air gets agitated by vibration. Cause there are always spots of mold in corners no matter how much i try to get rid of them.
So after i re-started the germicidal short wave length (forgot, 253 nm) UV light with ozone in there, it is all much better, and she slowed down like knowing? I long suspected they could use mold as a medium for some sort of telepathy. Is this what they mean by "dark forces" or "dark side of the force"? BTW she last night entered when i came back from the locker and presented me her butt, bending in the car when i looked.
BTW it took more than 24 hours to clear myself of the alcohol in my system and yesterday evening and even right now i had this weird feeling that everything is darker. Liver insufficiency. Diabetes retinopathy already? A combination of momentary factors?
Is this difficulty and delay measured in hours in figuring what she really meant only a cultural thing or i am (and always been) a retard disguised in a nerd? (Or is she so much smarter than me, never "met" women that smart with enough age difference for me to feel secure).
Man. My one and only decaf got cold already.
11:05 Man i burnt the mashed potatoes, twice. Yes it's possible, after burning them once, i removed them from the pot, put them in a glass bowl, cleaned the bottom of the pot, put them back in the pot and mashed them and then forgot the pot on the hot burner. My mind as little as it is is obviously not here.
11:05 After being seen by dr.Piepgrass (Tom Hanks), Han Solo playing doctor with me (by his own words) and Lady Gaga consulting me with the fast moving stethoscope, do you think anything can scare me anymore? (And now i got an appointment with him in 2 weeks).
11:30 Finally got it. Daily Easter Egg Hunting. You know what? I think it's much better with the UV light in the bathroom could it be it bio-resonates in there? So i'll try to pass for now, let's move to something else.
11:35 Man. Two kids dressed in black running in the yard and she just threw something from the balcony. Water or something, while i'm eating. No they can't see me from outside, even if you get real close to the windows, it's too much light and too dark in here and the blinds are partly on. I tried once or twice or ten times already.
But can't deny the correlation. Every time i eat it's either kids or people protecting the kids or pooping and/or pieing dogs as punishment for eating with the blinds not closed. Now one of them (the boy) just passed through the grass with a scooter in his back. Yes they oftenly enact what i think or white i write, under my eyes, in the yard.
Like i can never be done inventorying all the stuff in the news just as reactions to what i write. Like right now playing on the radio. You're the meaning in my life, you're the inspiration (103.3).
12:30 Slept about half hour. Woke up with sharp belly pains. Did i say i re-started Metformin, in top of insulin?
12:40 I expressed my wish to drive earlier as it relaxes me better than anything else (except my love life as i just discovered) and now my wish just came through, I'm up to driving 117 miles to Lucky Eagle. Talk to you later!
12:55 AM 21 No she's not dead.
