8:50 AM I am awake since 5:20 after 5 hours here at Travelodge by Wyndham in Florence. Ever since i've been counting steps stomps on the ceiling and guys comming down the stairs and there have been at least 4 in a one king size bed room. I have fallen back asleep and awakened, like then knew the moment, about 10 times. One of the guys left with a semi with the logo Westco, with a Volvo trailer head. Next to our back window there is a bus size AV.

Same happened yesterday when i got here half past dead tired, after sleeping in the car at 7 feathers after a similar night there so i could drive the 120 miles here. But i am not sure if there's anyone left upstairs, i still hear stomps. Dogs barking viciously.

They gave us one card key only and when we left for the Casino, after several hours of "resting" Angela found another one under the door mat, with one corner barely visible, but it was expired.

Hotel is near 101 with lots of traffic. I made some noodles soup that caught the smell/taste from inside our apartment that is now apparent after 2 days on the road. A combination of mold form the always wet floor (from vapors in the basement) and dog s...t.

9:05 Almost positive he is Austrian, by the looks.

9:12 BTW i have been thinking me too, some of the Scythians were red headed.

9:33 I believe some of the so called celtic symbols look similar to avar. Need to do some more research. when i get home. And  yes, got nauseated (obviously) after i ate that soup.

12:58 AM This guy certainly uses more than half MW of energy, which is half of the output of a medium sized wind turbine, enough power for 100-500 homes. I saw many of its cousins in my way from Portland to here (3 hours, 198 miles).

The man got tinted windows too. How in Las Vegas can you see the smaller cars and pedestrians around you?  

1:45 Gingerbread houses contest at 7 feathers.

10:27 Seven Feathers is decorated for winter time. They got a digital tree however is not as rich as the one at Indian Head (fewer LEDs, maybe half) but still. Camera: Moto G 2024, 40 dollars at Walmart, 40 MP, 30 at Best Buy. BTW got really excited when i saw this two days ago but 9k? And then, you'd have to carry a camera with you everywhere you go! Pretty elegant though. 

3:05 AM How i killed myself with ice-cream

Angela made a few days ago a dish that is very popular in Romania during cold season, especially around holidays. It's done by boiling meat with much garlic and other spices like pepper and adding carrots for flavor (no need for adding gelatin in the original recipe).

I used to hate it when i was a kid but now i find it delicious. It can last up to several days in the fridge. (Yeah i know it's Christmas fasting time in Romania, here we have Thanksgiving).

For Romanians. In the US the stores do their best to have frozen turkeys for about 10 bucks a 15 pounds one around this time. And we got it for free with a coupon from Ilani. But cooking it, that is a completely different story.

Yesterday the Turkey was completely thawed after several days in the fridge and i said we should do it because it cannot stay for a long time in the fridge. So i rubbed it with spices put the whole thing (15 pounds) in a glass pan, covered it with foil that was removed after one and a half hours and it was done in 4 (the "thermometer" that came with it popped, then i used my own, it was 180 degrees F or 82 C).

But for that to happen i needed the glass pan and in it was a little bit of aspic left. So i ate it. About half hour later i started to have the same back pain i had in the last days, especially after driving, drinking brandy, other things that irritate my stomach and cool my back. And because of it i started to wear a back support belt that heats my back a little.

Yeah. Slept 4 hours after 2 the night before, awoke with back pain, did the dishes, had some chamomile tea (the most difficult part of making tea is having to wait for it to cool down, i set the stove's timer to ten minutes). Got that back pain that started after i ate that thing, some chills, etc..

Then i remembered. When i was in Lake Oswego smoke was coming in our apartment from a hole in the wall in bedroom's closet that i tried to fix 4 times, one in the bathroom and probably others.

There was a fireplace at an apartment below us (7) but God knows what they were  burning cause we were high all the time (pretty much like here until about 2 years ago from smoke coming from mole and rat holes until i covered those).

Here in the last picture there is a the hole in the bathroom there which i fixed but you can see in the last picture, the drywall turned brown because of smoke inside the wall.

I had a filter in the living pretty much like now and would go in the morning in the bedroom where Angela was sleeping and i was choked by smoke but she said it was ok and now i believe her.

Every time i went to WinCo i would buy one gallon of ice-cream for 2 bucks something (basically the price of milk that cheap i scream was made of and when i was going to bed i had this pain in the right side in front under ribs (pretty much like i have now in back). Sometimes i would take backing soda and would get better, in my foggy brain i thought it was my old duodenitis but no, it was pancreatitis.

Until one day in 2014 i realized my urine smelled fruity and went and bought a blood glucose monitor for 15 bucks or something and my BS was near 300. That after i sent my monitors in Romania several years ago when my BS was running in the 50s.

Now i take a combination of metformin and insulin and can hardly lower by BS to @200 on fasting. I lowered my insulin dose because it does not make any difference after 30 (and my blood pressure went a bit lower) and restarted metformin which i take when i eat starchy foods.

And i told the doctor about this back pain thinking it was kidneys but he said it was something else.

And yeah, i think the woman with two big dogs and green truck that was "living" at 7 was Linda the martial arts cop from Hungary. Who among other things, once unleashed the dogs on me (knowing i had the flashlight in my pocket) and once tried to run me over with her truck, when i was barely walking being high.

BTW one day when i first started to be conscious about dog poops and i gathered several kg from around the building.

Yeah the back support does not do the magic this time, i still feel a bit of pain and a bit of chills after that tea. I know i have an infection there but cannot take antibiotics orally because it irritates my pancreas even more.

And yes, Kelly Clarkson, my favorite singer back then was showing from time to time pretending living at 9 or next door. Yeah i still think she's a great singer. But i have to ask her a question. Is this song about me? Was it supposed to be be but never happened cause i was too high and shy all the time anyways?

4:25 H..l yeah!

5:00 Right on!

5:10 BTW got to get out.

5:38 Found a few, not much noise, one guy was hitting the bumps with a trailer shaking some cause now i cough. The dumpster was crawling with racoons, could not get there to see.

6:00 AM

6:15

11:33 Not sure if i can remember the exact flow of events. Didn't want to write all these but something in the end of my trips outside made me.

Awoke after 3 more hours, nauseated bla bla. Looked through the news, other sources of information. As suggested, i went first in the front and there was cat poop buried in the only dry area under stares, though deeper than usual and with no obvious signs (little mounds) on top.

Found several in the rear, missed some, mapped then in my mind, came back for more bags. The woman with big fat but at E4 came and left a fresh one on the track i was supposed to retrieve those i saw earlier.

I noticed further on the upper valley a carpet cleaning van was vibrating the air and the buildings, including ours, providing irritating dust.

On a hunch went to the dumpster near the new "park" i knotted some, there was a poop bag with something else instead, a square envelope from a toy maybe, i knotted that one when i saw suddenly saw next to me, real close, the woman who was cleaning her blue car next to the insulation van i wanted to take a picture of. Scared me really bad but did not give me a palpitation.

Went back inside to get my fishing pole cause there was one more in the dumpster unknotted i could not reach. The woman was still cleaning her car, flaunting here sexy butt. The man with the blue eyes ad the one level apartment where the religious figure from Romania with the black SUV with LPN DEU lived was smoking and staring at me.

I decided to go for a walk and also to get more bags cause i saw one more at the corner of the South garages. I did so and in my way got this huge diesel Ford, filling the alley with diesel exhaust. Went past it, grabbed the bags from the dispenser near the entrance and came back.

I noticed the old man dressed in kaki and camouflage with the Ford now sat at  his entrance, resting from maneuvering that truck (he looked frail). He was staring in the direction of an Amazon van parked at the locker with side door wide open while the man was at the locker.

Then the reason i needed to write all these. A white SUV, probably a Ford, with antennas and displays in front (seen through tinted windows) and yellow LPN passed me. I went to pick one more poop at the corner of those garages i knew it was there when i ran out of bags and saw that white SUV parked near the park dumpster where i was before and a woman dressed like a cop looking rather like a model, a bit embarrassed, climbed in that SUV.

Now i need to go and take a picture of the "INSULATION" van that vibrated the building for me in the past days.  BTW i forgot something. Sunday afternoon when we left for Indian Head the van was coming in the complex from somewhere.  Sunday. It was raining, but he caught me with the fan on and some dust gut inside from shacking that van at bumps (there are 13 i guess from here to the entrance) which hurt my eyes all the drive there. 

10:53 While i was finishing here, i heard the black BMW coming back home (he left about an hour ago) and remembered to write something.

Once, the mail man or woman left an envelope addressed to that apartment (4) in my box and saw the name. It had four Spanish names and one of them was Jesus. I know i should have taken a picture of that envelope but i guess during those days i was still high shy.

My eyes hurt a little from the dust when searching for the cat poop under stairs, passing the other side of the building with the crack that was not completely covered.

12:08. Went outside, i noticed the area was filled with some smoke. Forgot to lock the door. Forgot to look at the signs. The INSULATION van and the blue car are gone. The carpet cleaning van is still on, vibrating everything. Main reason why my eyes hurt now after being outside with that think on.

12:27 Your 401k. Usually the market rallies on black Friday/Thanksgiving and i understand that when i look at Walmart, but what that has to do with Nvidia, Microsoft, TSM and Broadcom.

12:40 Swastikas, everywhere.

12:45 PM This happened after that, right? I used to feel very bad in the past about all these coincidences but now i know i don't have to because they are not real and they are meant just to boost one's popularity of approval whatever at the price of pooping on everyone's holiday. Who can verify this really happened?

These shows are designed for the vast majority and the vast majority don't have a clue.

1:03 Have you ever tried to sneeze and cough in the same time? This dust does that to me. Almost chocked after trying to eat some turkey after breathing that dust and smelling that s...t outside.

1:11 Finally tamed my new phone. After fiddling with lots of settings, i reduced battery consumption for that Moto app launcher and all the others to 1%. One of the problems is was turning the display on when picked and of course was on in the pocket all the time. One of the settings was lock screen/gestures/wake display on moving the phone.

But the "40 MP" camera doesn't do better in low light than the other which i found and now keep in a drawer. Ok maybe i'm wrong. I was looking at the pictures the day after and as always they could not beat the real images in my memory. But a few days after they look ok, as always.

One of the black feral cats just passed my patio, after being fed at apt. 2. Soon it's gonna poop under the stairs.

6:40 Tried to go back to sleep after Angela left, they started to creak the floor, obviously intentional upstairs. Got a high BP episode, took a lisinopril. Last night i put some orange peel on out port of the hepa filter, but this could not feel a bad smell, just the fact i was chocking. Went and found first four pouches with hot sauce in the alley, flattened by cars. I unknotted one bag in the dumpster, 2 big fresh ones soft with diarrhea in the battle zone.

I remember i once had a gallon of solid deodorant with the appearance of ground orange peel that lasted several months up to a  year but now i figured it is not made of orange peel since it has several flavors. Maybe. All i am missing now is some propylene glycol or other chemical deodorant in this place.

As i was cursing them in my mind, a big exhaust started and was still idling a few minutes after i got back inside and did a reverse search on his LPN. Lately i see lots and lots of vehicles with the letter Q, probably from Queer in their LPN. Now sneezing uncontrollably.

BTW last night when we came from Indian Head over Mt.Hood there was a festival of blinding headlights, an unusual number of vehicles (nobody was going my way, everybody was coming, like one every 15 seconds) with at least two guys having those off road LED bars in front of their vehicles, many others with high beams on.

At least ten times i went off the road on the shoulder, being blinded. Then i started to flash my headlights high/low real fast and i know this is equally annoying and guess what. They all stopped doing it after. Like they were in touch or something.

BTW about half of the road i ran in puddles of water from rain again watching in disbelief the traction control lamp on dashboard coming on/off which led of course to very poor mileage (about 35 for the round trip. On a good day i did 42.

They installed again the digital Christmas tree with thousands of LEDs, many colors and combinations that runs different shows in cycles of about 15-30 minutes with music and stuff. I don't believe there is any other on Oregon, unfortunately it's a 2 hours drive over Mt.Hood from Portland and the road is going to be real difficult after first snow. For people in Europe. The guy in the video is a real Indian (Native American).

7:28 The tan Yukon just started but it left so i did not have time to get the LPN.

9:24

9:25 Went and picked a few more, big and soft. It wasn't raining this morning. So how come ALL the poops are soft and making me so sick inside the apartment, i can smell them when i open the door or in the back on the patio which is 50 ft away from the battle zone? Ok, 62 ft or 20 yards or meters.

11:05 Misterioșii jurnaliști anonimi din România. Luiza Dobrescu, o singură poză, cu ochelari, nici un CV, nu putem ști vârsta. Studii superioare de jurnalism, asta poate fi Universitatea Apolonia din Iași sau ceva asemănător.

Angela mă înnebunea de două săptămâni cu Australian Bee Gees, am fost (condus peste 200 km) sâmbăta trecută la Chinook Winds, doar ca să iau bilete (gratuite) care de fapt erau în jur de 30 dolari. Probabil subvenționate de cazino căci nu cred că o formație din Australia ar cânta aici în Oregon (și poate la alte cazinouri) pe bani mai puțini.

Însă ghinion. Lângă noi a stat o tipă care la un moment dat a scos telefonul și a început să-l defileze în sus și în jos și apoi la stânga-dreapta și iar în sus și în jos. Am spus de mai multe ori că nu pot să suport să stau aproape de un telefon care merge mai alese pe date, deci la vreo 5 minute am început să am dureri, în general pielea, în anumite zone mai sensibile unde am fost expus în trecut masiv la wi-fi.

Deci m-am ridicat și am plecat, Angela a rămas, am găsit alt loc nu departe de masa de mixaj din spatele publicului (singurul liber, a fost cel mai mare nivel de ocupare la un concert la care am mers acolo, deși formația a fost cea mia slabă) dar am impresia că și aia mergea pe wi-fi (nu prea înțeleg, apare un lag, ok, e vorba mai mult de volum la mixaj) mă rog, alt semnal și acolo și până la urmă am plecat din sală la jumătatea spectacolului.

Pentru că acum am ajuns că simt semnalul de la un telefon sau wi-fi în aproximativ un minut de la începutul expunerii iar la aproximativ 5 minute încep să simt durere.

Tipa de lângă mine (de fapt Angela era între noi) avea ochelari, ca și Luiza Dobrescu din poză, care a trântit azi un articol de importanță națională, plin de aluzii și coincidențe. Nici măcar vârsta nu i-am putut-o ghici, ar fi putut să fie de 31 de ani, cu studii la Viena și Budapesta totuși. Dar nu putea să aibă 15 ani de experiență în presa scrisă din România, decât dacă ar fi început la 16 ani când nu avea nici un studiu.

Cazinoul Chinook Winds este veșnic în construcție, au lucrat odată la podea, acoperiș, scările rulante în interior și apoi tot exteriorul, având de cele mai multe ori zone expuse cu praf in ăla mineral.  Totul păstrând cazinoul deschis pentru public. Angela vrea să meargă acolo fiindcă pierde mai puțin ca în alte părți.

Mă gândeam că acum când vin ploile vor termina (apa poate să infiltreze izolația aia expusă) dar nu, au mai lăsat o bucățică sus sub acoperiș să fie vibrată de basul de la concert.

Apropo când am intrat în sală am trecut pe lângă o boxă ceva și tipul de la sintetizator a băgat o frecvență de bas că m-a vibrat cu totul.

Ok deci până la urmă m-am mai dus în mașină, unde treceau numai chinezi și alții. La un moment dat mi s-a părut că îl văd pe tipul de la bas din concert, care părea asiatic. Angela câștigase o mână de peste 1000 de dolari jucând la 25 cenți și era în extaz. Deci am fost în mașină, am mai luat o gură de rachiu și una de cafea, mă durea stomacul de la praf, și mă uitam cu groază la peretele dezvelit după care m-am dus iar înăuntru.

Praful acela pe mine mă irită groaznic. Deci am intrat, un tip mi-a blocat calea și a trebui să trec printre două rânduri de mașini unde erau 8 persoane, 4 la stânga, 4 la dreapta, spate în spate și un spațiu îngust între (cazinoul acela e foarte înghesuit). Când am ajuns la ultimele două persoane, o tipă, micuță, blondă-maro la vreo 40 de ani s-a ridicat brusc și a trebuit să fac o piruetă energică să n-o lovesc.

Fiindcă eram foarte iritat, nu m-am putut abține și i-am spus. "Watch out where  you're going!" la care tipa mi-a dat o privire arogantă super ofensată și superior zâmbitoare, și m-a întrebat , "what?" la care eu mi-am dat drumul i-am mai spus odată, "watch were the f... you're going” la care ea a luat-o în altă direcție.

Am mai avut acolo o altercație cu un japonez care a început să facă figuri de karate spre mine și în schimb, la vreo 3 săptămâni după, mi-au dat ban 6 luni după care încă 6 luni fiindcă m-au văzut în parcare.

E acolo un tip pătrat la security cu creastă de cocoș care pare japonez și a fost unul din cei care mi-a dat ban-ul a doua oară când mergeam pe cărarea din spatele cazinoului spre plajă și care de câte ori mă vede, îmi zice George, și se uită la mine ca și cum m-ar întreba, ce ai să mai faci azi. Din când în când tot la security mai apre un tip care seamănă cu Gino Iorgulescu iar la bar apărea o tipă care semăna cu Marjorie Green.

Da mă gândeam că banii ăia care i-a câștigat Angela nu sunt pe degeaba. Te manipulează psihologic, te face super confident și împreună cu iritarea de la praf, alcoolul și cofeina te pun într-o stare de "pus pe harță". Tot ce mai trebuie e o provocare de genul cu tipa aia.

Am mai stat acolo vreo jumătate de oră, așteptând să apară cei de la security, dar nu a venit nimeni așa că am plecat la Spirit Mountain (pe drumul înapoi spre Portland), la insistențele mele.

Acolo am luat benzină iar Angela a mai câștigat 300 de dolari. Ne-am urcat în mașină și ea își număra banii, am aprins parcă lumina, în noapte, zare și ceață am văzut parcă o mașină cum ocolește pe dreapta altă mașină care era oprită pe drumul cu o bandă imediat după cazino, fără lumini, fără nimic reflectorizant. Dar în momentul când mi-am dat seama, dintr-o dată a aprins luminile și a plecat.

După care a început să miroase a eșapament, am depășit-o, cred că era un SUV mai vechi, micuț, Suzuki, cu număr WMP 121 sau asemănător, pe care însă nu-l găsesc în baza de date. Angela era parcă în transă, nici nu a văzut faza, ea se gândea doar la bani. Spunea ceva că bine că am câștigat că nu ajungeau banii de chirie pe 1.

Am răsuflat ușurat fiindcă știam că după banii aceia urmează ceva, ca de obicei, am fost atent tot drumul la animale pe drum, și am depășit faza cu bine.

La un moment dat am început să am palpitații dar Angela mi-a dat niște apă cu bicarbonat și mi-au mai trecut până acasă. Ce legătură poate avea stomacul cu inima, alta decât că sunt unul lângă alta?

Acasă am uitat iar să iau insulina, deși eram cu 3 ore întârziere. Am luat-o pe la 3 dimineața, 6 ore întârziere după care am avut o reacție foarte nașpa care a durat vreo oră. Credeam că mă ia naiba. După care am dormit vreo 4 ore după ce m-am învelit cu super geaca mea cu aluminiu reflectorizant în căptușeală fiindcă nu reușeam să mă încălzesc.

12:18 Și o chestie. Cum poate să scrie un jurnalist 7 articole în aceeași zi, 23 noiembrie?

7:50 AM Slept only 4 hours. The poop smell keeps me awake so i went outside trying to find the culprits.

When i entered the battle zone, they started the tan Yukon with 5 liter V8 and modified or broken exhaust so i ran back inside and grabbed my phone but they started to move away. I caught a few seconds and played it back several time on my phone. Tried to copy the file on the stick with the SD card to move it on the computer, it said file was copied but then it went zero bytes. The phone is not connected to anything like network, wi-fi or bluetooth.

8:10 Went back, another one started. Bright blue pickup, could not see any brand on its back or LPN. I mean, it's a quite Saturday morning, nothing moves and here there are, the loudest vehicles around synching with my activities.

Louder than the first one, it also filled the whole area with exhaust. I think i did not wait enough to go in there, there was still some dust floating in the air that i got to breath. Found enough poop to fill two bags. But every time i go to the dumpster to throw the poops and look inside, there is a vehicle with high beams on me.

8:15 Just because i said it was all quiet, a loud base started outside.

8:22 No dollar amount or use of debt ceiling increase expression after the last government shutdown in October-November 2025. Can't remember why i believed the government shutdown was over a new debt ceiling increase.

Ok since a government shutdown occurs because of lack of funding, then why they shut down the government in 2018 over a rather financially insignificant issue.

Ok so i was wrong. Debt ceiling limit increased in 2025 by 5 trillion only, but it does not equate the deficit of that year, it rather "pays for past decisions". But if the government pays for past decisions this year, it should be included in the spending budget which is 7 trillion, right?

But we can't be sure since there is no dollar amount for the bill passed after shutdown which was caused by a different issue. Warning, should not believe everything you may read below. 

9:17 As i slept only 4 hours i start to get dizzy but i think they are right. Printing out bonds in the amount of 5 trillion is a source of revenue, not expenditures for the government. But now i have a new question that i can't answer to myself. Who is buying those?

9:44 I believe Elon Musk, out of patriotism and altruism could sell his 400 million worth of Tesla shares and buy government bonds instead. Others. Warren Buffet. Bill Gates. 

10:55 However the portion of Domestic Private Investors is debatable since we cannot know exactly who is behind guys like Musk or Buffet or Bezos or Bill Gates etc.. 

10:24 I went again at the dumpster and was trying to fish the second unknotted bag when an European looking 10-12 old unsupervised kid in the middle of the alley with hundreds of vehicle passing a day with a huge ball (similar to those used in gyms) came walking towards me and hitting the ball, like in spite.

I was mad for what i had to do and other reasons. I looked at him and was almost about to say something but i turned around and left. But behind me he left the ball and ran away, like scared.

He looks familiar, but the level of arrogance of that smile corresponds to that of a kid of a Hungarian politician that may be here again on a diplomatic passport.

I was searching just for a face like his among the kids of Hungarian politicians when i ran into the flag of Georgia, a country withing the laboratory of European migrations in Europe, at the right border of the Black Sea.

Then i remembered i saw that type of cross on a flag of the military order of Knight Templars.

Where am i getting at? I recently discovered both crosses used as Templar Knights and Teutonic Knights symbols on a coin of the Avars. However on that page it is said it was inspired from a type of Byzantine cross from 6th century, the Justinian Cross. No doubt it was at the origin of both Templar and Teutonic knights crosses, others, which in turned have inspired the design or Iron Cross in Germany that BTW is still used within German military while in the US is on the list of symbols used by the right extreme.

BTW Trump recently said Germany should assume leadership of NATO in Europe. The NATO treaty does not contain anything about having a leader being a rather decentralized organization, though the US has assumed leadership and contributed most to its infrastructure. 

11:50 I recently said... Could this mean it is true?

12:05 PM A recurring memory keeps coming in mind these days... Back in 1972 in Germany, on a beach of North Sea during a trip with the director of the camp, Klaus (most likely Klaus Meine from Scorpions)... It was a dark, cloudy day, with ceiling at maybe 1000 ft and suddenly i heard a thunderous sound and saw several shadows passing at an incredible speed right above the sea level.

It took 1 or 2 seconds to enter in our view and few more to disappear in the clouds, leaving me really scared (i was 12). I also remember Klaus saying with a bitter expression on his face... Die Amerikanische...

4:00 Bringing Trump back again was a right extremist transpartisan conspiracy. They pulled Biden and left Trump with an unelectable counter-candidate. A deja vu since Hilary candidacy.

If all this is real. No. It is all a higher level game letting the poor extremist think they are now on top while the majority (the demos in democracy) has no clue at all and the US (government) is bankrupt.

7:30 I haven't seen (or heard) the black BMW in a week or so. However the tan You_con SUV across with twice the engine size is now roughly doing the same job.

7:55 Orban (al nostru) văzut prin gura cațavencilor. Mi-ar place opoziția Olguței.

12:57 PM Really loud base upstairs, like never before. The kind of music i usually like. Just to set thing straight. I don't have that kind of speakers. Mine are tiny.

9:30 Tonight i went about one hour ago. A guy/gal with a white SUV with big speakers in the back was circling the buildings. As i made it near the battle zone, he/she backed up with the speakers closest possible, playing at an inhuman volume. Finally i realized what he/she was doing but was too late. My nose was itching due to dust raised from the walls.

Found more than 5 maybe up to 10 poops. Some in bags on the ground, with loose knot, some unknotted. The focus tonight was the big tree, There was a thick smoke coming from the new "park". When i got back inside smoke turned to rubber smoke and saw a plume of smoke rising above the park but not sure from where. Grabbed the phone and headed that direction, but it stopped.

One hour later i got nose congestion followed by chest discomfort, especially after my insulin shot, when my body's oxygen demand increases. But before i went into the zone, i looked. The silicone line is missing one inch on the left and one on the right. Looked at the pictures. It appears i did not catch the right end in the picture, but nothing was missing on the left. It looks like i have to climb there one more time.

Got shooting pain at the insulin injection site.

Now i feel poop smell, again.

12:12 Slept all evening last night, went to bed at 5 AM, then slept all morning. Awoke with nausea, retrieved up to 10 poops. When i went the first time into the battlezone, a FedX(enu) van with big engine shook up that wall. The second time, the tan SUV. I avoided the first two passages, but the tan SUV came back and caught me in there and made me breath some also got some in my eyes. Planning to do something about that 1.5 meter horizontal long crack (opening).

6:50 I've been daydreaming at this for weeks. My gateway to hell. Vibrating all day the building with that excavator, other vehicles, some (very few) mineral insulation fibers would break in the wall in tiny nano size pieces, get electrified and expelled through that crack around the building. Always some big engine or even small or big planes passing by when i went to pick the poops next to that wall or even further in the enclosure between buildings.

Had one more too near the apartment but i could hammer it and bringing real close to the wall. But this one, i could only see how big the gap was near the middle after i squeezed half tube of clear silicone in there. I believe they used a bent plank.

Had to use a ladder, i climbed like 4 rungs, the ground was in a slope, lower at right, i was near the top, with nothing to hold to or nobody to hold the ladder. Thick smoke was making me dizzy, like drunk and it was dark and did not use a flashlight to draw much attention.

However i did it but in the end could not reach with my finger to level it or wipe the excess so i just used a bunch of paper towels zip tied to a stick.

This is all i could do.

7:12 I don't know it could be the lens, i would do a shot tomorrow on daylight with the plank in the middle to eliminate lens distortion but it appears wavy.

7:50 Housing for all in Soviet Union. Was khrushchyovka type of buildings inspired from nazi resort hotels? How about The Line?

3:00 PM Went for a walk, after i took a shower. For some reason in the second part of the trip i got sort of stiff, like the big muscles in my legs, other muscles. Started having trouble breathing. They were instances with bad exhaust. Saw angry Aryan people at the wheel. I heard, still hear shots fired at the nearby range. Got to be closer than this.

At the street i saw three excavators, a number of guys talking, there is one excavator that moved in the space at the right of E building, but i really don't understand what they're doing. After lowering that alley, now they are pulling ground from itself, narrowing it and increasing height again. Will take some pictures after.

4:30 AM But those 3 surgeries in 2016-17, the hernia repair surgery done in 2019 (hernia caused by the previous 3). The year of 2004 when they performed on both procedures that would lead to sterilization.

And now the change of Providence logo to an iron cross.


Some would believe it's a nazi revival movement. But i know some of the people who did this to us were not real people. They were actors. It is much worse than a nazi revival movement cause it is all coordinated one level above. Is a simulation of a nazi revival movement, all done for other people to see. All done in the US, a country who fought nazi in WWII.

4:50 I saw yesterday one of the (black) cats hunting birds in the parking lot. They eat cat food from our next door neighbors at 2 or E4. If they are not fed, they will meow of hours at their doors (or hunt?) but never go to garbage. They are afraid of people. They behave like the cats on the cat islands of Japan which are feral but fed with cat food from donations.

And yes i awoke at 4 with much nausea and i found one of their poops in the stairwell enclosure. It is much worse than dog poop.

6:06 Sunday evening i was in the car with Angela eating our take out from Ilani and i was telling her the story of an alleged planet sized mothership near Mercury and kept repeating how a solar flare in 2010 revealed it. At least that was written in the news at that time, in the meantime they took that back. I don't know if that is true or not, but today (actually i fist saw it yesterday, did not pay much attention) i see this on my screen while trying to access many of the sites in my bookmarks.

I also kept telling her about Sun worshiping civilizations, starting with Ancient Egypt my have had actually worshiping or at least revering the aliens on that ship as Mercury is a planet that is seen almost all the time in the vicinity of Sun. 

Also Bitcoin (at which point he started to stomp again upstairs, the AI that governs them doesn't like what i post).

Google AI keeps changing the answer to this, so i have to add a screenshot i took earlier. Bitcoin, the king of all the crazy speculations. Nicușor Dan, should try at least to do this. Gold vs bitcoin.

7:00 The market has started half hour ago.

Rușii nu au alpi, austriecii, da.

2:16 Four vids showing the activity beyond the buildings on the other side of the alley or north from here. You can see the excavator at times is just moving back and forth making a weird sound with the chain tracks.

For the last few days, that excavator have been always right between the two buildings. They have been lowering again the walking path they are building. For the last month with a 2 weeks break there has been a continuous beeping and vibrating, from before 8 AM to 5, though the vibration heard and perceived has been lowering as they are going deeper into the ground.

They started when the activity on the other project, south of our building started to dim so they can keep the level of annoyance constant. BTW, when i opened the door exhaust smoke from the excavator was coming this way.

3:25 If Romania, a NATO member was to be attacked by Russia, it would take NATO troops 45 days to move there from Western Europe.

9:42 I think freckles could be a defense mechanism against what's cooking under. In other words they appear in areas where is enough damage caused by UV light and your body does not have other defenses left. So i believe studying the areas under those could hold the secret to skin cancer.

10:00 Știri ce par legate de ce am postat recent.

4 operații.

Mutilarea. Apropo, prin strâmtarea vaginului se grăbește orgasmul bărbatului (ejacularea).

Bitcoin, Nicușor Dan.

Orban și domini_câinii.

10:35 REM REO just plays on the radio, creating a huge node in the space time continuum. "White lies".

Why what Musk says is not possible (i believe it's a reaction of me posting that irrefutable proof of bone thinning in the elderly). From at least one point of view, there could be more.

Our computers based on the known well organized (defined) architectures work exclusively sequential, with a correction of course. Now we have the so called multi-thread or multi-node computers which have multiple sequential threads, basically several computers linked to the same periphery (memory, GPU, external).

Anyways, we would need serial or limited parallel interfaces to hook to a human brain, but at which points?

For downloading the information from something you would need a sequential link and a sequential scanning of a well defined source though it could be a multi bit bus with (limited) parallel link which the same result. But to make that information work in the same way as the human brain we would need a similar architecture.

Human brain though it also uses binary signals, uses mostly parallel but not well defined branching processes with an unpredictable number of bits processed in parallel on a vast reconfigurable tangle like architecture to store in one step mostly reactions to input (that can later be retrieved as memories of which input may be the pineal gland or sensorial (and could end there fulfilling a cycle) and also creating electric loops that could act as antennas for transmitting signals to other brains that might be around and in tune.

Thus there is no way to download those reconfigurable neural pathways. Now or in the predictable future.

I can think of a way to do it though. You would need to hook a person to a system of sensors to measure (identify) neural circuits for every reaction/memory of their lives and then stimulate him/her to relieve in a certain amount of time all the memories of their lives and then store all the needed branches for one memory at the time in a matrix like reconfigurable memory that would mimic synapses at all nodes.

Or maybe build a scanner that could "read" all the synapses and their circuits with the memories stored in those circuits.

From what i know i think there is not one single reconfigurable neural pathways based machine.

But then at what good. Let's say we attach that duplicate of our soul to a robot. What "life" would be to awake inside a robot that could not possibly have the same sensory or motor array?

The more i think the more i realize how bad this joke is.