1:12 AM Sincer să fiu, omul pare plictisit. Blazat. Burned out. De când îl știu, din copilărie. Samskara.
9:40 Last night i thought i was done with my teeth. No more pain, no more chills, sockets are closing so i stopped taking antibiotics, after 5 days since extraction. Last night could not help myself and went and smoked. Since it was raining, it seemed convenient to go under the stairs. Last time some car with loud exhaust passed, hit the big bump (only in front of our building, rest are much smaller).
Then as hours passed, i started go get numb and stiff, all over. At around 8 i finally decided to take another Augmenting though i had no infection symptoms. Right after, i had a twitch in one of my feet. In about an our as the antibiotic was at peak in my blood stream all stiffness was gone. Look like either Tetanus or Botulism symptoms to me.
One more hour and the concentration of antibiotic will be half, another one, another half and in about 4-5 hours i will have too little. Have 19 pills left. I just opened the bottle i got from the dentist.
All this time she was dancing upstairs. But i thought today it could have been a different, lighter person, like they always are. I thought i recognized the steps of the person that lives across the alley in building D sometimes i think is Alexa. She of course was moving in the rhythm of my thoughts.
Then i started to have a severe diarrhea. Extremely stinking. Yes i have been drinking litters of diet decaf soda a day. Then i went to the shower, thinking how stupid i was to smoke there. There are half inch spaces between those planks. S...t from their shoes can fall in my head and get into my mouth. Literally. they could have traces of litter dust in their carpet from the cats.
BTW i remember i saw in the last few days some silicon absorbent material on the asphalt at the entrance of the complex. Everybody coming this way would have gotten some on their wheels and then flying around.
Then when i got at the computer, i saw an email from the management saying... they are going to rebuild the stairwell. 13 and 14. Imagine the noise.
I'm not saying it's in the best shape, last summer i complained myself, they said they did a temporary fix. But i'm sure they will not seal the space between planks. However, whatever dirt was there it will be gone with no trace.
So yet another coincidence?
Then right after, about 20 minutes ago she upstairs left. She had a jacket on her head, but can't remember if it was raining. Also hard to tell the height. Maybe a few inches taller than the (Honda) Element, maybe the same, i don't know. No body shape to tell weight. Ok i remember now. I saw some medium size legs in colored yoga pants. And a very white arm with no tan no nothing.
10:14 I feel almost normal. Some stiffness in my toes and muscles of my jaws. Irritation on my face after shower, probably from dust in the air. Good thing i did not go to sleep before catching it.
4:20 PM It's almost 12 hours since i took the last Augmentin. It seems like i am better than 4 months ago when i could not go one for more than 4 hours or 4-8 patches. No more wound at the toe, almost no more wound at my teeth extraction place. However there is a little left at the bulges near my ears and some stiffness all around.
Since i know i can come back any time to a normal state with one Augmentin, i'm trying to see how long can i go without any.
8:15 That's it. The pink ones are swollen. Both size, did not change in the last 5 years. From there, through lymph canals (not shown here) to my whole body. But recently only if i get exposed to cold. Smoking outside that is.
9:05 Angela is doing some traditional Romanian meat patties in the oven. When it started to smell, she made her entrance, after 11 and a half hours (not missing).
