Wednesday, November 20, 2024

3:15 AM Wanted to go and smoke a cigarette. Was hesitating because earlier i ate something cold from the fridge and then my gum started to hurt again and took another Augmentin. But when i opened the door i saw a woman with a dog comming out of that entrance, a basement apartment. BTW, it's raining and very cold. Probably Asian posing as Latina.

It took me like 15 minutes to find those. Was thinking at what i just posted, other things. Mostly my recent encounter with another woman with a dog at that entrance. Who seemeed shorter than how i use to know her. That day when she was running she was about 10 cm taller and she avoided looking at me. Though one day about 6 months ago she wanted to talk but i avoided.

Though she composed a "scared" stance, she took the time to tell me she "has to climb on her counters" because she was too short. Which means she's a waitress, right? That after she called someone on the phone who arrived about one minute later.

After much thought, we concluded there is a daycare at that entrance. I saw many times cars coming to pick or leave babies, small children. Some asleep, wrapped in blankets. Sometimes people on foot. Al Latino.

At times i thought. Could she be Alexa or whatever her name is? Alexa is also very short. She's been here for a year now, what is she after? Alexa's last signature "sticky" picture on Twitter kinda reminds of her.

Then i found this actress in Hungary who looks like Alexa. But i think she is taller. In one video she looks like the woman with the dog ad D entrance, main version. She has three kids.

Could this be connected with the attempted accident Sunday night, the long semi with two trailers which "went in my lane to avoid an accident"? Saia saia saia.

3:30 Ok i think she must be done with the dog.

1:40 There must have been a reason she awoke me at noon (3 PM Eastern), pomping her bedroom floor with sewage smell coming in the room. I took refuge in the living were i had an AV lamp on all morning.

Tuesday, November 19, 2024

7:40 Awake since 4. Angela got to go to work early to make for the two hours missed yesterday because they were working at the water pipes. Got some sleep in the last few days and now i can't. Was just thinking to start writing here and she stomped really hard a couple of times. It was felt in the wall and in bed.

BTW. I put the tiny PC, monitor, all the wires inside an unused drawer and moved it back in bedroom where i can heat my feet. The recliner does not work so well, though i sit  almost horizontally, it twists my back and my feet are always uncovered.

I think my gum infection is over. No more numbness, only sore to the touch.

8:07 Back at thundering on my head. I can hear the wood the floor is made of, creaking hard, as i was thinking what to post next. "Her morning routine" is usually centered in the area covered by the curtain in dining area, however, this morning when i moved here, she seems to be preparing breakfast in the bedroom, or on top of my head, with much stepping on the floor.

8:30 Nevermind, the breakfast was for me. As she left, i can feel the smell of sewage that was pumped out of the floor. Now the cats are running so fast, they themselves move the floor and i can feel the vibration by sitting in bad. I can feel the numbness creeping back around my gum (mostly lip for now).

1:25 Slept one more our on top of three last night, under the comforter in bedroom and now my feet are finally warm but now tingling like crazy. I thought i heard some people talking outside the door but could have been a dream.

1:33 PM Can you believe i had this song actually stuck in my head yesterday? Is lady Germanotta finally finding herself (with the help of AI?). Too bad it had to be next to Bruno Mars.


3:25 Didn't have time to search for Trump's nominees yet, and it wouldn't do much good either, he will replace them. But of dr.Oz, i knwew. It was actually one of the first near perefect match, encouraging me to go to the next level, that is eliminating all those who were not. So what can you think of the health care with doctors like him?

Talking about health care. When i came from Romania i had an infected tooth and did not have a chance to take care of it for a long time.

If you have one of those and live downstairs in an apartment, you are done. One can never imagine what's inside the one ft tall empty space between the ceiling and the floor upstairs and that could include sewer gas, either coming from a leak in the pipe of the batheroom fan or from a leak at the toilet.

One simple walk upstairs will seed your wound with botulinum, which produces the most potent toxin known to human kind. It will not kill you since the immune system kiks in and fights it, but will incapacitate you and will create symptmos ranging from numbness in areas of your body to sleepiness but when you are young, it could cause a surge in a adrenaline that can lead to psychotic episodes.

Monday, November 18, 2024

1:05 AM


3:35 Vorbeam de ninja pe blogul celălalt. Au început iar cu fumuri. Am ieșit mai devreme să caut dar nu am găsit găuri în jurul clădirii. Fumul vine din altă parte. Fumul mimează cumva fumul de sobă, dar e altfel. Dacă fac vreo câțiva pași mai departe de clădire, dispare.

Când e fum, așa, rareori se aude vreun zgomot, sus sau în altă parte. Pentru că nu își expun oamenii lor la așa ceva.

4:50


4:00 Don't know why the're calling them boil and byte, they are actually molded ones (a new product), and i hope the thermal material works at a higher temperature than boil and byte (and lasts longer).

Just ordered this kit on Amazon, should be here by Wednesday, made by acrilic, should be no different than the ones from the dentist with liners, only better cause won't have the problems i had from a local dental lab. If they work and i don't see why not, i will then get lower ones, after my gum heals completely.

Horseshoe, maybe the're gonna bring me luck. Just figured something. A complete rainbow from North to South has the shape of a horseshoe. Duh!

6:20 Got a real loud one shaking the building from the alley.

10:45 This is gonna be a long one.

Just got home. When i turned off the engine, i saw the lights diminishing a lot. Which usually means low battery. Alternator is new, battery is one year old. I also checked the oil, since i talked about oils yesterday. It seems somehow thin when rubbing two fingers together but that is a very subjective test. Mileage was one of the lowest on that route. But it was raining and tire pressure was fairly low.

Angela today got home at around 1 PM. Water supply problem at work. Possibly (then) not working tomorrow. So we scractched our heads and since we haven't been anywhere this weekend (me being sick) we decided to go "somewhere". Which in our code means... casinos.

But which one?

Indian Head, Angela's favorite (and mine when it doesn't stinks like cow dung or there's no homeless people in bathroom and we don't loose a lot), out of question. They were 26 degrees at Frog Lake ODOT cam and snow visible on the road.

Spirit Mountain? They dry you out of money. The most money losing casino in the area. Chinook Winds? We been there last time.

What remains, is the northern connection. Wa Shinto state. Angela had 40 bucks free play at Lucky Eagle (120 miles from here), some free food and 15 dollars free play at Ilani (40 miles, in our way to Lucky Eagle).

So at about 2:30 we hit the road and went up north on I5, just early enough to avoid traffic in downtown Portland which we almost did. Stopped at Ilani, Angela went inside, ordered two burger, played her 15 dollars free play and came back in the parking lot with two of the hugest burgers i ever seen. My double burger must have weigher about one pound meet only.

However, trouble. They were out of catchup and gave us in house made mustart sauce, with a tone of sugar. Angela did not ate it, i ate half of mine.

I will skip about the problems on the road. One of them was the windshieled and wiper was dirty and had trouble seeing the road. I ignored all harassment. The usual smokers before our arrival there.

Every time i get there after 120 miles and smoke within last 50 i feel like i am really tired. And right after a big RV vehicle protruding from its spot came a car with a woman, and i had to back up cause it seemed like she didn't our car.

Once there, trouble. Severe diarrhea from that mustard sauce (i guess).  I must have been to the restroom about 4 times. However, when i was in there, i had some sort of blockage. Could it had been because i saw people walking backwards before i entered, loud, aggressive music in the speakers above me, other people entering, making more noise.

I remember after i went the first time, the blond janitor was waiting outside, and then opened the door, like wanting to see if there was nobody left there.

And then the darnest thing. There was this guy looking like a sumo wrestler, only bigger and shorter. Wondering. How much that custom uniform must have cost? He must have had about 2 meters diameter and at some point he was servicing machines behind me. Not the first time i see him there, i figure he represents the signature for cameras for what's about to happen on the road.

You could say he was like a walking barrel but most likely he was figuring a sun. All summo wrestlers are figuring suns, with those arrowed tied to their belts pointing down, figuring arrows. The reason they must grow so big. The reason only Japan nationals can be sumo wrestlers. The fights are actually ceremonies dedicated to Sun Goddess Amaterasu and the Sun Emperor.

And the big win. I sat at one of the only two poker machines in there. Angela put her card and transfetred 5 dollars from her 40 dollars promotion. I hit the deal button and what do i see. Four 2s aligned next to each other. Can't remember what was the other card. I selected them carefully and hit the deal button again and won 200 bucks. At that machine, four twos is bigger than other 4 of a kind.

But the reason i won so much (i rarely win at pocker anyways, though i can stay there one hour with 20 bucks) was the bet was forgotten at 1.25 from the previous player, i forgot to set it on 25 cents ai i usually play.

And as a general rule. Every time we win a little or parr our losses, something bad is about to happen on the road.

Later at home i thought maybe they were also trying to give me a message and the only message could have been the four twos were figuring a swastika.

Pretendedly, the State of Washington is the most racist state in the Union, with Kurt Cobain and stuff. In reality, is the state mostly populated by ninja figuring Mexicans and other Latinos. There is a reason they call it Wa Shinto.

Many situations in my way back. It was dark and raining all the time, the road was far from ideal, at some point i stopped and cleaned the wipers and windshield, the lane margins were barely visible. At some time not far after i left one guy became aggressive, simulating a road rage situation. I slowed down and put some distance.

Two times an obstacles on the right margin, first could have been a dead animal, while i was adjusting the radio.

A cistern passing a semi doing at least 70 in an area with three lanes and a curve to the left, exactly when i was passing on the leftmost lane.

But in downtown Portland. First of all, I5 was closed and circulation was diverted on 405. After a few more minor ones, i was about to pass a semi with 2 trailers after it. It was like a train with locomotive and two cars. Can't say if it was Saia Saia Saia. 10:15, just before going back on I5. Was hesitating to pass it in an area with no shoulder while raining and dark. I've been thrown left and right in puddles before.

And then it started wobbling, like a giant snake, and went half way in my lane and back. If i started to pass it when i first had a chance, would have been certainly squeezed by one of the three parts of it to the left barrier that was very near. Then i saw, there was an SUV on the right doing funny things like just getting off the curb with the right wheels and the truck driver avoided that guy.

No doubt to me it was an elaborated setup, starting with closing the freeway and traffic synced by AI. Like so many times before, especially when i post something very important i thought of all night. Rectifying the thermal agitation of electrons inside a vacuum tube diode.

11:50 They just started a big one in the lot.

Sunday, November 17, 2024

5:40 AM It's been what, a year since i'm smoke free. Talking about the smoke coming from mole holes and rat holes around the building.

That is after i plugged them with cement.

I find every day mistakes i found in the past in the blog with similarities and they are all due to both my lack of experience in the beginning but especially to that smoke.

I believe it created some inconvenience on the part of those people. On the other hand, i know, at least now, after all the fixes, are right. So when you balance the consequences of that with the mistakes i made, i mean, its negligible. Knowing the whole world is held by a group and pointing exactly what that is.

I don't feel like i need to apologize. What about my wasted life or Angela's or the millions who died in wars and in recent pandemics.

1:30 PM Thump thump thump. Pumping the floor. She got out of bed and went to the restroom (and flushed) exactly when i wanted to get in bed to heat myself a little after eating.

Last night i went outside to smoke a cigarette. In about an hour i started to have pains everywhere i was exposed to cold. Today those area are numb. Don't know what to say. My mandibula is healing, there is very little pain and numbness in the area.

I took some flaxseed oil that does wonders for stomach and esophagus. But thinking at the seeds shells fallen on the patio. I thought i recognized sunflower seeds shells. Could it be flaxseeds as well?

The birds eating those.

How do cats get toxoplasmosis, other disease? By eating wild birds. Wild birds like any wild animals they have all kinda pathogens.

So whatever they have it must be sticking on the shells that fall upon our patio. Birds for the cats to watch? Or contaminated seeds shell for me to be constantly sick?

I've seen it before. The two Ladies of December. And those were not coming from mistakes i made on the similarities blog. They were two writers from Hungary, at least one with a passion for hiking, hence the strong legs to stump with. They had a cat and a bird feeder too. But i once saw one of them and she  had her face all irritated from litter dust. Most likely, blackmailed or forced to do so.

Got one of them or both on my similarities blog but i forgot her name.

Back then it was localized to belly area only. Now it's generalized.

2:35 I had very few chances to see them. And even then i was incapacitated by smoke. It's been almost 4 years. Mostly based on the fact she left after i mentioned her name, one of them could have been... Also.


Saturday, November 16, 2024

2:40 AM Due to fog, and especially numbness of my body and brain, i became confused, missed a turn at an intersection, yellow turned red when i saw two white cars coming from the right. One in the right lane, just starting and the other, in the left lane, coming at some speed and i honked thinking i got the right of way and they stopped and let me pass. I did not drink for about 6 hours prior to that.

Don't know about that one, but i saw many intersections in which red turns green in one direction while still yellow on the perpendicular.

If i did stop in the middle of the intersection, for the one i saw first, just starting, i think i would have been hit from the right by the one in the left lane that came later, caught green and did not stop.

What's questionable again is the synchronization. They came and were arranged in the worst possible way. No, they probably were not sure i will miss the turn, but it was likely, given the fog and my shape and they were ready just in case. Color was white, having the least visibility in fog. In only saw the first one when it moved.

Earlier. I was in the car in the parking at Chinook and was about to eat a cookie when i saw a short blond woman with a curly blond little girl sleeping in her arms coming from inside the Casino towards the van next to me.

When she got closer i realized she was Asian with bleached hair but the girl was real. I got out of the car heading towards the casino while she was talking to an Asian men out of frame who kept sayin "no" while she was asking, disappointed, "no?" "why?" or "why not?" while i was passing her.

Inside at the upper floor i saw a black man resembling this guy. He had glasses or sunglasses though and yes, i just had a couple of brandies. I was really worried about other things, like being partly numb, almost not being able to walk and also having trouble speaking. My chin started to hurt again after i ate that cookie but i think i'm over it, as of tonight.

Inside, a huge crowd of nervous people. Many getting in between me and those playing while i was passing by. Many raising from their chairs and facing me. Many of the security guys walking towards me like they were going to ask me something, then changing direction in the last moment.

I saw one of the two guys who banned me, dressed in a light blue or gray shirt, while all the others were in uniform. On the upper parking lot, on top of the hill, there was a security van pointing bright white lights towards the lower. It was too far and there was too much light in the lot to make a difference, but it was blinding and annoying when walking out. Never saw that one before.

3:23 Nevermind, when i got up from the computer (next to the recliner) i realized i still have trouble walking, as the adrenaline ran down while i was writing.

3:43 It was quiet this morning upstairs, something that did not happen in months, as she was not here, probably to spare her from the smoke i was exposed to all morning. But now she just went to the restroom (and flushed). Now she is making noises in the bedroom where Angela sleeps. BTW there was a similar kind of smoke outside and inside the casino.

Yeah i saw him too, not far from the food bars, around midnight while i was waiting for my burgers. Then me and Angela went in the car, ate, were about to leave and Angela changed her mind and went back inside.

4:10 There was a weird sunset and a double rainbow behind us in our way there. Rainbow always brought me bad luck. 

4:25 At Road's End, i took a shot with my Kodak at Venus, the girl on the half shell. However, only an empty yellow shell came in the picture.

I was telling Angela. Amazing how the Greeks called planets using their word for wonderers. Planets, unlike stars, appear to be moving through constellations, because they are so much closer to Earth and also orbit around Sun.

Amazing how wonderer contrasts in English with the word plan. However, though wonderers, they move according to a plan (orbit) that is predictable for thousands of years from now on.
4:52 We're trying to eat, she started to pump the floor. It's that simple. I was looking at weathear radar arount Tacoma area, and there are some very weird patterns i never seen before (and i looke at those for many years. Could be radar artifacts?

5:00 Now dragging heavy objects across the floor of the whole apartment. Stomping really hard.

Friday, November 15, 2024

11:00 Was having palpitations, shortness of breath. Last night i cleaned the black mold from metal door, corners of the rooms. When it gets cold, water condensates on those areas and helps create mold. Mold gives me nose congestion and when i breath hard, the diaphragm muscle is sucked upwards and twists the heart and create palpitation.

To compensate, today they released some sort of smoke outside. I am pretty sure that if i walk away from the building there will be none though sometimes is in the whole area, from burning of a house or something.

2:30 Smoke was gone for a while, then came back. Really hard to breath. I think it's garbage smoke.

Thursday, November 14, 2024

2:45 AM Was feeling better last night. The wounds seemed to be closing more and more. Coincidentally i took some coconut oil in my mouth and i felt relief first at salivary gland and then the rest of the body.

But sine i am used with pain in the extraction place for so long, i really can't tell bur here's some proof. I ate two small pieces of chocolate and all the pains in different parts of the body came back. Again, taken more Augmentin, now waiting for the pains to subside.

But i've been thinking. Since that tooth was painful but not so much before extraction and it was stinking after, together with the one next to it does that mean that pain in other areas, starting with the lymph nodes next to ear, next to armpit, legs, etc.. are stinking as well? I mean if i did a biopsy would it come stinking? Like i am rotting alive or something?

4:24 Ultima tipă pe care am văzut-o coborând de sus, și asta a fost acum vreo lună, semăna cu ea.

Aș vrea să precizez niște chestii. Nimeni nu asasinează în felul acesta, ca să devină evident pentru oricine. Chestia e o tâmpenie, erau o sută de alte moduri de a o face, fără suspiciuni. Adică asasinezi și îți faci reclamă, ca să știe Poliția sigur ce a fost?

Pe de altă parte, dacă e ea, este într-adevăr o tipă cam nebună și fără scrupule. Asta după ce o aud că face sus, și după căutătură. Dacă e ea, o face în mod sigur șantajată. Și nu se teme de nimic.

4:35 Ok just figured why Shaggy was laughing like crazy after Sting said red-handed (or was it butt naked?). Anyways, if you (get lucky and) bang the girl next door (Alice) you can't possibly get caught red-handed, right?... Ha ha ha ha ha...

BTW Sting's original accent when singing live gets annoying at times "forget". Probably Americans think it's British and Brits think it's American but i'm telling you, it's Eastern European (Hungarian to be more precise).

5:05 I am back to what i was yesterday. No more soreness of the lymph nodes. Keep taking Augmentin. Some sort of little finger like granulation stuff is starting to cover my dry socket.

8:10 When i drink i do stupid things. Went and smoked outside. Ate pizza. Can't remember if i rinsed with salt water. I slept a couple of hours. Now my whole chin hurts. 5 out of 10. Like last night after i ate chocolate. The area surrounding the infected tooth and the one next to it is sensitive when i touch with my tongue (did not improve much). I have been 7 days on antibiotics.

Wednesday, November 13, 2024

1:04  AM Amazing how much early Smokie has borrowed from early Stewart... Sally vs Maggie... Raspy voice and all (how they do it, drink something sour and cold? there's got to be a trick, make your voice sound like you have a cold). Blowing hot air?

BTW this last "AI Overview" answer again freaks me out...  However it's just a piece of text picked from a site, yes maybe by AI. Amazing how google added this AI thing when it's nothing more than the old searches results... A ok, for the casual observer it may look like i'm getting all my answers from the machine...


2:05 PM It was... 4 hours of big noise and vibration as they said it would. They used the original design, no modifications. But they finished. No more stairwell work tomorrow, except maybe painting. In which time i wrote an entire entry in the other blog. Doing something so i don't go nuts.

Was trying to relax, watching some funny videos. Then i felt like smoking a cigarette. Went outside, two F15s from nearby base passed above at about 1000 ft, with much screaming and whistling. Then a car came at the kindergarten while i was smoking.

8:45 Went outside to finally take some stuff from near the door i was stumbling upon for days weeks (de-cluttering) and put it in the trunk (ok a sack of empty cans, some pieces of white foam). No cars in sight, except a white SUV which was  moving slo-mo, at 1 mph, bowing after the big bump behind my car, with an Asian lady at the wheel. It happens all the time. How do they know when? (It freaks me out).

Monday, November 11, 2024

1:12 AM Sincer să fiu, omul pare plictisit. Blazat. Burned out. De când îl știu, din copilărie. Samskara.

9:40 Last night i thought i was done with my teeth. No more pain, no more chills, sockets are closing so i stopped taking antibiotics, after 5 days since extraction. Last night could not help myself and went and smoked. Since it was raining, it seemed convenient to go under the stairs. Last time some car with loud exhaust passed, hit the big bump (only in front of our building, rest are much smaller).

Then as hours passed, i started go get numb and stiff, all over. At around 8 i finally decided to take another Augmenting though i had no infection symptoms. Right after, i had a twitch in one of my feet. In about an our as the antibiotic was at peak in my blood stream all stiffness was gone. Look like either Tetanus or Botulism symptoms to me.

One more hour and the concentration of antibiotic will be half, another one, another half and in about 4-5 hours i will have too little. Have 19 pills left. I just opened the bottle i got from the dentist.

All this time she was dancing upstairs. But i thought today it could have been a different, lighter person, like they always are. I thought i recognized the steps of the person that lives across the alley in building D sometimes i think is Alexa. She of course was moving in the rhythm of my thoughts.

Then i started to have a severe diarrhea. Extremely stinking. Yes i have been drinking litters of diet decaf soda a day. Then i went to the shower, thinking how stupid i was to smoke there. There are half inch spaces between those planks. S...t from their shoes can fall in my head and get into my mouth. Literally. they could have traces of litter dust in their carpet from the cats.

BTW i remember i saw in the last few days some silicon absorbent material on the asphalt at the entrance of the complex. Everybody coming this way would have gotten some on their wheels and then flying around.

Then when i got at the computer, i saw an email from the management saying... they are going to rebuild the stairwell. 13 and 14. Imagine the noise.

I'm not saying it's in the best shape, last summer i complained myself, they said they did a temporary fix. But i'm sure they will not seal the space between planks. However, whatever dirt was there it will be gone with no trace.

So yet another coincidence?

Then right after, about 20 minutes ago she upstairs left. She had a jacket on her head, but can't remember if it was raining. Also hard to tell the height. Maybe a few inches taller than the (Honda) Element, maybe the same, i don't know. No body shape to tell weight. Ok i remember now. I saw some medium size legs in colored yoga pants. And a very white arm with no tan no nothing.

10:14 I feel almost normal. Some stiffness in my toes and muscles of my jaws. Irritation on my face after shower, probably from dust in the air. Good thing i did not go to sleep before catching it.

4:20 PM It's almost 12 hours since i took the last Augmentin. It seems like i am better than 4 months ago when i could not go one for more than 4 hours or 4-8 patches. No more wound at the toe, almost no more wound at my teeth extraction place. However there is a little left at the bulges near my ears and some stiffness all around.

Since i know i can come back any time to a normal state with one Augmentin, i'm trying to see how long can i go without any.

A little reward video between two searches. As i was watching, the cats upstairs started to jump around. How they know what i'm watching?


8:15 That's it. The pink ones are swollen. Both size, did not change in the last 5 years. From there, through lymph canals (not shown here) to my whole body. But recently only if i get exposed to cold. Smoking outside that is.

9:05 Angela is doing some traditional Romanian meat patties in the oven. When it started to smell, she made her entrance, after 11 and a half hours (not missing).

Sunday, November 10, 2024

5:30 AM Fell asleep after 4:30. Woke up chocking, almost could not catch my breath. There was some smoke or mold in the air and my nose got severely congested. Was about to post this but also browsing some pictures when she woke up and marched to the bathroom. Yes she flushed but i don't hear that very often.

200 PM As i was trying to get more sleep she came home and started to violently hit the floor with her feet.

And yes i was getting ready to post something.

I would have slept now if she didn't come. She was the reason i took off yesterday for Spirit Mountain.

2:05 Ok let's get this over with. This is what i was thinking to post about. About a month ago i sat at Spirit Mountain next to a woman resembling her. She was with a man about the same age but thin with blue or green eyes. The man gave me a sarcastically accomplice look which made me mad.

In 1986 i met at IMU a woman also resembling her. Ioana Bîlă (the ortography changed after 90 from î to â inside words so it must have been î). Very short, kinda sexy and willing.

She told me "her husband was cheating" as she was in constant look for new partners. She had the beautiful playful accent from Bucharest or elsewhere in Southern Romania which drove me nuts. She said she was from Bucharest which was rare in Bacău. I think i might have an idea who the father could have been. He was next in line, his name starts with T and his father was a colonel thus protected.

Not talking about brown + brown eyes whatever, but short + short = short, and short + tall equals medium. I am tall.


Amazing how i always believed he said "don't think twice, don't think twice!" like an answer, imitating the devil at his left ear. Good idea i put the lyrics here (of which i never understood much anyways except the main idea).


5:15 Here she appears with green eyes but could be a camera artifact.
11:30

Am fumat 2 țigări afară la 9 grade Celsius și m-a luat un fel de amorțeală începând de la zonele care apar învinețite de trauma de la 3 dinți scoși care s-a întins la mâni picioare. Am mai păți așa și alaltăieri. Ieri am fumat în cazino în zona de fumători și nu am avut nimic.

Infecția a pornit de acolo și s-a răspândit în alte zone pe care eu le conider traumatizate de la mulții ani și ore pe zi de folosit celularul, wi-fi-ul. Întrebare. Ce dreq de clostridium e acela care te paralizează mai ales dacă ești vaccinat confirmat cu test pentru 3 din ele (TDAP)?

Mai era la IMU un tip din București, tot așa subinginer care făcea șepci. Era Mac Popescu mai înalt ca mine? A și Cărămidaru, primul meu șef care semăna cu Țopescu. Da, pe vremea când a fost mazilit (1986). După vreun an "a fugit în Turcia, Italia și Canada".

Al doilea meu șef, Givnici, care semăna cu un fost șef al (tot) KGB-ul, împreună cu care am băut butoaie de bere. Angela Ciochină, cea mai bună colaboratoare a mea. Olivia Newton John. Alții.

Am deschi știrile oh boy. Mai ține cineva minte, am încercat să explic ce sunt flare-urile, un cuvânt care nu are echivalent într-un cuvânt în românește. Lumânări de semnalizare? Din alea care se pun pe drum când ai accident.

Flare le mai spune la alea care le aruncă aeronavele de luptă (avioane, elicoptere) când sunt urmărite de rachete cu senzor termic, pentru a le atrage departe de avion.

Știrile de azi sunt iar pline de flare-uri. Voi încerca să exemplific pe blogul principal. Nu prea îmi place tema asta pentru acasă dar asta e.

Saturday, November 9, 2024

2:00 I forgot how i did it but i figured it out. She moved here with the sole purpose to annoy screw me. The loud music when she comes home started in about that period. But she was here since that Chinese woman moved out, or about a year ago.

I stayed away for a longtime. Actually it was not hard, she was never inviting. Always in a hurry, always going about "her business". Well, a couple of exceptions. That night when she said hi and more recently when i was coming from the Amazon locker and she scared me yelling at her dog being just behind me.

Both times in the area of the complex where that guy came the other night.

Three more. One morning when i was coming from the bins and she got right in front of me with her dog. More people staring. One other morning she came really close to my entrance with her dog, acting like maybe drunk. Most recent. One night she was real close to the entrance, with back towards me, talking on the phone.

The reason i approached her that night is because she gained my trust by doing something but i can't tell now. Maybe later.

Then after i realized where the infection was really coming from i decided to go to the dentist, she did the move with her bodyguard. Got the confirmation when i asked the dentist to smell those. Two out of three lower incisive pulled had their roots darker and smelled like dirty laundry. And the infection was on for a very longtime and the bulges on my mandibulae are there unchanged for at least ten years to confirm it.

In that day after i came from the dentist i went to the liquor store and when i came back she was still at the car as when i left, with the hood popped, engine started, waving at me, hoping i will come over with my lip swollen from the anesthetic and the intervention that had blood on it and with a bottle of gin in a brown bag in my hand.

Probably to do another show with her bodyguard.

But i didn't because it was a dejavu since that day i left for Tacoma and her car was ok after, like after yesterday. (Did  not realize my swollen lower lip had a bit of blood on it).

BTW there is bone exposed around one of those and is granulating and i know it would take months to heal.

Though i figured it out, can't put it aside. I can hear every time she comes "home" in the evening, with the music loud at her car. One out of three times when i go outside i run into her which statistically is improbable.

The story of my life. Most women i ever met acted in similar ways or worse. And yes, i ran out of cigarettes.

3:30 Opened the door to go to the car to search for cigarettes. I found none There was this car on the alley illumining in this direction. Then when i climbed down the stairs, i saw it. When i got in the car, it started to move and it parked in front of her entrance (when the green F truck who pushed the Chinese' woman SUV usually parks), with no light in or outside.

Found a really long cigarette butt in the sealed jar with butts. Going back to smoke.

3:50 Uneventful. Going to netflix, maybe sleep. But i slept in the evening.

5:22 Today i noticed something was moving when i was pushing with my tongue. Then i looked in the mirror. Though the holes where the teeth were are covered with clots, the whole area in front of where the teeth were is moving. Got a fracture and i never pressed anything like food in that area.

I moved it around trying to figure how big it was and now it hurts like hell. It was not blue or anything just dark pink. The whole chin now hurts, about 5 on a scale of one to ten.

I believe it already started to heal and now i screwed around.

7:20 She's running the kitchen disposal for 5 minutes now. I went and tried mine to compare the noise to make sure. Never did that before for so long. Exactly when i went to sleep.

10:34 Moving the fractured bone, Running the kitchen disposal (vibrating the sink), resonance from upstairs with some dishes in it for more than 24 hours, me smoking outside at 4 AM with temperature at its lowest, restarted the infection i had in the first day after extraction that spread again to adjacent areas.

Top of mouth, bulges on mandibula, sinuses, tonsils, under arm lymph nodes, hands etc.. Mostly tissue damaged as i said many times before.

On top of that, i had a severe episode of dysphagia following a whole day of marching upstairs and breathing mineral silica dust that irritated esophagus after it got eliminated from lungs.

Probably the worst i ever had, cause i chocked when i tried to vomit being kind of drunk. Finally had this idea and took small amounts of some very concentrated backing soda to neutralize the acid in my esophagus that was hurting really bad, blocking the swallowing reflex and then the content moved to stomach.

Slept one hour and got awakened by the phone's alarm that was set at 9 like for Wednesday when it didn't ring. Stupid and lucky cause the pain and chills were growing so i too 500 mg more of Augmentin and within one hour the pain and chills subsided. There are shootings taking place at a nearby range.

Ate while writing here, being kinda mad, moved that piece of bone again, pretty bad.

No it was not my idea to pull all three adjacent teeth in the same time. The dentist said we'll pull one first to see how i'm doing and then the others. Don't know when the fracture happened but most certain during anesthesia and my first meal was liquid (from blender with a straw). Angela got a similar episode with a dead piece of bone about the same size eliminated after a month or so.

On the other hand. Two of the teeth were infected and should have been removed, third was a gamble.

11:18 Got my antibody tetanus test result, is in range. I got immunity (protection). Test cost me 141 dollars which i will try to send to my insurance.

You can get this test and many others, appointments for sample collections, simply by creating a quest account on a wired PC or downloading the app but that would mean to use your cell phone which i am not advising.

My theory is, because the disease does not give you immunity, and the vaccination does not work after incubation, your antibody test will be low (out of range) after vaccination while having tetanus. 

3:20 Slept a few hours. I'm stable, back to how i was last night. Got a big brown bruise inside my lower lip and around tongue base. One piece of bone sticking, granulated. The outer wall of 2 or 3 sockets is moving. If that piece of bone is dead, it will be a big spur.

3:45 I had 29 teeth extractions in my life but this was by far the worst experience. About the same level as that oral surgery in June 2006 to remove a piece of material that went through the tip of the tooth inside the bone during a tooth canal procedure. When i was left with one square inch of the jaw bone exposed, in about the same area.

4:34 Maybe i was wrong. I assumed you don't get immunity after vaccination during the disease, but i believe the're only saying it is best to get it within 72 hours of exposure to completely avoid the disease.

But if the disease started and you are on antibiotics and antitoxin it should still probably work but now i'm not sure anymore.

Friday, November 8, 2024

12:PM I've been eating. Somebody is blowing the dust garbage from around the bins using a power blower. It happened last week too though i ate at a different time. Many times before. BTW. Where that garbage goes?

12:10 I can still hear the blower as he moved to a different bin.

12:13 I take it. If i don't go to the bins, they bring the bins to me. Bullying, generating low self esteem, seeding my food with air born pathogens.

1:12 She from above ate me alive (bullying) while i was finishing this. Intervening when i was straining my brain mostly probably generating a higher IR signature. Got literally, physically sick.

2:05 Upstairs it was quiet for a while as i was reviewing what i just wrote. When some ideas came to me and wanted to improve upon, she restarted. This time, moving and throwing to the floor heavy objects. Last night i tried to take a look inside the upstairs apartment from the yard but there is some sort of curtain or furniture separating that area. Now at the end of this paragraph i think she takes off.

7:00 PM She just got back and she's mad like hell.

Thursday, November 7, 2024

11:38 That's it. I'm done with my teeth. Three incisive pulled out in one appointment. I asked the dentis to smell them. First was smelling like a fungal infection. Like a yeast. Like how it's smelling in the apartment right now. Second, next to it, less, and the third i couldn't smell any.

Fungal, after 4 months of antibiotics. I killed the heck out of those in my body.

I figured it was the veneers. But how can be sure now, the smelling one had the veneer fallen months ago. The bulges at my mandibles, infected lymph nodes. It went all the way to my legs where the blood supply was cut due to much sitting.

I'm gonna be having fun, eating with a straw until it heals and then soft food until i get the new dentures done. BTW, i already started to feel the pain.

It has been what, a week since i didn't check the bins and lawn and stuff. They now started to let the bags in plain sight on the lawn. Trying to compensate for the low temperature? Also they didn't pick the leaves. Last time, they mowed and leaves got automatically in the bag of the mowing machine. It looks like i'm up to cleaning the yard, again. Last year they came to clean the day after i've already done it.

11:56 That was just an empty bag. There was a full one around the corner of the building on the right but was knotted. Double bagged and knotted. One more on the ground next to the bin with a lose knot. It must have been on top of the lids and fell when they emptied it. It looks like they took the bags thrown behind the bin and put it on a side when they emptied it today.

Then i thought. Maybe i shouldn't have been there, could have contaminated my new wound with bacteria from the bin. With the cold outside and stuff.

BTW i got an enormous lower lip with blood on it.

I think i'm gonna make a run to the liquor store.

BTW seeing that movie with JLO last night defending alone whatever gave me lots of courage for today's visit with the dentist. I recommend it (or similar first person fighting movies) for situations like these.

1:45 Yeah i went to the liquor store and stuff. Totally random, that is, not planned. I needed a drink after teeth extraction. I bought a green colored bottle with cheap weird tasting gin though i was advised not to. At the counter, the card machine had some... miscommunication problem, had to run the card twice.

2:05 Is that a cascading Shivalinga? Is that a Beetlejuice jacket (way before the movie).

I remember when i first heard this song. It was September 1978. I was in a train station at Mărășești, Romania. We were a huge group from Suceava, other counties going to Galați, for the 9 months mandatory military stage before college.

It was smelling like cooked bones from an animal glue factory nearby. 

Was dead tired from drinking all night, the smell was almost unbearable, and there was this guy from Suceava, my future roommate in the second year in college thrown on the shiny finished concrete station's floor and strumming realy hard a weird sounding guitar and singing it obsessively over and over and for some reason i was understanding cod or code, instead of cut (never heard the original until years after i got here in the US).

But now i think i might have got it right. The glue factory there, next to the  huge post WWI mausoleum (full of bones) was giving a wrong message to every passer by.

Or maybe it was a reminder of the dramatic cut of the territories of multi-national Austro-Hungarian empire (was reduced, to today's, well, Austria and Hungary) right after that war. The loss of Romanian majority Transylvania.


4:22 A whole revolution upstairs, with objects being dragged, dropped, heavy steps, while we are trying to eat.

4:45 Like many times before. We finished eating, she stopped.

8:00 Started to have pain in the evening, including sinuses area. I started taking again Augmentin, since he gave me a new prescription so i won't run out soon. Within an hour the pain is gone. Wanted to go smoke a cigarette but there's too much irritant smoke already. The kind that irritates my airways.