11:55 Când am văzut prima dată acea știre nu știam cum să reacționez. De obicei, când postam ceva mai de Doamne-ajută, cădeau drone la graniță. Acum că l-am găsit pe marele Sebastian Stan cuibărit într-o cazarmă a armatei de actori unguri maghiari, a venit drona întreagă și a survolat 14 km în interiorul României lăsând în urmă totuși mai puține dovezi.

Poliție aeriană internațională. Mi-a sunat bine când am citit prima dată, cu ani în urmă. Astăzi stau și mă întreb. Sub care jurisdicție?

Au ridicat 4 avioane, dar nu au doborât-o.

Poate nu a fost nici o dronă. Poate au vrut ei doar să ne sperie, așa. Bully. O umbră pe noile radare. Ca la revoluție, remember? Și mă uitam așa în neștire și deodată ochii mi-au căzut pe altă știre mai jos care conținea cuvântul curând. În curând. Și ca de obicei, ca unul care nu mai vorbește așa de mult limba română, am căzut în contemplație.

Există o familie întreagă sau două de cuvinte în română bazate pe două cuvinte latine. Curare și currere. Și în latină sunt ciudate pentru că deși au practic aceeași rădăcină, au înțelesuri divergente.

Curare, a avea grijă, ceea ce a dat în românește curat, curățat, cură, dar nu prea și verbul. A cura. Mă rog, există, dar e folosit rar.

Currere care ne-a dat adjectivul curând. Currendo. Adică mai la vale pe curent (neologism) ce mai. Posibil.

Da, există un sens pentru culus, însă nu e sensul principal, ceea ce mă miră. Nu prea vin din latină în română cuvinte pe sensul secundar, ignorându-se primul, care culmea, are legătură cu currere. Ok poate a venit din latina vulgară.

Să mă enervez nu mai pot fiindcă mi s-a uzat nervul enervării. Practic, mi s-au uzat toate emoțiile. Poate e de la diabet, nu știu. Totuși m-am motivat și am căutat să descifrez engima și am mers direct la vinovat. În dexonline se spune că vine de la culus.

Se pare, vorba lui Păunescu, că am fost osândiți pe vecie să fim români și să pupăm (subconștient) un culus de fiecare dată când vedem sau auzim cuvinte ca în curând, curat, etc..

Apropo, știe cineva cum se spune la a curăța în toată peninsula în afară de regiunea Puglia? Otto peni?

4:00 They do this all the time. Right now there is a black car with modified exhaust idling and blocking the alley, probably for the kindergarten, with a cute Latina at the wheel. Could be Stephanie Sigman.

6:33 PM Trouble breathing. Outside there is a thick smoke that is not fireplace smoke or wildfire smoke. Something from nearby resembling coal smoke. Like so many times before, they take advantage of the cold weather, to manifest their talents.

10:48 Nodul gordian semantic. Povești cu actori făcute on demand ca să acopere alte povești cu actori. Toate fiindcă există deja o legătură, foarte ciudată, între Sebastian Stan (SS) și Trump. Sebastian Stan pare să fie jucat într-o piesă de teatru live numită Butler (valet personal). Iar Trump a avut o încercare de asasinare pe care am demonstrat-o falsă într-o localitate numită Butler.

Gunoaie umane, fiindcă eu sunt cel care merg pe la tomberoane (garbage bins) să înnod pungi de câine.

Detalii despre investigația FBI asupra acelui atentat. Era explozibil în acele cutii? Una din ele pare să fie o cutie de plastic goală (plastic bin) deschisă la un capăt cu o altă cutie în ea, într-un unghi. Cred că dacă ar fi bănuit că era, FBI le-ar fi detonat undeva pe un câmp, nu fotografiat în liniște. Am și eu una din aia în mașină, pentru scule, dar galbenă.

La ce ar fi folosit. După împușcături, atentatorul nu mai avea nici o șansă. Apropo, unde este drona despre care se spune că ar fi folosit-o ca să survoleze zona înainte?

Trump are zilele astea toate privirile concentrate pe el și ei folosesc asta pentru a devia crizele majore prin tot felul de povești improvizate.

Am încercat să spun de mai multe ori, dar m-am oprit fiindcă pur și simplu nu am știut cum să formulez fraza. Astea nu sunt alegeri. Numai doi candidați care au prea multe puncte de vedere divergente. Alegătorii dacă aleg ori pe unul, ori pe altul, pierd din start punctele celuilalt.

11:00 AM Nu vă gândiți câți tineri pot citi știrea asta, spre smintirea minții lor. Sau poate asta vreți.

Teoretic, e posibil. Hai să spunem că la vale poate prinde 340 km/h. Ca să ajungi la viteza asta îți trebuie cel puțin 20 secunde timp în care faci aproape 1,5 km și vei merge cu 200 km/h mai repede decât celelalte mașini. Ajuns la 300 kmh faci 5 km pe minut.

Dar la 340 vei fi în zona de roșu a turometrului, moment în care uleiul nu mai ajunge la lagărele pistoanelor, din motiv de forță centrifugă iar motorul se va strica, bloca, posibil bloca transmisia și roțile, moment în care vei zbura (pe tarla).

Însă în video-ul de mai sus se vede că pe la 300 s-a atins o limitare soft, iar mașina a început să decelereze brusc. (Omul era nebun și norocos, avea și o avertizare de presiune la un cauciuc!).

Deci îți trebuie 1,5 km de drum (autostradă austriacă, whatever) pustiu care merge la vale, fără curbe, și un polițist chiar în acel punct ca să te înregistreze, sau mai mult drum pustiu până te înregistrează unul care e întâmplător pe acolo.

Dar apoi, cum te prinde? Într-un minut ești la 5 km distanță de polițist. Din câte știu eu, radarele portabile nu înregistrează numere, doar cele fixe, din cauză de distanță. La viteza aia, cum ar putea să-i prindă numerele?

Toate astea au un substrat, legat de postarea mea cu Karner. Țiriac e un clovn bătrân propulsat de propriile lui bă...i.

A ok m-am prins. A făcut o răceală de la curent când a mers cu 340 kmh cu geamul deschis.

4:44 PM Went to smoke in the back. Every time i do so i find new poops in the grass. Because i am relaxed and have time to look around. So i found one, very well camouflaged, came in for a bag, and the black girl at once came with her two dogs instead, moving aggressively, with an attitude.

Now if i go right after her, it would appear like i'm going to collect her leftovers, cause sometimes she misses. I was telling Angela. What a school they got. Also have to go to the W bin and look cause she does not knot.

5:05 An incredible amount of events followed. Two more women with dogs. Cars and SUVs arriving at bins in the same time with me. Yes i found the green bags of the black girl, unknotted in the bin.

Most important. Found three old ones in front of the spot with the Element. Dry, molded, still stinking. They do for weeks.

Others. Enough to say. They are not doing nothing. Just synching their "normal" activities with mine. A woman with a kid coming from the "kindergarten", crossing my path, going somewhere, on foot. All looking at me intrigued and sometimes with disgust, like i was the intruder and the perpetrator. Of bins and dog poops.

8:45 I had a good evening sleep and woke up with an idea. What if... the pulsation on my neck was caused by a dim mak blow? The night before i was drunk, sleeping in the car in the parking lot at Chinook Winds for about an hour. I was feeling weird, had trouble walking when i went to the restroom after i woke up or before i left.

At home i slept 3 hours and in the morning i had this feeling, like an invisible hand was strangulating me. I went and looked in the mirror and saw the pulsation and then i went to the ER.

I slept in the car in casino parking lots many times before, including Saturday at Indian Head.

There i was washing hands next to a young Japanese guy rather tall who looked and smelled like a homeless man. Monday morning at the ER i was stinking like i did not have a shower in a month though i had one less than 48 hours before.

12:10 AM 16 There is one more possibility. I slept with my head in such a position, probably many times, this time two days in a row, i damaged some major blood vessels of the neck. I have been doing this at least since i was in college. One night some colleague surprised me trying to fall asleep with my neck bent.

Probably being depressed, unconsciously trying to choke my right hemisphere, which could give me a high.

Can't remember exactly when, probably in 2008 i slept with my neck on the arm of the old couch that had under the thin layer of polyurethane foam a sharp edge, probably strangulating one branch of the vagus nerve which regulates heart beat. I woke up with a heart beat close to 200. I called an ambulance which was not coming, i drove myself to the hospital on a layer of ice that was covering everything.

While the ambulance was coming (i was hearing the siren), with a pulse oximeter on my finger showing 180, looking through the window (as the windshield was covered with ice), i found myself behind a Police car on deserted streets at night that stopped suddenly while i was crossing 217. Then at the ER i got hooked to a monitor and doctor told me.

I had atrial fibrillation with fast ventricular response. I stood there for about one hour and a half with that heart rhythm (did not want to lay down or sit).

Until a black "doctor" came. She was very black and very ugly and at a certain time she literally pushed me out of the way as i was pacing through the room while hooked to the monitor, interfering with the docs and assistants. I got so mad in about a minute my heart beat rate came to normal and then they released me, shortly after.

12:30 AM When i went outside yesterday to dispose of more than ten dog poops i got to inhale massive amounts of a weird smoke. It was the second time this week. I neglected to put a mask on. Ever since i keep coughing, feels like i'm out of air, a real torture. When i cough some sort of mucus comes from my lungs.

I believe in the smoke were sharp nano particles, something that may come from burning of aluminum foil, i don't know. Thing got exacerbated by a bit of ozone released by a lamp inside of a box with a fan. Really desperate.

10:50 One short Latina with a barking dog got incredibly close to my window when i was handling a credit card near the computer.

I had an appointment Thursday at 4 with a doctor i've been seeing a couple of times at Legacy. He is retiring next month. They gave be 14 tablets of Augmentin when i went to the ER last Monday (a week ago). I ran out of those.

Without those, i am getting numb and my muscles start tightening in my whole body, starting with that toe. Getting much worse after taking showers. I messaged him saying i needed more until the appointment and his assistant messaged me back saying he will see me in two days. When i looked in my chart, i saw they moved the appointment for Wednesday.

1:05 PM Ok m-am prins la faza cu planșeul din Piața Unirii. Este plin de simbolisme la adresa mea și la ce postez. Prima chestie, Nicușor. Eu nu sunt Nicu Ceaușescu. A doua, planșeul. "Tipa" de sus care mă distruge cu zgomote. A treia, poliția care în cazul meu, nu intervine. Nu are cum fiindcă Guvernatorul, șeful Poliției, primarul, șeriful, etc.. sunt toți actori unguri. Tot statul Oregon, SUA, lumea e controlată de EI.

2:00 PM I was surprised there was no smell today. Though i found an open bag in N bin. Somebody added some toilet deodorant in the SW bin. There are two open bags there and those are not smelling.

4:35 PM You know what? It's so nice being dead! When Angela came today and knocked i had trouble awakening and walking to the door, standing, breathing. Same reason i get so dizzy when i smoke. I am loaded with it. So they may be right. Nirvana should be for all. Or better nobody should be be born on this Earth, after they (we) are scorching it.

I know it's a contradiction. You don't feel nothing when you're dead. It's probably some neurotransmitters kicking in when you are close to it.

When i take a shower is going through the very thin skin of my soles. Yesterday shower has even been longer than usual. Redwood dust is the vector and the gate. I think it's a combination of bad bacteria mutated by the dust, arising from rotting seed fallen from upstairs and the Aucuba Japonica toxin at my bedroom's window.

I bought the cement for this purpose but then i was too lazy to use it and forgot about. So today i was decided, mixed some with water and sprinkled it with a watering can around the patio where the seeds have fallen and then bumped into the Japonica and remembered.

6:36 Six Moons.

7:20 I was laying in bed at 7 AM when she started. I was thinking of how sick i am (living due to antibiotics) and how i got here. First, a shower. Then she came exactly over me, in that corner of the bedroom while i was thinking on how could life have evolved fed by energy from underwater thermal vents on one of the moons of Jupiter, with no light.

Could it had reach the surface, with human like creatures, technology age? Could the icy ocean on Europa have been more liquid let' say tens of thousands of years ago?

Christine McVie manager at Sussex Village Apts. Smoke coming from walls at

 Eagle Crest with Kelly Clackson as my neighbor. Being flooded by smoke most day and night yesterday and for years before that in here. Sargent Sparkle of Lake Oswego Police played by János Áder etc. etc.. Dog poops and Dominicans. And then i started to curse Hungarians in my mind and she dropped a heavy object. How did she know?

I always suspected there is athlete upstairs making all the noise, because of the energy exhibited. About a week ago, a Hungarian handball player wrote on the Social Media she hates Romania. Could it be her upstairs?

Yesterday when there was that thick smoke outside i did not hear much noise upstairs. This morning their is no smoke but she stomps.

She left about 5 minutes ago or when i wrote that paragraph with her name. Now i expect smoke will start.

7:48 It is the filter element that got trashed by the smoke yesterday that now puts smoke smell in the room. So i just started it and ordered a new one. They were usually delivering those within hours, from a nearby warehouse, now when i need the most they say tomorrow by 10 PM.

8:13 Foot for a foot. I know what this is about. Another one.

8:30 I said cold is the biggest problem with my foot. I was sitting here at the computer waiting for the New Skin to dry out and started to get the chills.

Just discovered. The other problem is New Skin bandage is porous. If it wouldn't be, i would just be pushed aside by the perspiration and peel off. Also the indication is to use it up to three times daily, in only applied once as it seem solid there.

There are plenty of clostridium bacteria coming from the bins and i was getting close to them to remove the dog bags, some times in slippers. Last night there was smoke also. Smoke mutates the bacteria, as the antibacterial red mulch.

Also. After 3 months, amoxicillin quit working. They got me 14 tablets of Augmentin at the ER last Monday but i an finishing those and can't find a doctor to prescribe me more. Last night i tried two sites that give you an online consultation and ended up with 50 bucks charged on a credit card for nothing.,

After the last shower i only sprayed a thin layer and did not add any the next day. Got really sick when i got at Lucky Eagle, with numbness in all my body. I only got better after i applied a layer in the car while driving back home, but some 8 ours later.

8:35 Țiriac a fost la Viena pentru o răceală. Sau pentru a distrage atenția de la ce am postat și ce am repostat mai sus.

9:15 I also had a pretty bad cold, starting with a bad sore throat, loosing of the voice, much mucus in my respiratory ways. I know where it came from. They left a couch in the rain at the SW bin.

With all the antibiotics taken, could only have been fungal. Probably the reason antibiotics don't work on a cold. It reverted after one single gargling with diluted apple vinegar but it took days to completely clear out. Now Angela is coughing and sneezing too.

Did not feel any smell this morning, probably due to cold temperature. So i went to take a picture of that couch but it's gone, thank God. However i found a small one in the grass. Came to grab a bag, when i was done knotting it, i saw another one. Big. And then another in next to door. Which prompted me to go and check the bins. I found 2 bags in every one.

9:55 One poor woman from poor family looking sharp, with a samurai cock and an attitude owning a broken tan SUV (that never breaks) which makes a terrible sound started it as i was breathing stuff from the W bin and from the bags i was knotting there. The vibration again raised all the smells from the bin. The result is i got more chills.

10:12 As we eat. There is a vibration in the distance. She started her walk upstairs, pumping the floor.

10:40 Asta pentru că am postat video-ul Dreams cu Fleetwood Mac. Cum puteți crede că o persoană oarecare, fără mulți ani de studii vocale poate să cânte chiar așa? Rockya cu aripi?



I met her when i was 10 or 12 and she sixteen, but looking (and pretending) my age (she was so petite when young). She came at our house as a relative (nephew of a guy from Iași who looked like Mircea Lambrino). A couple of more times in Iași. One more time in Iași after i finished college. She refused an invitation.

And yes we partly climbed a (small) mountain and i took pictures of her (was already processing those myself). I was broken hearted because my father beat me a few days before (never done it before or after), for no good reason.

Most likely i was playing the accordion to her. "the music there well, it was hauntingly familiar". (she might have been born there), i vaguely remember her (Hungarian singer) last name from Câmpulung.

Last time, here in the US in 1996 she acted as a recruiter at Express personnel and an electronic assembly instructor, but she made me a technician which landed me a job at Credence, but that is another story. Ok one more time when i went to Express and she gave me a janitor job which i refused.

Never had a clue until recently.

Pour... Les... Roumains...


11:40 Trump is in good health and will be cause he's got ninja doctors. The same guys who are making me sick every day for so long.

4:45 Angela knows. Every time when that "stomach smell" comes out of me, i have to go and pick them. It's just a reaction of my body to the bacteria. The hiatal hernia opens up. Got 8 so far only from the grass. Must be in the weekend the dogs poop more. Found 2 more in the SW bin, but i didn't have tool with me.

While i went picking poops, the ice-cream van driven by yet another neat "Latina" with a samurai coque came and is playing la cucaracha for 15 minute now, delaying that moment when i can triumphantly tie the last knot. What do i know. 10 bucks for 4 qts. Used to be 2.50 or something about ten years ago when i started my diabetes with it. Still.

The fridges are part of the apartment furniture. You can buy one bucket and have it for a month? So it's absurd.

5:00 15 more minutes and is still here. I'm just curious, how do you sell ice-cream online?

6:26 The reason i was chocking and coughing in here for almost an hour is outside the perceived smoke index is above 100.

10:45 Could it be... a never-ending mole gasser? I have not seen mole mounds around here in a long time...

11:35 I think my pulsation on the neck is related to the activities upstairs. I slept this afternoon and woke up with all kinda pains around that area.

One of the possibilities is they are exacerbating my BP by a cascade of noises with a feedback on my vital signs. But there are other possibilities, like using focused infra/ultra sounds, or other similar things. They are trying to make it look in the end like something "natural". I remembered minutes before i saw it for the first time i felt like something was tightening around my neck. Like an invisible had chocking me.

1:21 There is smoke outside, supposedly from a fireplace. Perception on AQI index, around 80.

1:23 We had a free night at Lucky Eagle. I knew there is a farm of some sort over there, like  there area cows on a pasture across the street from Indian Head. Both casinos were smelling like it. Basically, it was smelling worse then here. Could have been some dog s... involved in it. All of a sudden i started to miss... home.

1:25 One of the worst drives of my life. And i've done some. Coming back from Tacoma to Portland. There was constantly at least one offending vehicle next to me. The way they were moving and coordinating with each other suggests all traffic, all cars being coordinated by AI.

I saw by example a woman making a very risky maneuver, coming from behind, narrowly wiping my rear and passing and when i looked she was just casually leaning her hand on the wheel, looking bored. Let me see if can remember. One rotating concrete truck. Portable toilets. Old stinking fridge.

I was very tired after being exposed to all that s...t at the hotel. Also neglected to put liquid bandage on my toe. After i massaged that area, my whole body got numb. Took more Augmentin, got better but not all the way. The right description was... Barely alive. Finally realized and went to a rest area and put some liquid bandage. 

Some drivers in front with old vehicles, bit and small, some 50 years old, making me drowsy. Others from behind using their high beam to wake me up when i was about to fall asleep. I'm telling you guys, and keep repeating, this part of the country is not governed by the US.

BTW There was one State Patrol SUV on the right and i think i was 1 mph over speed limit + 10, that is 71 in a 60 area, singled out (all the cars where either way in front or way in back) and kept looking in the mirror wile i passed some piece of furniture on the left shoulder.

When i got home i crashed in bed and the woman upstairs woke me up several times.

Got a box padded inside with aluminum foil and and a fan and a UV lamp in there and put it under couch where the floor is wet all the time from underneath and one would not believe the amount of mold smell mixed with ozone came out of there. I stopped it now because there was too much ozone and UV leaking in the room.

Now the smoke from outside is giving me a headache and a nose congestion.

1:43 Lipsă acută de cunoștințe economice. Mai există și cronică? Mitul bate realitatea și subliminalul conștientul, iar mârlănia profesionalismul.

Primul Ministru era o funcție irelevantă pe vremea lui Ceaușescu, când totul era decis de el.

Unul din motivele pentru care au scos acum tâmpenia asta? Pentru că m-am gândit zilele astea foarte mult la un coleg de al meu de grupă, Dăscălescu, care împreună cu proful de fizică Titi Pasnicu m-a băgat într-un mare rahat. Era frumușel, brunet, cu un zâmbet arogant și mult mai matur decât mine.

Toată grupa copia la seminar, eu nu eram prea interesat de parțialele alea, dar nu știu ce mi-a venit, am scos și eu cursurile pe genunchi, sub bancă. 

În momentul acela, Dăscălescu i-a făcut semn profului iar proful a venit direct la mine iar toți ceilalți au strâns foile. 

Celălalt motiv este numele lui. Unul care dăscălește, are o lipsă acută de cunoștințe economice (numai ei, bandiții de import, știu cum se cheltuiește bugetul) și de engleză.

7:45 At six AM i woke to let Angela and noticed i got other areas with numbness, though not as bad anymore. Added a couple of patches, but then when i tried to sleep i realized i had palpitations because of very congested nose so i went outside to check. Forgot to mention, there is a couch next to SW that has been rained upon.

Found one red open bag inside the N bin, like last night, impossible to knot cause it was too dirty at the opening. So i just tossed it in the back of the bin. A woman i haven't seen before was maneuvering her VW and stopped really close to me, putting a disgusted face.

Found one covered with mold on the other side of the mailbox alley. One piece of molded moss. One water bottle on the red mulch. There is a box next to the visitor spots i caught in a picture almost two weeks ago (it turned black after a couple of rains).

8:15 Palpitations are much more frequent than before the episode with the ultrasound. Keep thinking if he didn't heat up a bit the vagus nerve when he did the carotid ultrasounds for ten minutes at one side only. But could also be the lisinopril they started me on at the ER.

2:55 I have to reveal here a type of abuse that was consistent with all my encounters with health providers. They write stuff in my chart knowing it would be read by anybody who can get my passwerd, especially now that i got rid of the two seps verification process that was taking me a to a number to call.

This time is easy to see cause i have access to doctor's notes through MyChart and at Providence the transcription software seems to be working.

"Secondarily, he is also complaining of a bounding right carotid pulse that he feels is due to aneurysmal disease. Suspect this is just related to anatomical variant being very close to the skin but we will obtain a carotid duplex to ensure this."

The pulsation was visible through the skin for anyone who was near me. It still is though much fainter. Could not go unnoticed to a physical or even a look to my face. However i did not feel any pulse attached to it as it does not come from a carotid but a jugular vein. Any doctor could not have mistaken this for a carotid aneurism which i didn't say i had.

"He reports to me that he will attempt to take these orally but likely will continue to apply them cutaneously. We had an extensive discussion regarding this process not being evidence-based."

That was speculation. I did attempt to take those orally and after three days my stomach was hurting so much i had to stop.

We did not have an "extensive discussion". Can't discuss much when the monitor is beeping and showing a blood pressure over 200/100, one nurse is starting an IV and one tech is doing (and never finishes) an ultrasound.

Biggest advantage of transdermal (the right word he should have used, cutaneous which does not come from cute, it comes from Latin cutis which means skin while derma comes from Greek via Latin and is more used in English) administration of antibiotics is avoiding first-pass metabolism.

Antibiotics taken orally are half metabolized by liver before even reaching the rest of the body which means half of the medicine is wasted while loading your liver with what the liver thinks is toxin.

Another big advantage is the administration being (more) continuous, we don't have the half life issue, which means on oral administration concentration vary a lot from one dose to another. Half life is the time in which the antibiotics reaches in your body half the initial concentration after administration.

Half life time for clavulanic acid, the fancy expensive stuff that is added to amoxicillin to make Augmentin, is about an hour. On the prescription the instruction was twice daily. One can figure what is left of the initial concentration after halving that 12 times.

"Cutaneous" (transdermal) administration works and is applied for numerous medicines including experimentally for antibiotics.

In this example the medicine is given at the exact time of  half life. Practically, in the case of Augmentin, this is impossible, you cannot ask a patient to take a pill every hour or so. They solve the issue by giving you enormous amounts (like they do) that would not let the concentration in your blood go under therapeutic concentration in 6 or 8 hours of half lives.

However, in the case of my prescription, each dose is given at... 12 half lives. This is one of the reasons some may say antibiotics don't always work. Indeed my symptoms (chills, numbness, pain, cold and stiffness in all toes and stiffness in other parts of the body that have been most recently exposed to cold) would reaper after about 6 hours of taking the Augmentin, which means rest of the time till next does i had mostly none in my system.

It is true. There is also a build up in your system that is shown here, but that is for the half life time administration (would have been an hour in the case of Augmentin).
BTW i asked him for a tetanus test which i suspect i have and he said it is not readily available because is so rare in the US. This is weird because you can get a tetanus shot at every drug store.

4:05 I am staring at his picture and i don't recognize the doctor person i've seen at the ER. That person was looking Indian (from India), this one looks Asian. At least for the part he was not wearing a mask.

4:20 I wanted to do this. Upload a video with my pulsation. I feel a very faint pulse with my finger. I listened carefully with the stethoscope, there are no bruits. If i move my finger further away where i think the carotid is i feel a much stronger pulse. If it was an "anatomic variation" i should have seen that before, right? I think it started this weekend.

6 PM I wrapped the UV lamp in an aluminum foil and let just a bit of UV to get out in the room. This way it won't hurt so much my eyes especially through polycarbonate glasses or skin but will kill most germs in the air. When Angela came i turned it off cause she can't stand it, but now that i fell poop smell and she is in the bedroom i turned it back on.

Just before i left for Reno i had  the lamp under my desk with direct view only to my right eye. I accidentally stepped on the switch and turned it on and was exposed for a significant amount of time.

The result was my eye was hurting for the hole trip there and the next day and got me really scared.

6:02 I think metformin works, lowering the blood sugar mainly by killing bad bacteria in my gut. That may come from the bins. However, it gives me cramps, probably by selecting more acidophilus. If i only knew... I had it prescribed for so long, never took it... I would have avoided many problems...

9:40 Romanian Golden Gate, made by Japan, in/for Romania. Cel mai probabil podul e prea elastic și se "unduiește" când trece un utilaj mai greu (TIR, etc.) iar asfaltul prost (rigid) crapă. În acest caz, singura soluție e asfaltarea cu cauciuc dărâmarea și de căutat un nou contractor (design). Mult succes cu recuperarea investiției, la curțile Europei, mai ales acum când e Orban la butoane.

Nu e greu de stricat, sunt doar două turnuri și niște cabluri. Se poate face realiza până la sfârșitul anului.

7:00 You go to toilet, you flush. You throw an open doggie bag in the bin, you don't, cause of course the bin is not a toilet.

8:00 Looks a bit like the tech who did my ultrasound yesterday. The nurse tried to chase him away but he insisted he was the only vascular tech on duty.

8:25 Having trouble accessing MyChart at Providence on this new computer. I've done the two steps verification, filled my "demographic data" and then the site told me to call a number which i did and now i "wait in line" there for more than ten minutes.

8:50 It looks like someone finally picked the phone and now i can access my chart. The tech name is not in there. All tests came ok.

VAS CAROTID DUPLEX BILATERAL

Indications for Study:Aneurysm Artery of Neck [I72.0].

Carotid Findings
Bilateral internal carotid arteries showed no evidence of plaque.
The proximal subclavian artery velocity/spectral data is normal bilaterally.

VAS LOWER EXTREMITY ARTERIES

 Right

 Duplex interrogation of the right lower extremity revealed no evidence of hemodynamically significant arterial occlusive disease.
 Right lower extremity arterial physiologic exam is normal at rest. No arterial insufficiency demonstrated.

 Left

 Left lower extremity arterial physiologic exam is normal at rest. No  arterial insufficiency demonstrated.

1:44 Ultrasound effects. Thermal index. Angela who was seing the display of his tool told me today he was taking like ten images and saving just one for each point. I know he stayed on my righ carothid for about 10 minutes.

3:45 Trick of the day. I did not read Angela's email who works today till 3:30 so i went a couple of times to unlock the door when i heard a car's door slamming and all i could see was people bringing or taking kids from the improvised kindergarten accross the alley. 

4:08 BTW those kids have to breath the same air that i breath in here.

7:35 It would be not the first time when i see words derived etymologically from words of grammatically different parts of speech. Preposition de in Latin means about, from, etc.

But in French it took a strange turn. It compressed with the articles derived from from Latin pronoun/determiner ille, illa, illud to form the partitive article for some gender (masculine) like du.

Could it also be the origin of definite article in German and English as well?

In Romanian by example, these two constructions are equivalent. "da seama" meaning word by word "give account", "be accountable" (coming directly from Sanskrit samudaya, da in Romanian meaning give, just like in Sanskrit) and seama is considered articulated by the suffix a) and "da de seamă", where seamă is not.

Yeah but we have tAH.

10:45 Saturday i took a shower before i went to Indian Head. Trouble is, i can't have too many of those because all the patches get wet and some get loose and fall so i try maybe twice a week. In there, just before i left, i stood at the mirrors and washed my hands next to a homeless man.

He was young and tall but i think he was Japanese, and something subtle in his looks told me he was not being in that business all his life but only recently. Maybe only for a week or so. Whatever. He was stinking really bad.

Sunday did not take any more showers and in the evening when i came from Chinook Angela told me i stink very bad, and i felt it too, more than usually. Monday morning i had to rush to the hospital before i had a chance to take one, because of extremely high blood pressure. When i got there, in the waiting room, i realized i stank exactly like that guy.

In the room Angela tried to keep the door open but still. Was very bad. Doctor came with a mask on. First nurse left.

BTW that thing pulsating on my neck i think is not an artery, but a jugular vein. Cause i don't feel any pulse when i put my finger to it and is too much up front and ultrasound for carotid anomalies came negative. Doctor could not have miss that. Ultrasound of the carotids was unnecessary.

There are certain bacteria that develop on your body and clothes when you live that way and i fully caught them. Finally took a shower yesterday evening or 48 hours after the most recent one, i slept some, but now, after about 24 hours i started to stink again that way.

I think high blood pressure was due to dehydration and also a coordinated cascade of noises (from upstairs, cars outside).

11:10 Un nou show. Samudaya.

11:45 Small ears. Short hair. Round head? Too fat?

12:08 Earlier. Got really stiff on the back. My deltoid muscles were like stone. I added two patches, one on each. Started to feel better. Suddenly got nauseated and went outside. They put one yellow bag in front of the SW bin and one red in front of the N bin.

Could not get close to W bin cause it's guarded, people checking their phones. So they listened to what i said about the bin not being a toilet (first entry today). Now i got the smell in my clothes on top of the homeless smell.

12:55 AM 09 That was not my clothes. That was another two in the grass, a bit outside my normal search range.

12:44 AM Should not write about music so early Monday morning but to me is just past midnight Sunday. Should not write about music at all cause it may bring me bad luck when i'm so sick. No i'm not drunk, i'm only high on clostridium toxins. And what i'm about to say has little to do with music anyways. And it's hard to call the linked songs music.

Every time i was hearing that song in the long driving hours at night kept asking myself what the h... that Ouch Oh Titi Oh Gee Oh thing means. Cause is the only thing i could understand from the song. Never caught the name or title of the song from DJ's or whatever they call them now at the radio. Show ghosts. Cause they're not even there. It's all AI now.

Ok so i took all songs from Billboard Hot 100 and listened to those i could not recognize it by name and found one at number 16. Hot To Go.

Ok, i could eat that girl for lunch i said to myself after i watched the very low budget video. BTW the only outfit that really fits her in the video is the yellow one in front of that biker.

However, i would first like to cook and eat Phil Collin's heart (before i die) (yes that is the face of a Jew, suffering, in the applause of the audience, just before we hear the sound of Phil's heart hissing gas), in one of the most horror songs ever made and played endlessly (for decades) on the radio. In the Air Tonight which is about gas chambers and stuff. Just watch his hateful face and listen carefully to the rest of the words.

So i was in Lincoln City at Road's End tiny park (i was so many times there, the road actually never ends) it's just another built in symbolism and told Angela just that and switched the radio to classic music (there are only one or two non-country stations there) just to escape (oh i'm so predictable) and the DJ soon presented and switched to the Slovak Phil Harmonica (yes it pronounces that way). Yes it was a... Walz (by Straus).

Was it because i said i wanted to harm that talentless skinhead Phill Collins? Phil Harm onica?

Ok but eating Phil Collins's heart or that girl for lunch would not help anything. There are two many of them. Anywhere. And snakes could be poisonous to eat. BTW what are those? (Is everybody's budget shrinking?)

1:40 Wait a minute, another coincidence or she is teasing (me only)?

2:03 Another one i keep hearing any of my trips when i switch to 92.3 cause i'm so sick of that commercial with top dog dot com. Diabetic's song. "Tease a little"?

8:54 Got a visibly pulsating artery on my lower neck. Trying to go to the hospital.

4:35 Angela came and took me to St.Vincent. They did an EKG on me right away. Then i waited for about one hour to get into a room. In my imagination all i was seeing was the ceiling of the corridors going towards the OR.

They hooked me to a monitor and my blood pressure at first was reading 215/129. Then they did an ultrasound. Tech told me not to worry about. Doctor told me i have an anatomic variation that brings the right carotid close to skin and with that blood pressure...

It is somewhat true cause right now when my BP came back closer to normal, after taking Lisinopril and given one liter of IV fluid, the pulsation is not that visible. The way it is right now could have been there, unseen, for a longtime. I turns i was really dehydrated, i think i drank wine and coffee yesterday and didn't drink much waver or something. Also was perspiring a lot.

But can't drink water with this smell, i get nauseated right away.

Other than that, blood sugar was 380. The blood sugar was around 300 during the times i was drinking sugar free soda. One i stopped that, it went up. Because that soda was hydrating me and diluting by blood sugar a bit.

I told the nurse about the problem with dog waste and she said i should take it with the management which i did.

So when i got  here i started to walk towards the office building when a guy whom i saw before, in late 50s or early 60s, gray hair, not very tall came with his dog and had the probably trained dog defecate in front of me, then picked in a green bag and threw it unknotted in the bin and then he went in building 3 i guess (had to look one more time).

So he kinda tried to take it all on him, hoping i would complain about that one first which i didn't. I am not a kid anymore. For a longtime now.

At the office they told me this is a common area and anybody can come when they want. They said they will try and send an email to everybody however they cannot teach people to knot bags and also knotting is more a matter of style then a rule which "they can't enforce anyway".

Then i asked them to install a camera and they said this is common area and they cannot and told me i am allowed to install one at the door instead.

At the door it won't do nothing cause no bin is on direct line of view and in the back where i can see a bin and all the lawn there are too many kids. But i'm thinking about.

BTW after i looked the last time in a bin i got a cold sore that numbed the area around it. What is doing that?

9:42 AM First there was an engine humming in the distance. It started i think when i saw the images at Heaven's Gate and lasted for about 15 minutes or until i forgot all about it. In the N bin there is still a mat that was in the front of the bin and i pushed in horizontal position because was taller than the front of the bin and sticking outside, hoping it will be cover with garbage sacs.

Someone then added a broken litter dust sac on top of it. Just by sticking my nose yesterday and trying to move the sac in the back i got cold sores around my mouth.

Every time something vibrates on a certain frequency, the mat vibrates and spreads that s...t in the air.

I am already nauseated and now i'm supposed to make breakfast and eat.

Then it started upstairs.  Just looked. There is some piece of furniture covering now that mat. But it still stinks. From there or from poop bags somewhere else.

10:40 Went to make an omelet. But while doing that i got mad over all kinda things. Every time i do that, they start upstairs. When i'm in the kitchen are, the marches are parallel with that window. Useless. There is no real activity upstairs behind it, i can feel it. Then i remembered.

Yesterday we left after 3:45 for Indian Head. Exactly when i left, two persons left from upstairs. But they did not take the giant white pickup from their spot. They left on foot. From behind i could tell she was not the person i saw last time (earlier that day) leaving on foot. This one was taller.

Then we met again with them when they were trying to leave the spot they had the Element (FUS) parked in. A visitor spot in the raw next to office. But they were blocked by another car. I saw her face, never saw her before. I stopped and was scrambling for the camera when they were not pretending anymore they were blocked and left before us.

How many different persons i saw until now coming from upstairs, on the rare occasions i have been looking?

It is the same as with the previous occupants.

I believe there is one "permanent" person and they are simply handing the keys of the apartment and the car to whoever wants to come here. They pretended these people are here for me. Everywhere i look in this parking lot i see pickups with ladders on top, suggesting i climb upstairs to them.

But while they are upstairs, they are instead torturing me. It's a double action. Never speaking or speaking on the phone, watching TV, taking showers, flushing the toilet, cooking, buying groceries. Just stepping on the floor for hours or until they get tired. Then they leave and somebody else comes the next days.

10:55 The real Indians there are calling him Darth Vader. When i first saw him there he was acting as a security guy "wearing" some sort of breathing tube going through his mandible, looking like a pharaoh hence the name.

Then more recently he got rid of the tube and again acts as a security officer. Not a nice one, i once asked him a question and he answered evasively with an arrogant attitude.

12:00 Like so many of her predecessors she left right before we were about to leave (mainly because of her). She stopped on the stairs, to let me take a good look at her face. Looks like the most seen one, round with small ears, in her 40s, she looks like the intellectual type, i will search for her among the writers, when i get back.

12:37 Went to put some air in the tires (got 31-32) last night when coldest on Mt.Hood. Exactly when i went to install the pump on rear wheels two guys came to climb a truck when i was bending. Then after they left, when i was about done, i saw the veteran's wife at D1, sitting on the curb, again looking offended because i dared working on car again.

11:35 She waited for us... to flush the toilet! Walking on every of my thoughts.

On the road. One sac of garbage in the middle on the median yellow line. Coming early, i caught much traffic coming from Portland (none in my direction). 90% of the drivers have modified headlights. Low beam stronger than normal high beam. From time to time, a normal one, just to make me mad when thinking at the others.

I think it's all Amazon's fault. They make it so easy to buy off specs LED lamps (with no cuttoff line).

The magic in the streets. Driving west bound. Fires on a field just before the landfill, wind blowing from east, smoke continuing for 10 miles. Smokes mutates bacteria in the air and in your body.

Drank some wine, went on the beach, climbed back the stairs, got a bit of breakdown at the big muskles of my legs. Fell asleep in the car, my legs went cold, mutated bacteria thrived in my muscles and spread into my body when i walked to the restroom before i left.

While driving it kept thriving, especially after i passed again through that dirty smoke. Got it in my jaws muscles (cause i talked). Took one orally, put right now two patches on those big muscles on my legs. A bit of trouble typing.

Upstairs, squeaking. It's 10 minutes before midnight.

1:26 AM I went to close the back door and heard a dog barking and looked saw on the other side of the sliding door the same very short woman i saw the other day. 20 ft away from me.

9:27 After two hours mostly squeaking today, i saw a woman coming from upstairs, leaving on foot, while the giant white truck is still the spot for upstairs. She looked thinner and shorter than what i saw other times hence smaller noises.

1:09 They slowed down with the green bags. There was now a yellow bag knotted but not tight enough in the SW bin. There is a wet mat in the N bin where the wind is blowing from and somebody put on top of it an open plastic sac with litter dust in it (a variation from the green bags yesterday).

I tried to grab it to throw it behind that mat but it had holes and started to pour dust and i got to breath some. Booby trapped. Got it on my throat. My voice has changed.

Really don't know how could someone bring a sac with litter dust with holes at the bottom. No i did not pinch it with my tool, i grabbed it from top. I pinched a sac yesterday when i tried to get it out of the way to take a picture, but id had clothes or something harmless in it and they built on that.

While getting back to the apartment i met with two "kids" from around here, dressed in black. One of them went ahead of me towards the building but passed my entrance.

Now my clothes smell like litter dust. Got to take a shower.

3:36 After i took a shower i had to renew my New Skin on the toe. It contains acetone and other solvents and smells pretty much like nail polish. So she came back upstairs a little back earlier, to claim that.

2:00 After midnight (about more than an hour ago) i went and found two open bags in the SW and N bin. Grabbed my tool (i had too much to drink before i slept a number of hours, hard to walk) went to the SW bin and knotted one.

However next to the N bin there came and stopped this car with bright lights on so i went inside, waited to see if it still smells (it all depends on the wind's direction, tonight there is none). So i went after about half hour and knotted that one too.

I bet they did the trick with the car to gain time (for the dogs to get ready?) to bring some more in other bins (continuity), cause i think now it smells again.

8:40 Nu există gastrită. Gastrita așa cum o știm este o reacție a organismului la un mediu toxic prin creșterea acidității în stomac datorată prezenței în aer a bacteriilor și a mucegaiurilor iar sursa principală este procesarea gunoiului menajer sau felul în care sunt tratate tomberoanele și ghenele și/sau materiile fecale ale animalelor de companie care de multe ori sunt ale vecinilor precum și praful de pe stradă și din materialele de construcție.

Mult acid în stomac ajunge până la urmă să consume mucusul protector și stomacul începe să se digere singur. Acidul urcă și corodează esofagul (usturime, heartburn). De multe ori vârful (durerea) se elimină cu un praf de carbonat de sodiu din bucătărie.

Câți ani de zile am pierdut până am aflat asta?

Singura chestie că la persoanele în vârstă organismul nu mai reacționează la fel ca la cele tinere (pompând mult acid în stomac adică) iar organismul devine foarte vulnerabil la infecții, care afectează de multe ori organele care au suferit alte traume până la infecție generalizată, pe care o poți duce în spate mulți ani înainte să afecteze organele vitale (creierul, inima).

Organismul în vârstă de asemeni nu mai are același răspuns imun, iar dacă îți faci analizele, leucocitele vor fi poate în limite. O simplă febră musculară care nu se mai vindecă din cauză că (celulele moarte) din mușchii respectivi sunt invadate de bacterii. 

9:00 Upstairs it started slowly (in small doses) so i won't become alarmed. Then it grew more and more while i was getting used to up to levels similar to other days over an hour or so.

10:42 Went earlier and knotted 4 bags in the W bin. Forgot to take the camera with me and went again to take a picture of the knotted bags by me since they emptied the bins yesterday. One ups van came and stopped by the building accross (i think C).

One SUV with bright lights stopped behind the UPS truck like in the picture and was there for the whole time i was at the bin, took the pictures and came back. Then they both left. Got to go and take another pictue of the bags, this one was "moved" (moved the camera while pressing the button). By looking at the second picture i realize she has left (the Element is not there), did not realize that.

11:01 Ok so i went but in the meantime they came and moved some cardboard boxes on top of it and had to go back inside to grab a stick to move those out of the way to take the picture. I figured they needed 4 bags today because it's raining and the rain possibly attenuates the propagation of smell and bacteria.

11:22 I said yesterday that the woman upstairs looks like a wrestler from Hungary. (BTW the Element is back in the spot). Small ears, small head, big body. Could be her. Today i'm thinking, by the energy she exhibits when at home that only an athlete can do that.

3:35 Angela came and we decided to stay home tonight and watch movies. I first went for the poops. As soon as i opened the back door, a siren went off, real loud. Found none in the bins but i found some in the grass, last one next to SE bin. Went to throw the bag in the bin, some tall real Latino guy came from east with a kid and passed behind me.

I went to the apartment the short way, that is through the grass, can't do directions through the grass on google maps but found one more garbage item and picked to throw it in the N bin. However when i got into the alley i met with same guy with the kid, probably going to the kindergarten (Building D, last entrance, he took the long way shown with blue on map (coming on foot, "not knowing the address").

Then i saw him passing by my windows, going the same way i came from that bin, alone.

This is what i call people playing stupid and ignorant. After all i wrote here, they still have a kindergarten across the alley?

7:36 Could not stand the smell, found a huge one in the W bin. The bag broke a little first time i tried to fish it. For days now every time i go for the bins people and cars are getting in my way, i don't know, hoping for a confrontation?

10:17 Every time i mentioned the green Honda Element parked in the spot for the apartment upstairs, today totally accidentally, they bring another one, usually parked next to the SW bin, and she came here by the means of a giant white pickup.